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What I did for Love Natsume Yuiki

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A few months later…
During this time, since I saved Natsume's life, he began to trust me more and confided in me with everything. I was like his new best friend. SechsKies continued traveling to many places and recruited new members.
More war between SechsKies and Black Dragons broke out. Many businesses were shut down and more members were killed from both sides. All the blood shed and fighting was getting to me but I held on. All the members of SechsKies accepted me but sometimes I overhear them whisper that I'm gay. I didn't care as long as I had Natsume.
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Finally, after many days of hard work, SechsKies finally got a day of rest. The leaders always hang out together but Natsume always included me. We were at this fancy restaurant and were all having a good time. Mochu was telling us funny jokes. He stopped in the middle of a joke as he saw the Black Dragon leaders enter the restaurant.
Tension was felt by everyone. The Black Dragons sat down across from us. Natsume and Persona were giving each other glares.
Underneath the tables, we pulled out our guns. I knew the Black Dragons were doing the same. We didn't know which side fired the first shot but before we knew it, bullets were flying everywhere.
Natsume covered me as we ran out of the restaurant safely. We met up with the other 5 Kies in a dark alley. The Black Dragons were still chasing us.
"Damn it man! What should we do?" asked Koko.
"Kill them all!" shouted Natsume.
"There are too many," Mochu shouted back. "Let's just hide out in this motel." We all ran and hid in this cheap motel's restaurant. The Black Dragons lost us and continued searching.
"I don't believe this!" said Natsume furiously. "I, Matthew Hyuuga, of SechsKies have to hide down here in this cockroach motel like I'm a dog or something!"
"Calm down," I said to him gently, patting his back. "It's not so bad."
"Yeah," said Ruka. "It's only for one night. Besides, we'll make them pay for this."
All of us looked around. There was only one bed. I could tell none of us wanted the floor because it was disgusting and reeked of something. "I ain't taking the floor!" all of us shouted in unison.
"There's only one bed though," said Koko.
"Look on the bright side," said Ruka as he laid out the sheets on the bed. "At least it's king size."
I nodded my head. "It'll be tight but we'll all have to try and fit in."
Soon it was all of them lying down side by side uncomfortably on the bed. We were laying down one by one and the others looked at me strangely as I ran to be the next person who lie near Natsume.
Soon everyone fell asleep except me. I made sure everyone was asleep before I made my move. I bent over to kiss Natsume lightly on the lips. Then I laid my head down on his chest to hear his heart beat. I sighed contentedly.
Then suddenly I felt Natsume's leg twitch. Oh no. I knew what he was about to do. His 360. I placed my entire body on top of his because I didn't want to get kicked.
As Natsume did his 360, he kicked everyone except me off the bed. As always when Natsume was done, he had a huge smile on his face. Then he held onto me tightly. I was overwhelmed with happiness.
The others must have been exhausted because none of them woke up except Koko. He opened his eyes sleepily and said, "Huh?"
"You're dreaming," I whispered to him. He nodded his head and went back to sleep. Soon I drifted off to sleep too.
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Next Morning…

Natsume began to stir. He woke up finding Mitaki holding onto him tightly. Natsume widened his eyes and gently unraveled Mitaki's arms and legs off of him.
The guys already called Mitaki gay and he didn't want them to think he's gay too. He sat up and saw 5 of the SechsKies leaders lying on the floor.
Then Ruka began to wake up. He sat up and looked around. "Gross! How the hell did I end up down here?" Natsume shrugged his shoulders.
Then Koko woke up. "Damn, my butt hurts. It feels like someone kicked it last night." Then one by one everyone woke up.
"P.U.!," yelled Mochu. "This floor stinks!" Everyone started laughing.
"Sorry you guys," said Natsume laughing. "I must have done a 360 and kicked you all off."
"How come you didn't fall off Mitaki?" asked Koko.
Uh, oh, I thought. "I did," I answered him. "But I got back up and went to sleep on the bed again."
"Really?" asked Ruka. "I didn't even know. I just went right on sleeping."
Natsume began to study Mitaki. It was weird but somehow Natsume had a feeling that Mitaki knew he does a 360 in his sleep. 'But that's impossible,' he thought to himself. 'Only Mikan knows that and why didn't Mitaki say anything about me kicking him?' Natsume didn't know what was going on with Mitaki but he knew he had to find out.
We all got up and ready to leave the room. The coast seemed clear so we walked out unarmed. Big mistake. There was an ambush waiting for us.
"Disperse!" yelled Natsume and we all ran our separate ways.
Black Dragons chased after each one of us. I lost the Black Dragon member that was chasing me but I didn't want to go back the hotel room without Natsume so I turned back to get him.
When I found Natsume, he was backed up against the wall by a Black Dragon. It was the leader, Persona. He was telling Natsume to bow down and beg for mercy but Natsume ended up spitting in his face. Persona got angry and pulled the knife back to stab Natsume in his throat.
I ran as fast as I could and knocked Persona down. He dropped the knife and fell to the floor with me. As he fell, he used the handled of the knife to knock Natsume unconscious. Persona got up glaring at me.
"Do you know whom you're messing with?" he asked me angrily.
I glared at him back unflinching. "I'll make you pay for hurting Natsume."
"Oh you must be the gay SechsKies member I've heard so much about," said Persona laughing. "You're afraid your faggot leader would die leaving you alone?"
That made me really angry. I didn't care that he called me gay but calling Natsume a faggot ticked me off. Since he was distracted, I grabbed the hand he was holding the sword with, and made him stab himself. He cried out in shock and pain. He pulled knife out of him.
Persona pushed me away and cuts me in the knee with his knife. I fell down and saw him raise the knife above my head. I was going to die.
Then suddenly a voice screamed out, "Gang Rape!"
It made Persona run off. I looked over to see who it was. It was Hotaru screaming for the cops. I saw her looking at me sighing and walked away.
"Hotaru!" I screamed for her.
Hotaru looked at me strangely as she approached me. "Do I know you?"
I nodded my head and motioned for her to come near me. When she did, I whispered in her ear, "It's me, Mikan."
"Mikan? But you're a guy!" she yelled back at me.
"Look at me closely."
When she did, her eyes widened as she grabbed a hold of me. "Mikan, it is you!" I turned her back to face me. "Please help me bring Natsume back to the hotel." Ruka made a face of disgust.
"What are you doing with the SechsKies leader and why are you dressed like a guy?"
"I'll explain later," I told her. We both put Natsume's arms around us as we carried him back. Along the way we found Ruka unconscious on the ground, bleeding. I set Natsume down gently and lifted Ruka up.
"Ruka!" I said, shaking him. He was hurt badly. "Hotaru, please do me a favor. You carry Ruka while I carry Natsume."
Hotaru looked at me reluctantly but then nodded. I lifted Natsume onto my back and carried him back to the Sakura Hotel. My leg was still bleeding from the cut and I was limping.
"Mikan, can you carry him?" Hotaru asked me, concerned.
"I'll be fine," I answered her as we made it back.
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I took Natsume back to his room while Hotaru took Ruka back to his. I washed Natsume's cuts and nursed his wounds. When he was bandaged, I sat down on the chair next to his bed.
Then suddenly, I couldn't breathe. One of my attacks is coming on and I didn't have my respirator with me. My heart was aching so painfully that I was gasping in pain. But then I remembered Natsume had a respirator. I searched his pockets and sure enough, there it was. I started pumping it quickly and air entered my lungs.
My vision cleared and I began to breathe easier. Then I put it back into his pocket. My touch made Natsume stir. He began to wake up. He looked at me.
"Mitaki?" he asked weakly.
I nodded my head. "Yes, it's me Hyuuga."
Natsume lifted himself up. "Where am I?"
"We're back at our hotel."
"Oh," Natsume said as he looked at my leg. "What happened to your knee?"
I looked down at it. It was bleeding through my pants. "It's nothing. I'll be okay in a few days."
"Did Persona do this to you?"
I nodded my head.
Natsume pounded his fist on his desk. "Damn him! I'll get him back."
"It's okay," I said calming him down.
"By the way," he asked me suddenly, "how did you end up finding me? Weren't you supposed to come back here by yourself?"
His question hit me by surprise. I answered him truthfully. "I came back to look for you because I was worried you might be in danger." I saw Natsume look at me awkwardly and inched himself away from me. 'He thinks I'm gay', I thought.
"Uh, thanks for coming back to save me then," Natsume said to Mitaki awkwardly. Mitaki nodded and left his room. Natsume lets out a sigh. He loved Mitaki as a friend and definitely nothing more. He didn't want Mitaki to have any thoughts.
Instinctively Natsume reached into his pocket to check to see if his respirator was still there. It was but it was different. Natsume stared at it with wide eyes. His once filled respirator was now only half full with air.
Someone had been using it.
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Later that evening Natsume posted a note on my door telling me to meet him. It was 8 p.m. and I knocked the door to his room.
"Come in," said Natsume. I entered his room, not knowing what he was going to say. "Follow me," he ordered. He left the room and I followed him.
He took me to the beach that was near our hotel. Then he walked over to a spot where there were two rocks side by side. I caught my breath. This looks exactly like our spot in Japan, I thought.
"Come here and sit next to me, Mitaki," said Natsume to me, patting the rock next to him. I sat down near him and closed my eyes as I breathed in the salty sea air.
Natsume began to study Mitaki. 'He looks like Mikan in a way,' he thought. 'Could he be Mikan in another form?' Natsume didn't believe in reincarnation but Mitaki was too much like Mikan for him. He wanted to see if somehow Mitaki was Mikan so he had to test him.
"Mitaki, you want to hear a story?"
"Sure," said Mitaki eagerly.

Natsume smiled as he told his story. "There once was this rich boy who came from a messed up family. He had no friends at all. Then one day he met this little girl who became his friend. She was really nice to him, unlike his family, so he began to adopt her as his sister." Natsume paused right there to see Mitaki'sreaction.

My smile faded when Natsume began his story. He was talking about our life in Japan. Then I figured out he was testing me. 'The respirator', I thought. 'I must have drained it when I was using it so now he suspects me'. I steadied myself and tried my best to give no reaction.
Natsume stared at Mitaki, who appeared to have no reaction to the story. "Well what do you think?" Natsume asked him.
"That's a cute story," he said, shrugging his shoulders.
Natsume continued. "Do you know why he took extra care of his sister?" Mitaki shook his head no. "It's because she has this heart problem and needed this respirator to breathe." He took out the respirator from his pocket and showed it to Mitaki.

Again, no reaction.

"Poor girl," said Mitaki.

"Yes, poor girl," said Natsume sadly. "She died a few years later."
I looked at Natsume sadly. I knew Natsume felt bad because of my death but since I'm no one special to him, it wouldn't matter if he knew the truth that Mikan was still alive and with him right now. Then Natsume took out a stone and handed me one. I rubbed the white marble stone for a while.
"Throw it," he told me. I shook my head no. To me it was like a present so I didn't throw it but just kept it in my pocket. Natsume threw his into the ocean. It skipped 3 times.
"Perfect," he said.
"Why is it perfect?" I asked him.
This time I wished he would tell me the significance of the 3-skip. "When the stone skips 3 times, it means 3 words. I love you." I looked at Natsume in an overwhelming joy. Did Natsume love me? He had thrown the rock and it skipped 3 times many times before.
"So did the rich boy ever really loved his sister?" I asked Natsume.
He looked at me. "Of course he does. He has a lot of brotherly love for her."
"Oh," I whispered softly. My heart began to ache.
As Natsume continued staring at the ocean, I began to walk home with a heavy heart. Natsume began to shake his head. 'Mikan's dead already so why am I denying that I love her?' he thought to himself as he stared out to the ocean.
"Actually, Mitaki, the rich boy loved his sister the first day he met her but he's such a weak person. He never could admit his feelings for her and just waited for her to say that she loves him first."
Natsume turned around and saw that Mitaki had left. 'Oh well,' he thought as he headed back to the hotel.
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Since some of you wanted to hear more about Ruka and Hotaru, this chapter is a little side story.
Ruka woke up aching. He realized he was back at the Sakura Hotel and in his room. "How did I make it back here?" he asked himself. Then he realized he was wearing nothing but his boxers. His bathroom door suddenly opened and out came Hotaru. "Hey!" he shouted as he pulled a blanket over to cover himself.
Hotaru rolled her eyes. "It's too late for that. I've seen it all already," she told him as she yanked the blanket away.
Ruka crossed his arms over his chest. "So you took advantage of me in my weak state?"
"So what if I did?" she snapped at him.
"That means you have to marry me and support me while I give birth to your child." Hotaru couldn't help but laugh.
Ruka smiled at her. 'I guess he isn't so bad,' she thought. "You know," said Ruka quietly. "You didn't have to diss me like that when you said you'll go out with me." Hotaru looked at him.
"I had to! You were such an arrogant jerk and you wouldn't leave me alone."
"Maybe it's because I like you too much to leave you alone," he replied back.
HOtaru blushed a little and decided to change the subject. "Give me your arm," she said to him. Ruka's right arm was bleeding and Hotaru began to wash the cut.
"Ow!" he yelled in pain, pulling his arm back. "That hurts."
"Does it?" Hotaru asked him, concerned. "I'm sorry."
She leaned over to blow on his cut. Ruka stared at her the entire time. He felt warm and shy being around her. He never felt this way for a girl before. She was nice to him and not dissing him like she usually does. He really liked that feeling. Kyung Hee gently placed his arm into a cast.
"There," she said. "All better."
"You know," said Ruka softly. "Everyone says kisses make boo-boos feel better and go away."
When Hotaru was nursing Ruka, she developed a liking for him and his nice body was a good addition. "Really?" she asked skeptically. "I don't believe you."
"Why don't you test it out then?" he challenged her smiling.
"Maybe I will," she said, flirting back. "Where does it hurt?"
Ruka pointed to his knee. Hotaru kissed it. Then he pointed to his hand. She kissed it too. Slowly he pointed to his forehead, which she also kissed. He worked his way down to his nose. Hotaru couldn't help but laugh as she kissed his nose lightly. Ruka's nose was broken.
Then he pointed to his lips. Hotaru was about to kiss it lightly but then Ruka held onto her tightly to deepen the kiss. Hotaru felt drawn to him so she didn't push him away. He turned her over so she lie down on his bed, with him on top of her.
His hand went under the back of her shirt and he stopped there. Hotaru continued kissing him and ran her fingers through his hair. Since she wasn't stopping him, he was about to continue when…

knock knock

'I'm going to kill that person,' thought Ruka as he broke off the kiss. "Yeah? What is it?" he yelled.
"Matthew wants all of us to go down to the dining room for a meeting," said Koko.
"Okay, I'll be there in 5 minutes!" Ruka yelled back. When he heard footsteps of Koko leaving, he kissed Hotaru once more. "Sorry honey, I have to go but I'll be right back." Hotaru nodded and helped him into his clothes.
Part 31
"Order SechsKies!" yelled Natsume.
"Ooh, ooh," said Koko. "I want some Howalons!"
Natsume glared at him. Koko shuts up. "Now I want to talk to all of you about Mitaki. He's only been here for a few months but he had saved my life twice and not to mention, Ruka's." Ruka slapped Mitaki on the back and smiled.
"Now," continued Natsume. "What do you want Mitaki? A car, money, women? Tell us and it's yours."
"Yeah," said Ruka. "Just name it buddy and it's yours."
I thought about it for a while. The only thing I wanted was Natsume but I couldn't say that. Since he was suspecting me so much there was only one thing I should ask for. "I want a woman," I told them. They all opened their mouths in shock.
"Alright Mitaki, you dog!" yelled Ruka, breaking the silence. "At least you're proving to us that you're a man now!"
"Okay," said Natsume slowly. "Who's the girl?"
"Hotaru," I announced.
I saw Ruka's smiling face turn mad.
"Who do you want?" Ruka asked me in disbelief.
I repeated myself. "Ho-ta-ru."
Ruka grabbed me by the collar of my shirt. "Out of all the girls you could have picked, why her?" he yelled at me. I knew Ruka liked Hotaru but Hotaru was the only person that could help me.
"I happen to like her too," I answered him. "Besides, you all said I can have anything I want, and I want Hotaru."
"He's right," said Natsume softly. "We can't go back on our words." Natsume clapped his hands for attention. "So Hotaru now belongs to Mitaki. Anyone from SechsKies who touches her, the penalty is death."
Mochu and Koko had to hold Ruka back from attacking me. "I thought you were my friend!" he yelled as they took him away. I sighed and headed for my room.
Natsume looked at Mitaki as he was walking away. "Mitaki."
"Yes?"
"Are you sure that's what you want?"
"Yup. I've never been more sure in my life." Then Mitaki left.
When I made it back into my room, Hotaru was in there waiting for me. "What the hell is going on?" she asked me. I knew it was time to tell her my story. When I finished, she was bawling like a baby. I handed her a tissue.
"Th..that is s..so..romantic," she said, sobbing.(ok…. Toooooo OOC for Hotaru… I mean… Hotaru… cry?? Never going to happen)

I patted her head as she leaned on me. "No, it's not."
"So you're not going to tell Natsume who you really are?"
I shook my head. "It wouldn't matter anyways."
"How do you know? If he knows you're still alive, who knows? He might fall in love with you."
"Maybe," I began slowly. "But then he'd love me out of pity and not out of love. I don't want that."
"Oh." Hoatru stared at the floor. "I wonder if Mickey really likes me."
"What?!" I asked in surprise.
She looked at me sheepishly. "Oh, I forgot to tell you that Mickey and I are beginning to fall for each other."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't have a chance to. Besides, it just happened."
"I'm sorry Hotaru."
"It's okay," she said as she hugged me. "We'll just have to put our little romance on hold for a while. You're more important."
"No, I'll go tell-"
My words were cut off by my lack of air. This time my attack was worse than it ever had been before. Hotaru stared at me frightened.
"Mikan! What's happening?"
"C..can't breathe…" I managed to say. She lifted me up.
"Come on, I'll take you to the hospital."
"Don't let the others see me," I said to her before I collapsed into total darkness.
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Slowly I began to open my eyes. I closed them instantly because the light reflecting me was so bright. 'Am I on the other side?' I wondered. I managed to squint my eyes open.
I found myself strapped to a pulse racer machine and an IV fluid was hooked up to me. I started to look around my room. I was in a hospital and I saw that my door was open slightly ajar. Then I heard 2 voices talking and I began to eavesdrop.
"It's a miracle that she's still alive," said the doctor.
"Is she going to be okay?" Hotaru asked him.
"Well, according to these test results, her heart will expire any time now. We need to get her a heart transplant soon because she's past overdue for 2 years already. I made some calls and there is a matching donor for her in England."
"I'll have to talk to her about it."
"Please do," said the doctor. "It's her only hope of living."
Hoatru slowly entered my room. She stared at me with wide eyes. "You heard everything Mikan?"
I nodded my head weakly and took the air respirator off my mouth. "You can tell him to forget about it. I'm not going to England for a couple of months to get surgery."
Hotaru ran over and shook me. "Mikan, are you crazy? You have to or you'll die."
"No," I told her stubbornly. "It was so hard for me to find Natsume and I won't let go of him just like that."
Hotaru began to cry. "I don't want you to die though."
I looked at her sadly. "You're a good friend Hotaru. I know you'll be the perfect girl for Ruka." I yanked the IV tube off my arm. "Come on. Let's go home."
A little over a month later….
My heart condition began to grow worse. My attacks became more frequently and undetected. It would happen during odd times like when I'm showering or having dinner with the SechsKies guys. Luckily Hotaru was always there by my side to cover for me.
Ruka hated me. I can tell by the way he acts. He probably thinks that Hotaru really likes Mitaki (that's me). What he doesn't know is Hotaru truly does love him and it breaks her heart seeing him go out with other girls. I think he's doing that to make her jealous.
As for Natsume, he began to grow distant towards me. He wouldn't talk to me much and he's been depressed about something lately. I wish I could know what was bothering him because it hurts me to see him sad like that.
Secrets are definitely hard to keep. Especially ones that you have to cover everyday. I should have known that my disguise and heart attacks would be exposed soon but it just came to me unexpectedly…
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Natsume was in his depressed state again. There was this empty void inside him that he couldn't erase. It was a recurring pain that never seemed to end. He felt lonely.
Whenever he sees Mitaki and Hotaru together, it disturbs him. He could't figure out what it was but he kept finding something wrong with the picture. Then a knock came on his door.
"Come in," he said, without bothering to see who it was.
I entered Natsume's room holding a tray of food. Now these days since he was in his isolated stage, he didn't eat much anymore. I was beginning to worry. I didn't have much time left with him so I wanted to take care of him the best I could with the time I still had left.
"hey? Are you hungry? I brought you some food."
Natsume turned around to see who it was. It was Mitaki. "Just put it down." Mitaki placed it down before Natsume. Ramyun, mee-yuk-gook, rice, and curry. 'How does he know I like these food?' Natsume thought. "Take it away I don't want it."
"But, you haven't eaten for days. Please eat a little bit."
"I said take it away!" Natsume yelled, his anger exploding. He knocked over the tray of food. It ended up spilling all over Mitaki. Natsume and Mitaki stared at each other. Neither of them knew what to say. Mitaki leaned over to clean up the spilled food and then left.
Natsume fell back in his chair. He ran his hands through his hair frustrated. Mitaki was too much like Mikan that it was driving him crazy. Natsume knew he was out of line though, so he began to walk to Mitaki's room to apologize.
'What a mess', I thought as I stripped out of my clothes. I soaked myself into a hot water bath, hoping it could wash away all my troubles. When I was done with my bath, I wrapped myself up in a towel and got out of the tub. Then I heard my room door open and then close.
'Must be Hotaru', I thought as I began to put my clothes on.
Natsume entered Mitaki's room, not knowing what to say. He wasn't good at apologizing. He looked around and didn't see Mitaki anywhere. Then he heard the sound of water draining. He figured Mitaki must be in the bathroom.
Natsume opened the door slightly and saw Mitaki's bare back. He shuts the door quietly and began to leave. He planned to apologize later but then his mind began to sort out what he had just seen. Mitaki's back had an 'E' on it. Natsume breaks the open the door to the bathroom.