(A/n) See I'm updating in a timely manner :P anyway here it is its 3am so yeah if there so grammar/spelling errors to bad...

Disclaimer- 6 chapters in and I still own nothing sadly.

Recap: Lizzie stood shakily and moved to her dresser moving opening her sock draw and moving the socks to find what she was looking for. Then she found it. A knife. She had thought about it immensely over the 2 weeks after she realized she loved Edwin but never did it.

She closed the draw and sat back in the corner.

She put the blade against her forearm about 1/3rd the way up from her wrist. Closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

Lizzie's POV

The cool blade touched her skin. She pressed it down inhaling sharply. She pulled the knife back her hand shaking violently. She could see the faint cut. It was small and bleeding. She moved it up a little from the previous cut and did it again. This time she had cut deeper but the cut was still small. It was making her feel better for some reason her wrist was hurting but it still felt good...

Suddenly there was a knock at the door "Lizzie?" Casey called "I'm coming in." and the door began opening.

Crap I forgot to lock it!

She quickly threw the knife under her bed.

Casey's POV

As Casey entered the dark room she saw the metallic part of a knife flash from the hallway light and slide under her bed. She saw Lizzie in the corner huddled in a ball.

"What do you want?" Lizzie said. Her voice hoarse from crying.

Casey didn't answer she simply closed the door and joined her little sister on the floor.

"You know it doesn't help any?" Casey said softly.

"What?" Lizzie asked confused.

Casey rolled up her sleeve show Lizzie her wrist.

Lizzie gasped. She could see 3 very faint lines.

"How? When? Why?"

"It... Was back when I thought Derek hated me... Just trust me Liz... it doesn't help... you may think it does but after awhile then you'll stat thinking it's stupid then you'll end up hating yourself more..."

"I can't hate myself anymore than I already do... for falling in l-love with..."

"With?"

"E-Edwin.."

"Why."

"Because it's obvious he'll never feel the same way... because it's "wrong"..."

"He loves you Lizzie... more than you know... he just wasn't thinking..."

Lizzie sighed. A few tears began to run down her face.

"I'm so stupid." She murmured mostly to herself.

"Liz you're not stupid... we all make mistakes... just don't do it again...Okay Liz?"

"I won't Casey... I promise..."

"I'm not gonna tell Mom or George, but if you do it again I will have to okay Liz?"

"Thank you big sis..."

Casey hugged her little sister and said, "You're welcome. Now come on Liz lets get those cuts taken care of..."

She helped her sister up taking her to the bathroom. She cleaned each cut, Lizzie grimacing each time Casey put some Neosporin on it and put band-aids on it.

She hugged her little sister one last time before kissing her forehead and leaving her to herself.

Edwin's POV

Edwin had been standing outside of Lizzie's bedroom for a good 10 minutes. Casey had been entering Derek's room when he came down from his bedroom. He had not worked up the courage to go inside yet...

Come on Edwin pull yourself together you need to apologize to her... for being so stupid.

Edwin sighed. Here we go.

He opened the door and found Lizzie lying on her bed sleeping with her headphones on listening to her IPOD.

He smiled. She looks so cute...

He took the headphones off turning off the IPOD and placing it on Lizzie's dresser.

He kissed her softly on the forehead. Then on the lips letting that one last a bit longer.

Before he knew what was going on he felt an arm pulling him back down on top of Lizzie. And she was kissing him.

When the kissed ended they were both red in the face and breathing heavily. Edwin moved from on top of Lizze and sat next to her on her bed.

"That...was amazing..." Lizzie said breathlessly.

"I'm sorry for waking you up." Edwin said shyly.

"S'okay... I... We need to talk anyway..."

"Yeah..."

They sat in silence for a moment before they both began at the same time. "I'm sorry..."

"Why are you sorry?" asked Edwin puzzled.

"Well... I guess I kind of over reacted..."

"No no I was being stupid... I shouldn't have said all that about it being wrong and honestly I don't care anymore..."

"Good." she said smiling softly and pecked him on his lips.

"I'm still kind of mad at you though..."

"I know...I have one thing left to do..."

"What's that?"

"Break up with Nicole..."

"Good luck..."

Edwin left Lizzie's room and went to his own. He dialed the familiar he hoped it wasn't to late because it was almost 9.

"Hello..?" The women he could only assume was her mom on the other line answered.

"Um hello... Can I please speak to Nicole?"

He heard on the other line the person yell upstairs "Nicky phone."

A few moments later, Nicole answered the phone.

"Hey Ed what's up?"

"Nothing... How are you?"

"Fine. Tried. I was about to go to bed actually since we have school tomorrow. Anyway, I know you didn't call me at nine to check up on me what's up?"

"Well... Nicole... I'm sorry about earlier... at the park how I didn't show up to your party..."

"It's okay I understand you had a family emergency. I overreacted; I should be apologizing to you... You've been a great boyfriend... and I should've at least heard you out before I hung up..."

"Well that's kinda what I wanted to talk about..."

"Huh?"

"Well... I... Nicole you're a great girl its just that.. I have feelings for another girl... and its not that I don't like you it's just..."

"So what are you trying to say Ed?"

"Ummm Nicole... I want to break up with you...Don't get me wrong, you're a great girl... just not the girl for me... I'm sorry..."

There was silence on the other line. He heard the phone being slammed against something and then the phone went to the dial tone.

"Shit.." Edwin muttered as he hung up the phone. He didn't want to lose Nicole. She was a great girl and an even better friend. A little over dramatic but hey all girls are.

He would have to deal with that tomorrow...

(A/N) There you are... I hope you liked it... Review please otherwise I won't know if my story is good enough to continue writing... Happy Independence Day for people in the US.