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I was jumping up and down --a bit sad, but who cares?! Can I just say I'm taking a break from writing my other story, no ideas are coming to me!
Just so you know my lovely readers, there will be lemon, just not yet. And my friend is going to help me write it because I'm not very good at it, however she does not want to be named so she will be known as LemonX --hehe
I DONT OWN TWILIGHT!
BPOV
"Edward, what exactly did Alice see?" I asked him calmly.
Jasper was downstairs cooling off.
"Jasper's lips were at your neck! I'm sorry I should have asked, but the thought of him hurting you was too much for me to bear!" He was so ashamed of himself, I hated that I was making him feel this way.
"Jasper has more control than you give him credit for!" I stroked his hair hoping to comfort him, hoping that soon he would leave and I could talk to Jasper.
"I know, it's just you mean so much to me, you are my life, I better get going and let everyone know your OK"
I kissed him and he deepened the kiss, I wanted to pull away, I didn't want him to touch me, I only wanted Jasper's touch. I pulled away "Edward, you don't have to breathe but I do" I tried to lighten the rejection with laughter, but it didn't work.
"Bella are you OK?"
"Yes Edward I'm fine"
"I can stay if you want"
"NO! You need to go and hunt and plus I never really got to know Jasper and we were having fun"
"OK, love"
He kissed me one more time "Edward, stop stalling and go, the sooner you go the sooner you'll be back"
With that he left.
JPOV
I could hear their conversation and I wanted to kiss Bella for sticking up for me.
I felt a gust of wind fly past me and Edward stood in front of me "Jasper, I'm sorry. I should have trusted you!"
"Yes you should have, now dont worry I will ring you if I kill her"
He knew it was no use talking to me, so he just left.
Leaving Bella and I all alone. I walked upstairs to where she was, she was just wearing in a baggy T-shirt and underwear. God she was amazing.
BPOV
"Hey" I turned around to see Jasper stood in the doorway. I ran and hugged him, "I thought he knew!" I burst into tears
"Shhh its ok, I'm here" He kissed my tears away.
Before I knew it we were kissing again. I pulled my top off all the while kissing him.
JPOV
She was so beautiful, she was mine! All mine!
I kissed her neck as she ran her hands up my abs. I growled with pleasure, her emotions and mine combined were driving me wild. I ripped off her bra.
"I liked that!"
"Who cares I'll get you a new one!" I started to make my way down. She moaned as I ran my hand up her thigh. Planting kisses all over her body.
"I love you too" She whispered in-audible to human ears.
"Are you sure you want to do this?"
She kissed me and I took
that for a yes.
EPOV
There was something wrong, something they weren't telling me, but I trusted Bella to tell me in her own time.
BPOV
I realised that I really loved jasper. More than Edward.
"Bella" He said whilst pulling away from my embrace, "I cant sleep with you, god knows I want to, but I CAN'T"
I felt tears coming, did he like to hurt me? See me beg?
I wouldn't let him win though, so I tried to fight the threatening tears and told him to get out.
"Bella please let me explain!"
"No its OK Jasper!"
"Are you mad?"
"No, I'm not mad and what a stupid question to ask, when you can feel my emotions, now.get.out!"
I emphasized every word.
I wasn't mad, well I was, but not with him, with myself, for throwing away everything I had with Edward. Jasper didn't love me. Edward did. I had screwed it up, I had nothing to live for, I had no one to live for. He would surely leave me once he found out. He would hate me.
I couldn't help but thinking:
What's the point??