"Trini, how are feeling?" Bobby asked as Trini walked into her office early on Monday morning. She looked like death warmed over right now and he thought of telling her to go home, but she obviously wanted to be here.
"This weekend was rough, but I'll be fine," Trini said as she walked on towards her private office and closed the door behind her.
To be frank her weekend had been hell. She had thought of Jason so much that she had not even been able to sleep, but she knew that this was what she needed to do. She needed to stay away from him so that she could go back to just being friends with him. The fact was that although he had been evil, he had revealed more about his true feelings than he ever wanted to. She wanted him to be able to go back to Emily and have the happy life that he deserved. She would find a way to cope, somehow, she just didn't know how right now.
"Trini, you have a visitor," Bobby paged into her office an hour later as Trini looked up at the clock. Her first appointment was not due in until eleven o'clock and it was only 9:45. Who the hell would be here right now?
"Is it urgent?" Trini asked back in response as she rested her head against the desk. She hoped that in all honesty it wasn't and that she would be able to just tell this person to come back later.
"Hold on just a moment," Bobby said as he placed his hand over the receiver and looked up at the dark haired stranger. He had seen this man in pictures around her office and he was sure that if he was here it was urgent, but he had to ask anyway. "Do you really need to talk to her right now?"
"Yes, this is urgent," Jason said as Bobby looked down at the phone.
"He says yes," Bobby said as Trini let out a long sigh and then lifted her head from its position against the desk.
"Send him in Bobby," Trini said as Jason smiled. Although he could tell that she was not in the best mood in the world, she was at least willing to see him.
"She doesn't seem to be in a good mood today," Bobby said as Jason nodded.
He could tell that himself, but he had to see her. He was not sure that he could take another day wondering all the questions that were going through his head. He had to talk to her and even if this meant an end to their friendship, he would know exactly where he stood with her now.
"Hello, sir, what can I help you with?" Trini asked as she poured herself a glass of water before turning to face the man that had entered her office. As she did that, she dropped her glass of water, causing the glass to shatter into a million pieces. In front of her stood the man that had been haunting her dreams for the past week and she was not sure what to do at the moment. She wanted so much to run into his arms and wrap him up in a hug, but she also wanted to keep her distance. Her mind however did not have very long to process it as Jason wrapped her in a strong hug.
"Tri…" Jason whispered as he held her close to him and inhaled her scent. It had been so long since he had been able to hold her like this and he had missed this feeling. He had missed having this woman in his arms and knowing that she was only his. "I've missed you so much."
"What are you doing here?" Trini asked as he took a step back from her and then took in a deep breath. He knew that he had no way around this question, he was just going to have to tell her.
"I came to find out if I love you or not," Jason said looking down at the floor and Trini's mouth just fell open as she stared at him. This could not be happening, she had to be dreaming in some foreign land and she would wake up and all of this would just be a joke. Jason would not be here and she would be back in her normal world where he had not just said that sentence.
"Are you sure that I'm awake?" Trini asked as she sank to the floor and Jason looked at her as he sat down next to her.
"Yeah, I'm sure, Tri…" Jason said as she looked at him and then covered her face. "Tri, I have to know because I can't keep living like this, I can't keep hoping that one day you will just come to me and say that you care."
"But I do, you know that I love you like a friend," Trini said as Jason glared over at her.
"That is not what I am talking about and you know it," Jason said as Trini looked away from him. She was not ready to confront this subject, she just wanted to go back to her normal life. Where Jason would not dare to ask any of these questions and would just go about his life as if nothing had ever happened between them. "Trini, I have to figure this out and the only way I can is if you let me."
"And if I don't?" Trini asked as Jason looked over at her.
"I'll go back to California and keep living my life with Emily, but she is the one that told me to do this and she'll know if I come back that I didn't try," Jason said as Trini stared at him. "Everyone knew except the two of us how much we mean to each other. I always run to you Trini and I always will. There is absolutely no one that I would rather be with than you and you should know that by now. Give me a chance."
"Jason, I'm just not sure…" Trini trailed off as Jason reached over and kissed her gently.
"I understand…I guess that I have no choice but to go back," Jason said as he stood up and walked out of the room, dropping a piece of paper on the floor as he went. Trini, being her curious self, walked over and picked it up, thinking for a millisecond about whether or not she should even open it. Her curiosity, however, overtook her and she gently unfolded the piece of paper.
There have been so many days
That I have been alone
There have been so many nights
With no one to call my own
Each time I see you
It makes my heart grow fonder
And each time I touch you
It makes the wait much longer
I've never been one
To jump out on a limb
But I'm jumping now,
Just hoping I can swim
A life without you in it
Is no life at all
So it makes me wonder
Was this worth the fall?