Chapter Three: Break Up Day/Hurt
Today is just another break up day
It's my least favorite holiday
I think this time I'll stand up for myself
While you sit down
What's gonna happen anyway
I guess it's best you gave up right away
We can't be friends
Moving so fast headed for the end
we're done
It was the Friday of the third week. That weekend, I would be in trial. I was running late for class and I literally ran into Jake. I dropped all my books and other school items. "Great!" I sighed
"Sorry," Jake looked up at me "Miley, what's wrong? You haven't been returning my calls, or IM's. Are you mad at me?"
"Jake, I'm going to be late for history. Do we have to do this now?"
"Do what, Miley?" Jake's eyes looked hurt. "Are you breaking up with me?"
"Jake." I said quietly. "I..."
"Why?" He interrupted. "I've always been there for you. I thought you trusted me. You told me your secrets. And I told you mine."
"Jake, please, just listen."
"Get to class you two."
The hall monitor yelled at us.
"Talk to me at lunch, okay?" I
said, and he nodded.
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Jake sat across from me, stabbing his mac and cheese. We'd been silent the whole 15 minutes we'd been sitting there. Jake spoke first. "So what did you want me to listen to?"
I sighed deeply. "Jake, I'm sorry. There's just too much on my plate right now. I can't handle everything." I whispered. "I need to start performing again. Hannah's fans are writing e-mails asking for tours. I just can't have all of this. I'm sorry."
"Miley..." Jake started, but I walked away. He grabbed my arm and I just shook my head. As I was leaving the cafeteria, I saw Lily. I was crying
She pulled me into the bathroom and asked what was wrong. Between gasps for air, I told her.
"You broke up with Jake? Miley, you love him."
"There's more."
I told her everything.
"Miley, let me see your arms." Lily ordered and I showed her. "What you're doing is dangerous. You need to get help."
"I know, Lily. I know." I cried hard for the rest of lunch, and Lily comforted me.
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
Lily came home with me that day. My dad was making dinner when we got home. We went to the library first, checked out books about depression, self-mutilation, and rape. We went straight up to my room. Lily ran into Jackson going up the stairs.
"I'll be right there." she said as I turned into my room.
(Lily POV)
"Hey, sweetie." Jackson said, kissing my forehead. He took my books, and looked through them. "What'cha got here? Lily, what is this?"
"It's a... school project." I blurted out. "For health, me and Miley are doing a project."
"Really? On what exactly? Depression, self-mutilation, rape?"
"No. I lied." I sat down on Jackson's bed. "Miley's sick, mentally. She's been cutting herself. Jackson, I don't know what to do. I'm worried about her."
Jackson was, for the first time since I'd met him, silent. We sat there for a good five, maybe ten, minutes. "We have to tell my dad. We have to get her some type of help."
"I know. After the trial. It's next week, and she needs to focus on that." I took Jackson's hand in mine. "She needs us right now. That's why we got these books."
"I want to help. Is there anything I can do?"
"After the trial, there's gonna be enough work for all of us."
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Soundtrack:
Break Up Day by The Starting Line
Hurt by Nine Inch Nails