AN: Sorry that I didn't update yesterday, however my internet was knocked out by gale force winds, so here's yesterday's update.
Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans.
"Desperado, why don't you come to your senses
You've been out ridin' fences,
for so long - now.
Ohh you're a hard one.
I know that you've got your reasons.
These things that are pleasin'you
Can hurt you somehow."
Eagles
Chapter 20 – Desperado
It was nearly midnight and the moon hung shallowly over the sky, its pleasant glow radiating the surface of the Tower. Raven lay unmoving on her bed, her eyes still open, staring at her door. She hadn't been able to sleep at all and she didn't really know why. Perhaps it was the recurring thoughts of Beast Boy that kept her from slumber. She had felt glad after forgiving him, and now she felt a yearning to be with him. Knowing he was just a mere few steps from her room did not help her predicament. Raven forced herself to stay in bed, she needed to sleep and so did Beast Boy. This feeling, like a mild fire constantly burning underneath her heart and ascending in intensity whenever Beast Boy came into view, was definitely new to Raven. She didn't understand it, and though it was thrilling, her inability to control it was frustrating her to no end.
Raven sat up on her bed, holding her knees close to her chest. She could not control her potent feelings for Beast Boy. She hoped that she could, but by intuition she knew that it was irrepressible. Could she ever tell Beast Boy? Would he hate her for holding something back? Raven didn't know how he would react to the news and that's what scared her. She couldn't stand the fiery feeling that constantly burned at her, but she couldn't stand not to feel the purity of that feeling. She heard a soft knock at her door, and she quickly stood up walking towards the entrance of her room. Opening the door wide, she could feel her heart propel up her throat as she saw Beast Boy.
Beast Boy bit his lip when he saw Raven come out of her room. He hadn't wanted to sleep; all he had wanted to do was to keep his head full of Raven. He felt as if he was walking in a dream, it was strange enough that he had knocked upon her door at the very cusp of midnight.
"You're awake" muttered Beast Boy.
"Yeah… you do know it's midnight Beast Boy" said Raven, trying to sound stern though her voice came out soft.
"I do… I was thinking about you" replied Beast Boy softly.
"Were you?" stammered Raven, feeling a fluttering at her stomach at his words.
Beast Boy nodded. "Sorry to wake you" mumbled Beast Boy.
"Don't worry about it, I was already awake" muttered Raven.
"Oh… why?" asked Beast Boy concernedly, remembering about Raven's nightmares.
"Not a nightmare" answered Raven, seeing the worried look in Beast Boy's eyes.
"So you're not having them anymore?" said Beast Boy.
"I don't know. I guess not" uttered Raven quietly.
"Do you… do you mind coming with me? There's something I wanna show you" murmured Beast Boy, looking into Raven's violet eyes.
"I don't know Beast Boy, I really should be getting some sleep" replied Raven, biting her look and taking a backward glance into her room.
"Trust me. It's not something you'd want to miss" whispered Beast Boy.
Raven looked into his eyes. Trust him. That was a big ask from her. She sighed, hoping he had meant the statement casually.
"Okay…" surrendered Raven. She had always known how persistent Beast Boy was, and she had always known that giving up to him was the easy way out, though she had never known that giving up could reap so much reward.
Beast Boy looked at Raven with a contented smile. She had changed so much, she had become more… herself, without the cold demeanour. He reached for Raven's hand, grabbing a hold of it, his body shivering at her soft touch. Beast Boy led her, and she followed him by his side.
By now Raven had a general idea of where Beast Boy was going. He was leading her to the roof, why though, she had no clue. The pair stepped onto the roof and sat upon the edge, facing the diffused glow of the waning moon.
"Do you like it?" whispered Beast Boy, staring at the sky.
Raven looked around her. The stars shone in the background, tiny dots pricking through the darkness, like fires trying to survive a flood. It was a cloudless night, and nought could be seen but the beautiful glimmer of distant stars that seemed to cause prickles against her skin. It was a bright night, not one where everything was enveloped in complete darkness. A pleasant whispery, light flowed through the streets and buildings of the city, giving a haunting yet graceful look about it. The very slightest of breezes blew from the west not even a sound issuing from the large movement of air. The near silent rustling of leaves, and cries of the night's animals were the only thing that could be heard, but everything was washed away by the dulcet glow of moonshine. It was soft and alluring but at the same time, brilliant and penetrating. The moon was high in the sky, enrapturing all in its beautiful light.
"Beast Boy, it's… beautiful" replied Raven softly.
"I'm glad that you like it" murmured Beast Boy, turning to face her.
Raven couldn't make out all his features in the moonlight, yet the ashen glow seemed to give his face radiating luminosity. Suddenly, the song Imagine started playing softly through the night, causing Raven to start.
"It's okay, I just brought some music… dunno why, just thought, you know, it'd suit" explained Beast Boy, hoping Raven was okay with the music.
Raven didn't object. It was nice, soothing and relaxing, to hear the dulcet tones of a song in what would usually be silence. It gave the tune an eerie feel. Raven rested her head upon Beast Boy's shoulder, feeling the comfort of his warmth flowing over her. Gazing out at the midnight skies, Raven breathed in the cool air.
The soft caress of the song slowly faded into silence, its quiet layers dissipating into the black night. Raven sighed, feeling like the finish of the song was the close to the night. Beast Boy looked tenderly at Raven, his soft emerald eyes causing her heart to flutter. He smiled, a soft smile, a mix of unreadable emotions, his fang biting his lips.
"Do… do you want to dance?" whispered Beast Boy, his eyes still clinging to her.
Raven looked at the affection hanging on Beast Boy's face. She had never danced, but she couldn't deny him. Raven stood up, Beast Boy getting up to face her simultaneously, their attracted eyes never leaving one another's. The soft dulcet tones of music began to play across the night, adding to the beautiful ambience. The pair held each other, swaying to and fro as the caressing notes of Desperado rang out, permeating the air. Beast Boy and Raven clasped hands, their sensitive skin electrified by the contact. And as they held each other, dancing gracefully to the hypnotic tune of the music, they were oblivious to all around them. The only thing they could see was each other's eyes, each with soft brilliance. The only thing they could feel was each other. The only thing they could hear was the soft, subtle breath issuing from the other. They were lost in the moment, feet moving without direction or thought, body moving aimlessly. Their closeness brought shudders down their spine, causing their minds to collapse, and their hearts to expand.
They didn't know how long they clasped at each other, feeling the warmth of each other and the comfort the other gave. They had lost the concept of time. The beautiful tones of the song slowly faded away, causing their hearts and minds to return to the world, though they were still lost in each other. At the close of the song, the two fell into each other, as if they wanted to fall through each other, to be together completely.
"Thank you" breathed Raven. Beast Boy just held her in his arms, not wanting to ever let her go. How long the two stood in firm embrace was unknown to them, all they cared about in the moment was each other and nothing, not even a burning fire, nor gushing water, nor the hand of God himself could separate them from each other.
Raven sighed into Beast Boy's shoulder, and reluctantly pulled away from him. Beast Boy looked at her, and the two slowly made their way down back into the Tower. Beast Boy couldn't think of anything, he could only feel, and he felt as if his heart was trying to claw its way out of his chest, and leap at Raven. He wished they could be together forever, rather than having to do all this shifty business in the dark of midnight.
They arrived in front of Raven's room a few minutes after they had left the roof, and Raven stood by her door, giving Beast Boy a soft, tender look.
"Beast Boy, it was a nice night" murmured Raven awkwardly.
"It was" whispered Beast Boy.
"Thanks" said Raven, looking at the floor, before turning around taking a step into her room.
"Good night Raven" murmured Beast Boy.
"It already has been" breathed Raven, so softly that only Beast Boy's acute ears could pick up the words. Raven flopped onto her bed, her mind seemed to be non-existent. It felt as if it had been overwhelmed, consumed by her emotions, by her feelings. She felt her bed rock as the feelings for Beast Boy that Raven had been suppressing with all her force finally exploded out of her. There wasn't much left in her room anymore to destroy, so instead she ended up throwing drawers open, rocking her bed and forcing small objects to fly in circles. She could only ever control the emotions that bottled up when she was with Beast Boy, for only a short amount of time. Putting thoughts of her problems at the back of her head, Raven closed her eyes, still feeling Beast Boy's firm arms around her. With that final thought, she drifted off to sleep, a content smile across her face.
Beast Boy was lying on his bed, his breath coming short, and shuddering. Oh, she was so beautiful, so elegant, so perfect. There were no words to describe her, he just felt as if such divinity could never possibly be understood nor taken in by any. Just holding her, clasping her hand, embracing her had forced his heart and soul into a frenzy. And now he was infected with a fever, a fever that flowed through his body, burning his muscles, his heart, his mind and the depths of his spirit and soul. He felt that surely he had to be in love, he must love Raven. Beast Boy shook his head, having learned about the fickle nature of love, and how one can be so easily fooled by their hopes of achieving it. He couldn't tell yet, was there any way to tell at all? Closing his eyes contently, Beast Boy turned onto his side, prepared for a good night's sleep, the tender tune of Desperado still playing through his head.
AN: I don't know where I got Desperado from, but I downloadeded it randomly. Apparently it means someone who cannot wait for something to happen, almost literally. Thanks for all the reviews, I hardly expected this many people enjoying my story. Have a good day peeps.