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It's just…I couldn't trust him. Not yet when things were still so fresh.

I wanted to pull so badly, but the contract kept popping into my mind. I couldn't pull. I couldn't hurt Angela, Ben, and Edward that way.

So I cried myself to sleep that night scrunched into a ball, trying to hold myself together.

Bella's Point of View

It has been a week since I told Edward I forgave him. It has been a week since I told him I still couldn't trust him. It has been a week since Edward ran out on me.

School has been awkward this past week, considering Edward has every class with me. I want to talk to him so badly, to make him understand, but I can't bring myself to. He talks to me though. Everyday, he talks to me even though I don't talk to him.

I know he is trying extremely hard to gain my trust back. What with the talking to me no matter what and him getting his siblings to talk to me, I can tell he is trying really hard.

The only thing I have told Edward this week is that I haven't pulled once. Even though I have wanted to practically ever second of every day, I haven't pulled once. It could be because I was strong like Angela said, but I don't think it is. I think it was the doll Edward got me.

Edward bought me a little doll with a head full of hair. He said that if I ever needed to pull, I should try pulling the doll's hair. It really does help, but it is still hard not to pull my own hair.

Right now, I was sitting in Biology. Edward was next to me as usual. We were doing a lab as table partners, which required me to talk to Edward.

"So Bella, how are you doing today?" Edward asked me.

"Pass me the microscope?" I asked.

He smiled and handed it to me. "I am so happy that you haven't pulled in a week. You don't know how amazing that is."

"Pass me the slide please," I said.

Edward frowned but passed it to me. "Bella, you said you still wanted to be friends with me," he said.

"And I do," I said.

"HA! You talked to me! You talked to me!" he exclaimed.

I put down my work and turned to him. "Look Edward. I still want to be your friend, but I feel like I can't without you getting the idea that we are together again. We are not together again."

"I know that Bella," Edward said. "I just want you to at least talk to me. I can't stand talking to myself anymore."

"Okay Edward. I will talk to you. But if you even once try to make a move on me or anything like that, I will end it. I am not ready to get back together yet. If I ever want to get back together, I will be the one to make the first move. Do you understand?" I asked.

"Yes! Oh I promise I will be on my best behavior Bella. You don't have to worry about me."

"Good. Now let's get to work."

Okay, so I know it is extremely short, but I am having writer's block at the moment. I don't want Edward and Bella back together quite yet, so I need something to fill the time.

Anyway…when I come up with it, I will update immediately.

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