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Sick Inside Chapter 6
Hogsmeade came too quickly for Clemence. She laid in her bed, her covers pulled up over her head and the curtains pulled shut. Lily had gone down to breakfast with Alice a few minutes earlier.
She had been so excited at the beginning of the week to go to Hogsmeade with Amos. So thrilled that she was making Sirius mad, that she was showing him that he wasn't the only one in the world who wanted her. Then Remus had to go and ruin it. He had to tell her that she was just playing a game and that if she really cared she would tell Sirius that and not wait around to see how many people she could possibly use to make him jealous. He wasn't even right either! It wasn't Sirius she wanted to make jealous...at least it wasn't anymore.
So now she didn't want to go. She didn't want to have to walk around Hogsmeade with Amos. He was always so controlling on dates...she couldn't fathom why she had gone out with him...or possibly she could
"Em?" Lily pulled back the curtain and Clemence groaned in annoyance.
She attempted to pull herself up, trying to kick off the blankets at the same time, and ended up getting tangled in sheets and falling to the floor with a thud.
"Well good morning Grace!" Alice laughed out from the bathroom.
"Sod off Aly!" Clemence muttered and pulled herself up to stand in front of Lily."What?"
"You do that every morning. You should really try getting out of bed a different way."
"Or maybe you should install an extra mattress to break your fall."
"SOD OFF ALICE!"
Lily laughed and told Clemence she should start getting ready. She groaned again and began rummaging around for a clean pair of jeans and a shirt. Lily sat on her bed and watched the girl running around the room cursing at the lack of clean clothing. Clemence ended up taking one of Lily's shirts and eventually found a pair of her own jeans. Grabbing shoes and a hoodie she hurried out the dormitory door.
Clemence stopped in the common room to slip on her shoes and zip up her hoodie. She glanced around the common room quickly, looking to see if Remus was there.
She hadn't seen Remus and had been more worried of running into him this morning then Sirius. Oh god how she seriously needed to talk to Lily. Of course all Lily knew about the situation was that Clemence had kissed Sirius. So it wasn't surprising that Clemence was always waiting for Lily to realize just what type of back-stabbing two-timing bitch she had befriended and leave. She hadn't yet and she counted that on the fact that the only people Lily really hung around with were her, Melanie(who was an even bigger bitch most of the time)and Alice(who on good days was too nice and bad day's was too high-strung).
Clemence met Amos outside. "You look like you just woke up."
"Well I kind of did."
"Well aren't there any type of spells or products to cover that. At least do something with your hair."
"Sorry."Clemence turned to stick her tongue out at Amos before heading off to Hogsmeade ahead of him.
"You know it looks even worse from the back."
"You know you sound even worse when you start talking. Try shutting up for a bit and tell me how it goes."
"Fine by me. It's quite embarrassing to be near you right now anyway...what with the way you look and all. I'll be Honeydukes."
"Do I honestly look like I care." Clemence walked off and suddenly she remembered why she had broken up with Amos in the first place. He was to high-strung and critical.
She stopped outside the three broomsticks when she saw Sirius staring in the window.
"What's goin-"She stopped mid sentence as she looked in the window after him. Her eyes filled up with tears and she shot off in the direction of the school.
"CLEMENCE!!" She kept running as she heard Sirius yell behind her. She ran down the small street, shoving over people and muttering apologies. Eventually she stopped, she had gotten to the woods and she could no longer see, her vision blurred by her tears.
Sirius turned back to look into the Three Broomsticks. He looked through the window, to find the source of her sudden outburst. He found it sitting in a booth near the front. Remus Lupin was sitting across from a girl with pretty blond hair. She was twirling her hair around her finger and giggling, her other hand holding his. Sirius glanced one last time at the pair before taking off after Clemence.
"Clemence? Clemence where are you?" Sirius wandered through the woods calling her name over and over again. Damn where could she have gone.
Sighing when he couldn't find her he turned and began his trek back to Hogwarts. Hoping that Clemence had gone back up to the castle.
He saw, as he came into the courtyard Clemence sitting on the wall with Lily, her head buried in her hands and Lily stroking her back.
"Are you alright Em? I looked for you after you ran off but I assumed you'd come back to Hogwarts to find Lily."
Clemence looked up to see Sirius standing there in front of them awkwardly. She nodded at him, rubbing her eyes with the back of her hand.
"Sirius can I talk to you for a second? I'll be right back Em."
Lily pulled Sirius away behind the statue on the other side of the courtyard.
"What happened Sirius? She won't tell me. I asked like 5 times and she just shakes her head."Lily whispered, shooting glances over to Clemence.
Sirius sighed and deciding that if Clemence hadn't told Lily yet, him saying something was not wise, just shrugged and told her he wasn't sure.
"I just saw her take off running." Sirius walked off then leaving a worried Lily and a betrayed Clemence to themselves.
Lily sighed and went back over to Clemence suggesting they went back to the dorms to get ready for dinner. Clemence nodded and followed Lily through the hall up to the common room.
"Password?"
"Genisolaris."
Clemence smiled and waved at the fat lady and followed Lily inside. Sirius and James were sitting on the floor of the common room playing wizards chess and turned when they heard the portrait open.
Sirius looked worried when he caught Clemence's expression and got up to go over to her. He stopped in front of her and put his hands on her shoulders, keeping her at arms length to exam her.
"How are you?Em...they were just sitting together right?"
Clemence shook her head.
"What happened then?" Sirius stepped closer and leaned his forehead against hers, looking her in the eye. "Em come on. You can tell me anything."
She shook her head and shut her eyes. She didn't want Sirius to be angry at Remus. She didn't want to be angry at Remus. At least with him she believed she'd have a chance.
Sirius nodded, taking the hint that she wasn't going to say anything, and kissed her on the forehead. Lily stood there watching, and turned to see James trying to cheat at Wizard's Chess while Sirius was being nice. Figures, boys. Lily smiled James way, though he missed it, and went up to get ready for dinner.
Clemence broke away from Sirius' grip and walked up the stairs after Lily.
"So you won't tell me what happened?"
"Lily. Can't you just drop it."
"No. I understand you not telling Sirius but why won't you tell me? It wasn't Amos was it?"
"No."
"Then what happened."
"I saw Remus with some girl."
"Annie. He said he was going to ask her to Hogsmeade today at breakfast. I figured you knew. Why does it bother you anyway?"
"I just...I think I might love him...and he was kissing her." Clemence whispered.
"WHAT?Whoa what do you mean love him?!"
"Who loves who?" Alice said opening the dorm door and coming in.
"Clemence loves Remus and he kissed some other girl."
"WHAT?WHEN?WHY DOES NO ONE TELL ME THESE THINGS!!"
"would the two of you kindly shut the hell up! My god!!" Clemence hissed throwing herself down on her bed. "Listen it doesn't matter okay. I just wasn't prepared to suddenly see him with someone. I'm happy, I really am."
"If you say so. Hey at least you didn't see them full on makking out, that would've been a real downer."
"Alice! Sod off...and shut the bloody hell up." Lily snapped glancing over at the other girl.
Alice rolled her eyes and left the dorms muttering about 'moody girls'. Lily didn't pay attention but instead walked over and sat on Clemence's bad and stared at her, trying to think what best to say.
"LILY OPEN THE FRIGGIN DOOR!!" Lily jumped when she heard Sirius' angered voice shoot through the door and his fists pounding against the old wood.
"Sirius what the bloody hell? You can't come in the girl's dorm! SIRIUS BLACK!!"
"I will do whatever the hell I want Lily Evans!" James smiled sheepishly, he was still standing in the doorway.
"Well you might as well come in Potter." Lily moved aside and James flashed her a cheeky grin before going to sit on one of the beds.
Sirius went over and sat on Clemence's bed pulling her up and forcing her to sit.
"What?" She hissed wiping her cheeks.
"Why the hell didn't you tell me what happened? Alice said you said you're in love with Moony and he's going around kissing other girls..."
"Like you do?"
"What?" Sirius' head snapped back up to look at her and Lily felt like she had whip-lase just watching it.
"Like you did with me and Melanie?"
"That's not...god Em. That's not the point alright, just why the hell didn't you bloody tell me."
"Because I knew you'd react like this! It's no big deal Sirius. Just forget it okay."
"James could you?"
"Sure." James motioned for Lily to leave the room with him and though she didn't want to the look Clemence gave her told her she should.
James and Lily left and shut the door behind them, Sirius sighed and pulled Clemence closer to him. He leaned over and kissed her temple.
"I really love you Em."
"No you don't." She pulled away and swung her feet over the side of the bed.
"God. Why do you have to be so difficult. Listen I broke up with Melanie this afternoon." Sirius gave her a pleading look.
"So! You heard what Alice said. I.love.Remus. Don't make this so damn complicated Sirius!"Clemence buried her head n her hands.
Sirius didn't say anything he just reached over and rubbed her back lightly. She glanced over and smiled at him before mouthing a thank-you. Sirius nodded.
"Come on. Dinner will start soon."
Clemence nodded and stood up taking Sirius' hand and followed him down the steps to the common room.
Lily and James were sitting on the couch playing wizard's chess, Lily was losing miserably to him. Sirius barked out a laugh and said something about never losing to a Potter.
Lily rolled her eyes and stood up, pulling Clemence away from Sirius and walking out the portrait hole. Lily didn't question Clemence on what had happened in the dorm after her and James had left. Lily really didn't say anything to her at all on their way to the Great Hall.
Sirius and James caught up to them just before they sat down and steered them to seats near the front. They were going to sit with Alice who was sitting across from Remus and Annie. Sirius glared Remus' way as they went. Remus looked confused at that but turned away when Annie said something to him.
Clemence sat next to Sirius and noticed that when Regulus came in he sat down directly across from her at the Slytherin table. He gave her a questioning gaze and she glanced down the table toward Remus and Annie.
He followed her gaze and nodded when he saw them and turned back to look at her.
'He's not worth it anyway if he chose her instead' He mouthed and she smiled at him.
Sirius groaned before putting his arm around her shoulder and pulling her closer to him.
"Stop flirting with my brother. It makes us honorable Gryffindors look bad."
She smacked him on the arm and pulled away muttering 'brainless git' under her breath before glancing back at Regulus and mouthing the same thing.
He smirked at her and glancing a table away at Amos mouthed 'two of a kind' back to her. She laughed again and turned back to listen as Lily said something to James.
"Your such an insufferable git." With that the three watched as Lily stood and stormed out of the Great Hall.
"What did you say now Potter?" Clemence almost wished she hadn't asked.
"I just said if her right leg is thanksgiving and her left leg is Christmas could I visit between holidays."
"Ewwww...god Potter your such a pervert! Try being normal, maybe she'd actually talk to you." With that said Clemence got up and followed Lily out of the Great Hall. As she walked away from the spot she could hear Sirius' bark of a laugh.
"CLEMENCE!!"
Clemence looked up to see Heather running down the stairs toward her.
"Have you seen Peter?Because you know I haven't had the chance to really see him all day. I mean well we were at Hogsmeade for a bit but then I got tired and we walked back and I haven't seen him since and I didn't see him yesterday. And...and you don't think he's cheating on me do you? Oh my what if he is? What if he found someone older??"
"I think he's in the Great Hall. I couldn't tell but I'm pretty sure that was him shoving food down his throat like It was a black hole." Clemence sighed and rolled her eyes, god she didn't feel like dealing with this now.
"Thank you thank you!!Your absolutely wonderful, the most wonderful best friend ever I'm going to miss you so much when you leave at the end of the year." Heather squeezed her into a hug before running off into the Great Hall to find Peter.
She glanced back when she heard Heather mutter a hello to someone. She glanced back and wished she hadn't. Remus was walking toward her so she did the only thing she could think of. She took off running.
She ran up a set of stairs and into an empty corridor, she could hear Remus running after her. She stopped as she came to a window and looked down as if contemplating jumping.
"God Em." She turned to Remus, hands on his knees, breathing hard.
"DON'T CALL ME THAT! ONLY MY FRIENDS CALL ME THAT AND YOU MR. LUPIN ARE NO BLOODY FRIEND OF MINE!!JUST GO AWAY!!"
"Em...Clemence. What's the matter?"
"What's the matter? WHAT'S THE MATTER! YOU SHOULD BLOODY WELL KNOW WHAT THE HELL THE MATTER IS!!"
"Well I bloody well don't and I would like to know why you ran off like that. I wanted to know what was the matter with Amos and you. I heard you two had a fight."
"I don't believe my love-life is any of your business. Besides don't you have your own love-life to worry about!"
"What's the matter with you today? Peter said you pretty much flipped out in Hogsmeade and now...god Clemence. I just wanted to talk to you."
"Well I don't want to talk to you. So do everyone a favor and fuck off Remus."
She looked at him harshly, tears staining her cheeks, before she shoved passed him and took off toward the common room. Remus just stood there, completely unable to speak.