Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts… if I did there would be no Kairi and there would be a sex scene every 10 minutes because I could do that.
Warning: This fic has yaoi. And if you fucking don't like it or the pairings I've chosen, then either get over it or choose a different story cause I'm not in a fucking good mood!
A/N: Hello, you may call me Abandon. I am the Authoress of this fic… and I am bored cause there is nothing to do… Oh yes… I added another pairing. Axel and Roxas. Enjoy… while you can.
Chapter 8: The True Renegade
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-"Because I hated her more then anything, I could love her more then anyone too. A "chosen one" could never understand."-
(Angel Sanctuary, Vol. 10)
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"What the fuck do you mean?!" Axel yelled, backing Roxas into the pool table and slamming his hands on either side of Roxas' narrow hips. Roxas stared up patiently at his best friend.
"You heard me, Axel." He said, calmly. Axel's chartreuse eyes blazed.
"You CANNOT leave the Fallen. Ansem won't let you! He'll kill you before he ever lets you go. Is that what you want?" He asked.
"It's better than being his son! After he adopted me, I lost my memory of nearly everything before that day. He said that I was in an accident but I don't believe it. And the rumors about how we met. They make people think that you are a recruiter for the Fallen. It's my fault! I wanna know who I was! Who my friends were, things about my parents and the orphanage that I lived at. I feel empty." Roxas replied.
"Is my friendship not good enough for you? Is the family of the Fallen not good enough for you? There are people here who would gladly give up their life for you! I would like to see a person on the street do that for you, who would show that kind of loyalty. And… I… I…" Axel removed his hands from around Roxas' waist. He walked across the room and slumped onto a couch. "I lived on the street before the Fallen found me. I had to scrounge and beg for food, sometimes going for weeks without eating. I had only two sets of clothing. Shelters would never let me in so I couldn't wash them, let alone myself, so I was constantly dirty. Then Saix found me. He brought me to Ansem…" He sighed. "I know you had a good life before the Fallen and now you have an even better one. Don't make the mistake of throwing everything away!" Roxas sat next to him and put his hand on his shoulder.
"I hate this emptiness, Axel. I want to find the part of me that is missing. Like if Roxas is my real name and stuff like that. Please understand, Axel. I can't stay." He tried to reason with his friend. Axel turned his head away from him.
"Fine then! Leave! Get the fuck out!" He spat out, bitterly. Quietly he added, "I was bound to lose you anyway." The blonde teen reached out to stroke his companion's hair but the red-haired Pyro pulled away. "Don't touch me." He whispered. "Just go before I start hoping that you'll come to your senses."
"Axel…" Roxas trailed off. Axel growled and turned around, grabbing his friend's shoulders and closed the gap between them by pressing their lips together. Roxas made a slight resistance but relaxed into it, opening his mouth so that Axel's tongue could slip inside. Axel kissed him deeply, hungrily. Never had he wanted something so badly. He wanted more but Roxas probably couldn't handle it. The younger teen's hands found their way to his companion's shoulders. The two parted for a second before starting again, this time the kiss was far more passionate. Axel's hands moved down Roxas' back as Roxas' hands ran through his already wild hair. A slight moan escaped the smaller teen. Axel suddenly pulled back and shoved Roxas away.
"If you're leaving, leave. You're already making this hard enough! Consider that to be a goodbye kiss." The redhead said solemnly, closing his eyes. Roxas was stunned.
"How could you kiss me like that and then tell me to get out? How long have you felt this way?" He asked quietly. Axel didn't even bother opening his eyes.
"It was a spur of the moment thing. Just acting on impulse. If you're going to act like this you shouldn't have kissed me back. One would perceive that you were hoping to do that, just trying to change your mind. Well, it doesn't matter. Even if that was the case, we couldn't become anything more than good friends anyway. Ansem would never allow us to get that close." Roxas stood up.
"I don't understand you, Axel! Demyx says that you're in love with me. Riku hints at it. If you really are, why won't you leave this place with me? I can't be the only one feeling trapped Leave with me and we won't have to obey Ansem's rules anymore!" He exclaimed.
"Shut up!" Axel yelled, his eyes snapping open. "I can't leave! I won't go back to living on the streets with no food, no money and the constant fear of being raped or killed, or both for that matter! Everything can't be about you! You're such a spoiled brat!" Roxas looked shocked. Axel had never spoken so harshly to him before.
"Ax… Axel… why are you acting this way?" Roxas asked quietly. Axel's eyes started to blaze and the table behind him erupted into flame. Roxas winced. 'Shit. Now I'm in for it. He's so mad he can't control the flames.'
"Why? Why?! I'm pissed!" Axel shrieked and the flames mounted higher. "My fucking best friend is leaving m and isn't even considering how it will fucking affect me! That's why I'm acting like this!" You want me to throw everything so that you'll have someone to drag around. At least I know one thing Ansem did wrong! He spoiled you!" The fire on the table was almost reaching the ceiling. It was amazing that Axel hadn't set off the sprinkler system that had been installed for this purpose. Roxas slowly walked towards him, reaching out to grab Axel's arms. The blonde managed to get a tight grip on the Pyro before he was able to pull away.
"Calm down, Axel, calm down. You're going to burn down the club if you keep on carrying on like this." Roxas said. Axel calmed slightly and the flames died down. The redhead slumped to the ground and the fire went out completely, leaving the charred remains of the table behind. The waste of energy exhausted him. He closed his eyes and leaned his head on Roxas' shoulder. The blonde stroked his friend's hair until Axel's fiery aura dissipated. "See, look at what you've done. You know what happens when you get angry. At least it was just a table this time." Axel flinched slightly.
"Let go. Don't treat me like I'm weak." He said, pulling away from Roxas and shakily standing up. The red-haired Pyrotenetic leaned against the wall. "I'm going to say this one more time, go now! I want you to know that I won't be here for you when you come crawling back. That's if you they don't find you first." Roxas got up and picked up his black coat. "No, leave that here. Take the white one Demyx bought you. And another thing…" Axel reached in the pocket of his coat and pulled out a plain white box. He tossed it to Roxas, who almost dropped it. "That's for you. I had bought it for your birthday next month… but… well… you know…" Roxas opened the box and gasped. Inside lay a small blue crystal orb on a silver chain. He looked at his best friend in amazement. He had seen this in his "father's" throne room all the time and coveted it. Axel had most likely stolen it for him. Or…
"Axel, you didn't do anything regrettable to obtain this?" Roxas asked. Axel shook his head. Roxas stole another glance at the necklace in the box. "Thank you."
"Don't. I just want to warn you about one thing before you go. And it's something that you should know in the first place." The Pyrotenetic said. "Get on their bad side and they'll destroy you," Roxas smirked. He picked up his white trench coat and pulled it on.
"It doesn't matter. No one would miss me anyway." The blonde replied. Before Axel could comment, he walked out of the room. The flame-haired man slid to the floor and buried his face in his hands. The tears that he had been holding in since childhood came flowing. He had been beaten, starved and eventually abandoned by his family because of his gift to control fire and start fires with his mind. Living on the street only led to more beating and starvation, living in a constant state of uncleanliness but he never allowed himself to show weakness through it all. From start to finish, he had never shed a tear. Now here he was eighteen, four months away from nineteen, leaned up against a wall and crying his eyes out about a boy who he loved more that anything else in the world. He had always described himself as heartless but Roxas… Roxas made him feel like he had a heart and he would do anything to protect the person who invoked that feeling. But he couldn't tell Roxas how he really felt. Such feelings were forbidden.
"Roxas." He whispered. "I love you." But now the words came to late. Roxas would never hear them.
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A/N: Well, there you are. The chapter I was holding ransom. Next chapter, CLUBBING!!! Yosh!!! Yes, I made it an angsty parting of two should be lovers but don't worry I have big plans for them… Roxas is the glue that will keep this story together… Alright, R&R!!! Luv ya.