AN: Here's today's installment. It's back to school for me, so some chapters might take a bit longer to come than normal. Hope you enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titan
Fly to my hand, oh Raven,
For I shall look after you,
Land upon my shoulder, oh Raven,
For I shall care for you,
Let me hold you, oh Raven,
For I want to comfort you.
Nip at my shoulder, oh Raven,
For I wish to feel of you,
Bite at my heart, oh Raven,
For I shall love you,
Tear away my soul, oh Raven,
For it yearns to be with you.
Kill me, dear Raven,
For I cannot live without you.
Chapter 27 – No More
Raven walked solemnly down the streets of Jump City, the night's howling breeze threatening to blow her over, but she kept on. She had no idea how she was going to confront Beast Boy, but she needed to talk to him, needed to sort some things out. She was afraid to face him though; afraid of what he might say, afraid that she would fall to temptation. With a sigh, she stopped in front of Titan's Tower, looking at the towering building that seemed to rise into the night skies. She dearly hoped that Beast Boy wasn't in, hoping to prolong the inevitable. She walked into the Tower, her cloak sweeping behind her.
"Hello Raven, nice of you to join us" muttered Robin as Raven entered through the Tower's door.
"Hey Rae, where've you been all day" asked Cyborg, pausing his video game.
"I've been out" muttered Raven in reply, walking past her friends out of the common room.
"Did I say something wrong?" said Cyborg, as he watched the common room doors slide closed.
"I think she's just had a long day" replied Robin, his eyes still stuck to the entrance of the common room.
Raven stepped into her room, thankful that Beast Boy wasn't in yet. She sighed heavily, preparing herself mentally for her encounter with Beast Boy. She knew he would feel betrayed, cheated and she couldn't stand to see the look of anger, betrayal and hurt in his eyes that had once swirled with care. Raven, closed her eyes. She had made the right choice though, she knew it, there was no other way to keep everyone happy. A tapping sounded at her door, waking her from her thoughts.
"It's Robin" came a voice from the other side of the door.
"What do you want?" asked Raven. Probably to interrogate her some more about Beast Boy, she guessed.
"Dinner's on the table if you're hungry, you haven't joined us to eat for a while now" said Robin.
He was right, thought Raven. She hadn't been very kind to her friends as of late. It wouldn't hurt to join them at the table. She got up from her bed, and stepped out of her room, to a satisfied Robin.
"Thanks Raven" he replied. They walked into the common room, and sat the kitchen table to the delight of Starfire and Cyborg. Raven looked around, seeing her companions eat quickly. It was Chinese takeaway. Raven hadn't even noticed how hungry she was, her thoughts having occupied her mind completely. She dug into her food, though slowly, eating gladly.
"Long time no see" piped up Cyborg, his mouth full of food.
"It's great to see you too" muttered Raven without looking up.
"Where've been lately?" asked Cyborg.
"Around" replied Raven, swatting away the question.
"You have been at the Around?" asked Starfire confusedly.
"No…" started Raven.
"She means…" said Robin, explaining the entirety of the expression to Starfire to Raven's relief. They had avoided the issue, and she was grateful for it. She didn't know how long she could take the constant pestering of her fellows, but she couldn't reveal to them the whereabouts and reasons for her outings. Not yet at least.
"Anybody seen Beast Boy?" asked Cyborg, looking around the table as if just noticing he was not there.
"No, he hasn't been around all day" replied Robin.
"Perhaps we should go look for him?" suggested Starfire concernedly.
"I'm pretty sure he's okay" muttered Robin in response.
Raven took a final bite of her food, before standing up and leaving the table. She didn't want to be around for a conversation about Beast Boy, thinking about him was enough to make anxious. She was so afraid that she would be unable to control her impulses, and would return to him, destroying her entire plan. She didn't how she was going to resist, the only way she could think of was to continually remind herself of her obligation to Simon. Hopefully Beast Boy would back off if she denied him… though it wasn't something that she was hopeful for. Beast Boy's persistence was legend. She just wanted Beast Boy to come back into the Tower, she was sick of waiting in anxiety and worry. She just wanted the entire encounter to be over with, to settle some issues and then move on. Raven stepped into her room, with a sigh, picking up a book to keep her mind off Beast Boy.
Late night was approaching and Beast Boy still hadn't come back. Raven sat in her room, still unable to shake the foreboding feeling from her head. With a growl of irritation at her inability to throw her anxiety out, she stood up taking her book with her. Perhaps it would be easier to drown out her thoughts if she mingled with the other Titans. With swept out of her room quickly, heading for the common room. Not an eye rose at her entry, something that she was thankful for. Cyborg was on the couch, predictably playing his video games. Robin and Starfire were still sitting on the kitchen table, a friendly chat ensuing between them. Raven sat down, beginning to read the book in her hands, hoping her mind would drift away from Beast Boy.
Raven's eyes skimmed over the lines of the book. It was a good one; The Shining. Her mind wasn't really into it though; she was merely reading words, not the story. She was slightly worried that Beast Boy was in danger, or had been hurt. It was unnatural for him to be outside of the Tower for so long, and especially so late. She just wanted to see him again, his green complexion and his handsome face. To look into his blazing eyes, and hear his soft, soothing voice. Raven shook her head, trying to shake the thoughts of Beast Boy. She couldn't let her feelings for him interfere with her plan for his welfare and Simon's happiness. She forced her eyes back onto the pages of her book, letting the words wash over her in an attempt to drown at any thoughts.
The door to Titan's Tower, revealing a green changeling. His face was hard, obviously racked in thoughts. The other Titans paused in their activities, turning to face their companion.
"Yo B, what's up?" asked Cyborg, seeing the look on his face.
Beast Boy merely grunted in reply, stepping slowly into the common room.
"Beast Boy, where have been?" muttered Robin, his eyes questioning.
"Out" stated Beast Boy, his voice low and dangerous.
Raven looked into his eyes seeing a swirling world of emotions behind them, none of them were comforting. Beast Boy's eyes swept over the common room, finally finding Raven's.
"Raven, we need to talk" muttered Beast Boy, his eyes narrowing at her.
Raven looked sadly into his eyes, and nodded. The pair walked out of the common room, leaving their fellow Titans looking in confusion at each other, unaware of what was going on.
Beast Boy and Raven walked out of the common room, stepping into Beast Boy's room, the door closing swiftly behind them. The pair looked at each other, their faces filled with emotion. Raven stared into Beast Boy's eyes, the hurt and betrayal etched into his face. She felt a longing to comfort him, to hold him and to apologise for everything that she had done, but she held herself back. She would be doing no one any favours in the long run if she submitted to the yearning of her heart.
Beast Boy gazed into Raven's violet eyes. Eyes that he had lost, eyes that he would do anything to regain. Her face was sad, and sorrowful, and his heart was pained to see her so. But things had to be sorted out, and he couldn't let her sad face force him away from the issue.
"Hey Raven" murmured Beast Boy, trying to get conversation started in a friendly tone, rather than hostile.
"Hey…" replied Raven softly, unable to avert her gaze.
"Who was that guy I met today?" asked Beast Boy.
"He was who he said he was" answered Raven.
"Is he going out with you?" inquired Beast Boy cautiously.
"… Yes" shuddered Raven, her voice coming out so softly that Beast Boy could barely pick it up.
"So you're with him?" asked Beast Boy, his eyes darkening.
"Beast Boy…" started Raven.
"You chose him over me" muttered Beast Boy nodding his head, as if agreeing with his realisation.
"It's not like that Beast Boy" said Raven.
"I can't believe that you'd… I… I thought we had something Raven. I thought we had something that no one else could possibly give" whispered Beast Boy.
"Beast Boy it's…" started Raven.
"How can you be with Simon? How? You can't be, this has got to be some ploy to push me away from you, isn't it?" cried Beast Boy in denial.
"You're wrong Beast Boy" muttered Raven.
"Am I? I just can't believe you could…" said Beast Boy softly.
"Believe it or not Beast Boy, it's happening" replied Raven quietly, her heart pounding painfully at her words. She could hardly breathe. She was forcing herself not to fall apart into Beast Boy, not to give in and it was painful.
"Raven… please don't do this. Please…" murmured Beast Boy.
Raven remained silent, her heart falling to shreds.
"It's not too late… you don't have to do this… I can't stand to lose you Raven, please don't let me lose you" whispered Beast Boy, tears welling up in his eyes.
Raven felt a tear slide down her cheek as she shook her head, forcing herself to deny him.
"Raven…" murmured Beast Boy, his voice in a world of pain.
"I'm sorry Beast Boy" whispered Raven, before walking out of his room, heading for her own. Tears fell freshly from her violet eyes, as her heart lay shattered at the bottom of her stomach. She couldn't believe what she had said, it had been so painful so horrible, but she had denied him, she had forced him off and hurt him. Her breaths came in shudders, as her body was racked with tears, and she fled into her room, lying pathetically on her bed, tears streaming down her face.
Beast Boy couldn't believe it. Heavy tears trickled down his face. Raven had denounced him, he had completely lost her. Unable to bear the thought, Beast Boy lay down upon his bed, his heart crying out to anyone, for comfort. Raven's face drifted through his head, and he choked on a sob. "Oh Raven…" he whispered to himself, his heart in horrible pain, as memories floated to the surface. It was over. They were over. He and Raven were no more…
AN: :( Hope you enjoyed this chapter. The Shining happens to be written by Stephen King, and is one that I've wanted to read for a while now. Thanks everyone for the reviews, they are much appreciated. I hope everyone has a nice day.