Alone
"Sakura please.", he said to her. "I don't want to be alone anymore.", he told her. "Sasuke, you are
never alone.", Sakura said to him, feeling the urge to break and to hold him and to tell him that it will
all be okay. But now, she's not so sure anymore. "Nothing matters anymore Sakura. If your not
with me then it's like I'm dead. I'm nothing with out you Sakura.", he said to her, holding her tighter.
Sakura closed her eyes and tried her most to keep from breaking down. "Sasuke... I", Sakura
started but was cut off by him. "Sakura, if there was a way to take everything back, I would do it,
believe me I would. Sakura please forgive me. I need you here with me.", Sasuke said to her.
"But... Riku... he wants me to go with him. And a part of me wants to. Truly, I want to stay here,
but everything feels so painful now. Everything around me makes me feel like I can't handle
anymore.", Sakura said, now letting out her tears. "Sakura, Riku doesn't know you like I do. He
doesn't know how much you mean to me. I don't know what Riku wants but if he wants you, he
can't take you from here like that. Sakura, you are the only thing I live for and the only person that I
actually feel something for. Sakura I love you, so much.", "Don't tell me that.", Sakura said now
crying harder. "Sakura please.", he said sadly. It felt like torture to feel so sad and Sasuke now
knew what she felt like when he left her. It felt like not being not able to breathe. "Please.", he
repeated. "I can't anymore, I feel like I can't give you anything anymore Sasuke. I'm so empty. Out
of everything that happened, it just feels like there's nothing else left. Please don't tell me to stay
anymore. I can't handle anything else.", Sakura said. "I can no longer love you. You broke my heart
so many times. I thought I could recover it all, really I did, guess I was wrong.", she said. She then
broke away from him. She stared at him, he was completely hurt by her. She then looked at him
and smiled, but she soon started to cry again. "Trust me, someday, you will forget this all ever
happened, you will find the woman that you love... and you will have kids with her, and you'll marry
her. You'll be happy again Sasuke.", she said and began to cry harder. "Sakura, I don't ever want
anyone else. I want you Sakura. I want you to be that woman.", he said as more tears poured
down Sakura's face. "I really wish that I could have been Sasuke but... there is no you and me,
there never was... and there never will be. I think that... my place is with Riyu, and I want to know
that it is Sasuke so please, please let me go.", Sakura said to him looking up at his eyes. Those
onyx eyes... they were shining with tear. And he looked into hers, they were still crying. Sakura
soon stopped crying and forced herself to get a hold of herself. And sadly smiled at him. Sasuke
looked even sadder. "Sakura don't leave me. With out you I have no purpose of living. i can't live
without you in my life.", he said to her. He then wrapped his arms around her once more and held
her, not wanting to ever let go of her, afraid of what might happen if he did. "I think of how things
will be like... I think about it... all the time. And, I think it will be better Sasuke.", Sakura told him.
"No it won't Sakura don't say that.", he said to her. Sakura then took one of his hands in hers and
put it against her cheek and closed her eyes. Sasuke supported what she did by stroking her hair
with his free hand. "Never.", she said with her eyes still closed. "We will never be together Sasuke,
it will never work out trust me. I have to let go, as do you.", she said sadly now with open eyes
staring at him. "Never.", he whispered to her. "I can never let go of you, ever, I don't care how long
it takes for you to forgive me, but I won't stop waiting.", Sasuke told her, she cried more. "Sasuke I
can't anymore. I never want to go through that again.", Sakura told him. "And you think you can
trust Riku?", Sasuke asked her. Sakura's eyes went wide, 'I never thought about...', she trailed off
as she looked up to see his face again. "Sakura... what makes you think that he won't leave you
when you go with him? Do you really think you can trust him all that much?", Sasuke asked.
"Sasuke, he was there for me when I needed someone the most. He was so honest with me. He
was so kind to me", Sakura told him. "I feel like I owe him all I have left.", Sakura told him. Sasuke
stared at her, shocked at what she said. "Sasuke, I have to go.", Sakura said now leaving him.
"Promise, me you're going to think about it at least.", Sasuke said to her. "Okay.", Sakura said and
left him alone.
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All the while that Sakura was at work, she couldn't think straight, all she could think about was the
choice she had to make. 'If I stay I will hurt Riyu, but if I go, I'll hurt Sasuke. This is so difficult.',
Sakura thought to herself. Sakura was now finished with work and was going to leave. But then,
she heard a knock on the door. She then opened it to see who it was. She was surprised to see
that it was Riyu, "Riyu, what are you doing here?", she asked him. He then put her hands in his, "I
came to see you of course", he said to her with a smile. To fit in, he wore black baggy jeans and a
black thermal. He also had his hair in a loose ponytail and he left his bangs out. He then wrapped
his arms around her and kissed her on the forehead. Sakura felt confused at first, but she soon got
over it. "I just came to see if you were alright.", Riyu told her. "Oh, I'm fine.", she assured him.
"Well... I just came to say that I'm sorry for what I did and that I shouldn't have treated you that
way.", he told her sadly. "It's alright Riyu.", she said. "No it's not, I should not have treated you that
way because I made you cry. I can't bear to ever see you cry.", Riyu told her now wrapping his
arms around her. "I care about you Sakura, I wouldn't ever want to hurt you.", he told her. She
slightly blushed, and at the same time, it all felt strange. Being here with him. It all seemed so sad to
her, how Sasuke was suffering just to keep her there and how Riyu was trying so hard to take her
with him. It all seemed so confusing when she thought about it. She sighed sadly to herself. "What's
wrong?", Riyu asked her, knowing something was wrong. "Riyu, what do I do? What can I do?",
she asked him. "Sakura, I can't tell you what to do. I can't force you to do something you don't
want to do. I care about you. But, I just don't want to hear you say later on that you made a
mistake.", he told her embracing her tighter. "I don't know what to do right now.", Sakura said on
the verge of tears. "Sakura, nobody is pressuring you to make this decision, just take your time and
think it over.", Riyu told her. Sakura softened because she knew that he really was comforting her,
he was saying all of this from the heart. He had no reason to lie to her about these things, he was
honest and kind. She then returned the hug and felt a little better. "Riyu... thank you for everything
you have done for me.", she said to him. "Anytime Sakura.", he said to her. She then saw him
leaning in closer and closer until their faces were a few inches apart. He was waiting for her to
accept. She then closed the last few inches and kissed him lightly. That is until, he depened the kiss.
The kiss turned passionate and welcoming. They held eachother tighter and they continued the kiss
for quite a while. While Sakura continued to accept Riyu's kisses, a quick flash of Sasuke came to
her mind, so she did the only thing that she could have done in that point, she broke the kiss.
"Riyu... I don't think now is the right time for this. I'm sorry.", Sakura said. Riyu smiled, "Don't even
worry about it.", he assured her. But deep down, Sakurafelt guilty towards something, she just
didn't know what. 'Why did Sasuke some to mind at that point?', Sakura thought to herself. After
the talk with Riyu, she walked home by herself. Riyu had asked her if she wanted him to take her
home, but she said it was okay. Sakura was still confused about her choice, but she felt the urge to
see Sasuke and to assure him that everything would be okay soon, but the only problem was, she
didn't know how far soon was. Sakura felt a pain in her heart still thinking about how Sasuke had
poured his heart out to her. How much he had regret it all. She had promised herself that she would
no longer feel sorrow for how Sasuke felt, but he was so honest to her. He showed her how much
he needed her to be in his life, and she felt so sad for him. But she also knew that giving him pity
would not solve anything. But, she still wanted everything to be right with her and Sasuke. 'Sasuke,
I really want everything to be okay between us. But, how can I do that if I'm stuck in this decision.',
Sakura thought to herself. She felt had also felt like the choice was also including something else: To
stay in Konoha, she chooses Sasuke, but Leaving it means she chooses Riyu not just over Sasuke,
but over everyone else. And it should have made sense to her that she should just leave the village
because nobody would care, and yet, it still felt completely wrong to think of it. She was deffinatly
stuck in between. But, she didn't know what to do. And the worst part was, that nobody was there
to help her in this situation.
To Be Continued
Well, there you have it! I'm really sorry about taking so long to update, I just had a lot of homework, and I mean a lot! I really hope you can forgive me. Please! Anyways, I hope you liked this chapter! I want to thank everyone that has been encouraging me to keep writing. I love you all and even your smallest reviews mean a lot to me! I love you all. And please no Flames!