Dad still refused to talk to me. Not that I was surprised at all. I couldn't even believe mom was talking to me. I don't think either of them have told Austin or Jenny yet. How do you even explain to your two young children that their older sister, who happens to only be 15, is going to have a baby?

I told Hilary that I was pregnant the day after I found out. I wasn't going to take any chances of her finding out from her mother or any rumors around school.

"What are you gonna do?" she asked.

"I don't know," I said softly.

"Well, I mean, do your parents know yet?" I nodded my head, "well, what about him?"

"Him? Him? I'm not even sure who he is"

"What do you mean Sav?"

"You know what I mean. I don't know how many months I am yet. We've been partying for weeks; we've been hooking up even longer. My parents already know, and they're not that mad, but they're disappointed. And I already told them that it's Tim. You wouldn't believe how mad my dad was about that."

"Why did you tell them it was Tim?" Hilary asked.

"I don't know. I panicked. My dad was convinced I was raped, or on drugs or something, so, I just said the first possibility. I mean, it is possible, I know I'm at least two months, but it could be longer."

"Well, I mean, what about an abortion?" I glared at her, "okay, maybe not. But I mean, come on Sav, think about it. You'll be sixteen when it's born, do you really think you could really handle it?"

"I don't know! God, why did I let you talk me into going to those parties!" I said, and quickly regretted it.

"Excuse me? I didn't force you to go to any of those parties! You went to each and every one of them willingly. I didn't make you hook up with any of those guys, that was all you!" Hilary yelled at me.

"You pressured me!"

"Oh, and you have to do everything that I do! Maybe you should start thinking for yourself! No wonder you've got yourself pregnant! You always have to be the center of attention, you'll do anything!"

"What?! That's not true!"

"Oh, come on Savannah, who are you trying to kid? I think that secretly, you wanted this to happen."

"What?!"

"It's the only way to be back in the limelight. Let's face it, your parents never pay any attention to you, and if it wasn't for me, no one in this entire school would even know you exist. The would see you and say, 'oh, it's the preacher's kid.' Admit it Savannah, without me you're nothing. But now, at least you'll get noticed. Maybe not for what you want to be noticed for, but it's something isn't it?"

"II can't believe you," I said before walking away.

I walked home by myself, and Hilary and I haven't spoke since. It's been two weeks. Mom just started talking to me, and dad can barely look at me. And today, we're going to my appointment, to see how far along I am. I just hope Tim's the father. Well, kind of. If it's Tim then I can have some kind of support, but I think our parents would force us to get married.

And if it's not, I can tell them that I don't want to tell them, when it's really that I'm not sure who it is. I'll never tell them I don't know. I don't think that they could handle it. I don't think anyone in my family would even want to know.

"Savannah!" mom called from down stairs, "let's go!"

"Okay, I'm coming."

"Kevin?" she called.

"Yeah, Luce?"

"I'm taking Savannah, we'll be back later." She waited for a minute for him to answer, he never did.

She sighed loudly, and opened the front door, "let's go."

The car was completely silent on the way to the doctors, I sat there, wanting to cry, but knowing I shouldn't. We pulled into an unfamiliar parking lot. This wasn't the same doctor's office that we'd been going to since before I can remember. I shot mom a confused look.

"What?" she asked.

"Where are we?" I said.

"We're at the doctors," she said.

"I thought we were going to our doctor?"

"No, honey. She isn't an OB-GYN. This one is. Don't worry, this is the one I go to."

"Oh," I said, still a little confused, "okay."

We walked in to light rock music playing, and many women sitting and reading magazines. I looked at them. Some of them looked like they were mom's age, if not older. Others looked like they were just a few years older than me.

Mom checked me in, and I just stood there, not knowing what to do with myself. I was desperately trying not to make eye contact with any of the women in there. For the first time, I felt ashamed. I have been mad at myself, cursed myself, but never ashamed. And now, all these women, the receptionist, I knew exactly what they were all thinking. Another girl got herself in trouble. She shouldn't be sleeping around. Do they not teach anything about sex in school? The sad thing was, for the most part, they were right.

"Savannah Kenkirk?" a nurse called, pulling me out of my daze. Mom and I both stood up, I walked towards the nurse. "Savannah?" she asked the two of us.

"That's me," I said softly.

"You're her mother?" she asked mom. She nodded her head, and gave me a confused look. "Right this way," indicating us to follow her.

We followed her into a semi-small room, which had maternity posters and such on the walls. She told us to wait for the doctor and with that, she left. Mom and I both sat there in an awkward silence, hoping that the doctor, who ever it was would just come in.

"Hello!" a woman said walking in. "Lucy, it's good to see you."

"It's good to see you too. Jane, this is my daughter Savannah, Savannah, this is Dr. Thomas."

"It's nice to meet you Savannah."

"Yeah, same here."

"Alright, if you just lay down on that bed there, and lift up you're shirt, we can see how you're doing so far."

"Okay," I said lying down.

"Looks like you're doing good so far, and you're at about eleven weeks," shit I muttered to myself, "and would you like to know the sex?"

"Um… I guess," I shot a glance to mom for approval.

"It's okay," she said softly.

"Okay… you are having a…" I held my breath, this made it real, "…a girl."

AN: okay, I'm really sorry about not updating. I just got back to university, and I've been writing through a block, and the Internet has been down the past couple of days. I'll try to have updated again by Sunday.

Okay, sorry about my little goof up, and thanks to those who brought it to my attention.