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MALE-FREE SLUMBER PARTY

PART 7

Day 29

I got ready for my sleep over at the Cullen's house. I know, we wanted to have a 'male' free day, but it turned out we were going to end up going to Alice's house anyways. I tried to argue with Alice, saying that seeing Edward would be the last thing I needed, instead she just shrugged.

"Bella, lighten up! Emmet, Jasper and Edward are all going out to play baseball, so we pretty much have the house to ourselves. Mum and Dad are out for a romantic dinner anyway, so we can create as much havoc as possible!" she grinned at me.

Knowing Edward wouldn't be there gave me relief, and in some ways disappointed me. He might drive me crazy, but I still have a weird obsession with him (Not that I'll ever tell a soul).

So I decided to take a shower before driving up to the Cullen's house. I decided to just carry pajamas with me. I had spare clothes in Alice's room, I always slept over there, especially during days when Charlie is working late night shifts.

Once I was done, I rushed down the stairs, tripping over the last step, colliding against the coat stand. The coat stand fell on the floor, luckily the wall saved my fall. I stood there for a minute clutching my chest. Waiting for my heart beat to become regular again. I heard Charlie get up from the couch, "Bells? Are you alright?" He asked, concerned.

I looked up and gave Charlie a shaky smile. "Yeah I'm fine, you know me, I've got two left feet" I said nervously. Charlie just shook his head and bent down to take the coat stand.

"So where are you off to?" He asked, sounding like the typical concerned parent. I shrugged, and gave him a wicked smile, "I'm going over to the Cullen's house, and have my wicked way with Edward" I started laughing at my own joke but suddenly stopped when I saw the look on Charlie's face.

He looked like somebody just stuck a five foot pole up his ass. I ran up to him and gave him a hug. "Dad! I'm only teasing, as if I'd do that!" I giggled some more. "Besides, Edward doesn't like me that way" I said in a tiny voice. I looked down, hiding away the pain I felt.

I looked up and gave Charlie a brave smile, "Anyways, wish me good luck with my sleepover with Alice, love you dad!" I said cheerfully, giving him a quick kiss on the cheek.

As I stepped out of the house I heard a car pull over. I looked at the black car, but couldn't see the people inside, so I was guessing they were Charlie's guest. I shrugged and headed towards my red truck.

I jumped in, honked once for Charlie and took off towards the Cullen's gigantic house (or should I say mansion?). I felt very nervous somehow. I was in between. Part of me wished Edward was there, part of me wished he was far away in a different land.

In the end, the latter won the argument. I pulled myself from my inner conflict and concentrated on my driving. I looked around, it was already dark outside, and the moon was already high up.

It was a clear night, no sign that it might rain. Thank god, it's been raining for the last few days. I don't like rain that much, it's just so…wet. Yeah, I know, way to go and state the obvious huh?

I pulled in to the Cullen's drive way, turned off the ignition and sat there for a while. I just sat there holding the steering wheel. After a while, I hopped off and headed towards the front door. I rang the door bell, waiting for somebody to open the door.

I heard bouncing from the other side and smiled, it just had to be Alice. Alice yanked the door open and gave me a hug. I smiled down at her and let her drag me up the stairs. I looked nervously around and Alice noticed.

"Don't worry, their not here, baseball remember?" she reminded me. I nodded, but none the less, I still swept the room with my eyes.

We kept walking up the stairs, I looked towards Edward's room. The last time I stood in front of that door, I made the mistake of eavesdropping.

I shook my head slightly, the ridiculous mistake people make in the past, I thought to myself. I went straight to Alice's room. She had movies laid out on the bed, and a lot of food on her side table.

Alice went inside her walk in wardrobe as I looked through her collection of DVD's. they were mostly chick flicks, I picked up the copy of Charlie's Angels. Alice was rummaging through her closet flicking through her wardrobe for no reason at all.

I looked up and gave her a curious look. "Alice, what the hell are you doing?"

Alice walked out of the closet looking a little bit disheveled. "Oh nothing, just looking for outfits I could have you wear!" she smiled broadly.

I gave her a frown, starting to think that maybe this was another ambush. Alice gave me an innocent look. "Look, a sleep over is not complete without a make over, I'll even do it, if it makes you feel comfortable!" she said, clapping her hands together enthusiastically.

To be honest, I didn't feel like arguing for once, so I just let her do whatever she wanted. I looked through all of her cosmetic collection. I don't get why someone so naturally pretty would need so much make-up. I looked at Alice now, she really was pretty.

She had the same pale skin as Edward and Emmet, however her eyes was different. While Edward had emerald green eyes, Alice's eyes were a lighter shade of brown, the color of fallen leaves at the very end of autumn. She had full red lips, and a small pixie shaped face. She walked around with a cheeky smile most of the time.

I haven't been in Forks that long, but my friendship with Alice has become stronger. While many people in the boarding school found me weird and awkward, Alice embraced my weirdness, not to mention she was also use to the fact that I tripped over my own foot at a daily basis.

I looked at her now as she played with her GHD hair straightener, her face filled with concentration.

"So, are you planning on doing anything about Jasper?" I started, Alice looked up, surprise visible in her brown eyes. She put down the hair straightener and started fiddling with her nails. For a second I thought she wasn't going to answer. I was about to just let it go when she looked up with this innocent look in her eyes.

"I don't know Bella, I really like him, but there's nothing I can do about it" I stared at the fragile girl in front of me. Normally, Alice oozed confidence. Her very aura affected me in such a positive way, that seeing her looking broken came as a bit of a shock.

I moved closer to Alice and gave her a tight hug. "Why don't you try telling him how you feel? For all you know he could feel the same way!" I said in a sympathetic voice. Alice hugged me back, and just shrugged. "I don't know Bells, I really like him, but I'm scared he might not feel the same way…" she said, sniffing just a little bit.

I knew exactly how she felt, but at least, she still had a chance. Edward didn't even bother giving me a chance. I sighed, I really should just let go.

Alice, loosened up and shook her body. "Ahh, okay, we need to stop this, pronto! We came here to have fun, not talk about boys, so lets get to it eh?" she asked cheerfully. I had to admire Alice, despite everything, she still puts on a brave face.

I hopped off the bed and the slumber party began. I turned the radio on and a classic slow rock song by Bryan Adams came on. Alice and I both stared at each other, I grabbed a brush and started miming to the words, Alice followed.

Look into my eyes -you will see

What you mean to me

Search your heart - search your soul

And when you find me there you'll search no more

Alice started building up, and I followed , pretending to play the guitar. I closed my eyes and pointed at the space between the silver floor lamp and the queen size bed.

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for

You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for

You know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you

Alice and I were both swaying to the music, while Alice kneeled on the floor and pointed towards the heavens. Then we both fell in to fits of giggles.

We were both being so ridiculous, but we kept singing without a care in the world. Screaming out the words. Then as we were both building up our climax, Alice's window shattered and a baseball bounced around the room and stopped in front of my feet.

We both jumped, suddenly on alert. Alice gave me a slightly panicked look as she nodded towards the window. I held her hand as we headed towards the gigantic window. The curtains were already opened.

We both hid under the window sill, and slowly crept up. My eyes narrowed as I saw the people below. Jasper and Edward were both laughing and pointing towards us. Then horror dawned on me. They must've have seen our little display just then.

Alice and I both looked at each other, slightly red in the face. We both headed towards the door and ran towards the back of the house where the boys were waving at us.

"Oh my god! Your jerks! Why did you do that for? Esme is going to kill you!" Alice screamed out, slightly hysterical, covering her red cheeks with her palm and looking up at the hole that ran right through her window.

Alice looked so furious and slightly flabbergasted. Jasper smiled sheepishly at her. That when I first saw a similar twinkle in his eyes. His face lit up as he took Alice in a hug. I knew right there and then that he liked her too.

I heard chuckling beside me, as I turned sharply my gaze met with Edward's green eyes. I glared at him, I watched as he raised his hands in surrender. "Hey! It wasn't my idea, it was Emmet's idea! Seeing as the two of you were so engulfed in your own little world, we thought we felt like crashing in" he smiled his famous crookedly smile. I nearly moaned, but I pushed it down.

I laughed sarcastically, "Wow, you guys are such genius!" I said through narrowed eyes. By that time, Alice was already heaving. She suddenly jumped Jasper, meaning to just tackle him, but instead she fell on top of him.

Emmet laughed even loudly. While I gave Edward a side way look. I coughed out loud as Alice and Jasper stayed in that same position for some time just staring at each other. I smiled started forming in my lips.

I heard Edward trying to suppress a laugh.

"You know what you two? To make it look even effective, why don't you start rolling around on the grass, while Bella serenades the two of you with The hills are alive with the sound of music…" He said in a sing song voice, matching his words to the tune of 'The sound of music'

I started giggling then, Alice and Jasper finally remembered that they had company, quickly broke a part. Jasper got up and held his hand out to Alice.

I had to look away. I couldn't help but feel envious. There was Alice, closer to getting what she wanted more than she knew, while I stood next to Edward. Being next to him made him feel so close yet so far away.

I let my hair fall all over my face as I tried to look at Edward from the side of my eyes. I quickly looked down, suddenly feeling depressed. There was that feeling of loneliness again. I swallowed hard and pushed it down. When I looked up, I put on a bright smile and asked if we could all maybe get out of the cold.

We all headed back towards the house. Alice linked her arms through mine, while glancing at Jasper every once in a while. Edward was walking ahead all of us, while Emmet walked with me.

"Sooo" he started, making the one syllable word drag. I looked at him suspiciously, waiting for him to pull something on me, but his question took me by surprise.

"So…You like Edward huh?" he grinned broadly. I felt my face go red, and looked the opposite way. "What makes you think that?" I asked in a tiny voice.

"Well, it's kind of obvious kid" he replied, patting my back. I shook my head decisively. "No, I don't like him!" I said, still feeling a bit flushed. "Besides, what's the point? I over heard you guys talking a couple of weeks ago" I added, smiling bitterly. "What was that he said? I only date girls with substance?" Emmet didn't say anything, he just looked down. If I didn't know better, I would have thought he looked a little ashamed. But of course he didn't have any reasons to be ashamed, they were only telling the truth.

I looked ahead and saw that Edward was holding the door open for everyone. Alice, Emmet and Jasper were all having an animated discussion about baseball, while I walked slightly a part from them.

They all went inside, and I was the last one to go inside. As I went through the door, Edward gave me an uneven smile and closed the door behind me.

Emmet grabbed the phone and started ordering pizza for our dinner, while we all decided to just finish off the night by watching Charlie's Angels 1 & 2 marathon.

When the pizza's came we all dug in and started talking about the people from school, while Jasper asked me questions about what I thought about Forks so far.

I made it clear that I hated the rain and snow, anything that could possibly melt and turn to liquid. I noticed that Edward was quiet the whole time while we all ate the pizza's Emmet ordered.

Not wasting any time, Emmet ate the last 3 pieces of pizza and declared that he's going out to meet up with Rosalie.

The four of us were left alone, and there was an awkward moment after Emmet left. Alice decided to break the ice by going off to get the 2 films we were going to watch, Jasper went off with her, leaving me alone with Edward.

I sat on the couch quietly, waiting for Alice to come. Being in Edward's presence, I wanted to appear smart, sophisticated, and witty, but I couldn't even utter a single word. Having him share breathing space with me left me feeling breathless.

I felt the space beside me in the couch flop and I looked beside me. There he was, staring at me intently. His piercing gaze felt like it was burning a hole right through me that I couldn't think straight.

So I decided to make small talk, but found out as soon as I opened my mouth that it was a bad idea. A whole load of gibberish escaped my mouth, so I quickly shut it. Edward was inching closer to me, his shoulders touching mine. I tried to look at anything but the god-like figure sitting next to me. Breathing came in harder as I tried to keep it in control.

Has his eyes always been that green? I found myself thinking. A strand of hair fell across my face, but before I could brush it away, Edward had it in his hands.

Where the hell was Alice? What was taking her so bloody long to get two DVD's?

Edward was playing with the strand of hair like it honestly fascinated him. Then he nuzzled my neck with his nose. I just sat there, trying my hardest not to hyperventilate. I could smell his scent, he smelt sweet, almost like the comfortable winter air that hits you first thing in the morning.

I closed my eyes, I felt my self drowning in his scent, my lungs started to burn. I knew that any second we would be kissing, but I just couldn't let that happen. I tried to pull away from him.

"Umm, Edward?" I whispered.

"Hmm?" He hummed in my ears.

I shivered slightly as I fully turned towards him. He opened his eyes, his green eyes looked so smoldered, that I felt a chill went up and down my back.

"You're sniffing me" I said, pointing out the obvious. Edward chuckled and whispered back "I know, you smell like…" He thought for a moment, "Something very sweet and floral, I can't quiet put my finger on it" I started to blush, if I didn't stop, I'd probably spontaneously combust. He continued to play with my hair.

I just couldn't keep my mouth shut, I inched closer, and sniffed him as well. "You smell good too.." I whispered. He chuckled mildly, so I kept going, "You're presence intoxicates me" I added. Oh lord, why didn't anybody shut me up?

"Is that so?" he purred seductively. I nodded bluntly, he started to laugh. My whole body stiffened. Realization dawned on me, I took notice of how close we were, and pulled away from him.

I started to get up to get as far away from him as possible. I told him he intoxicated me, he just laughed. That was it, I'm going to go and shoot my self.

As I started to leave the sofa Edward grabbed my wrist and pulled me so suddenly that I fell right on top of him. "Where do you think you're going?" He said in a serious tone. I pushed off him and started to walk away, but he just took a hold of my wrist again.

I couldn't take it anymore. I spun around to face him. "This is just a big joke to you isn't it Cullen?" I said in a low voice filled with venom. "You know that I really like you, but you've turned this whole thing in to a game!" I spat out. He was about to open his mouth, but I held up a hand to shut him up.

"I don't think I can be your friend anymore, not if you're always playing with me, leading me on, and then pretty much stamping all over my heart!" I added with conviction

But Edward wasn't listening. He was holding me, and looking at me horrified. "God Bella, will you stop it!" I started thrashing like a woman scorned.

Edward gave a growl, then roughly took hold of my face and lowered his lips to mine. I couldn't move, any moment, I would have fainted. But then my lips, as if they had a mind of their own responded just as roughly.

We both melted in to each other as I wrapped my arms around his neck and he held my waist. We held on to each other, and both started to drown in each others kisses. Then the kiss became gentle, he kissed me as if he was savoring the moment, the pace became slow and I let out a moan.

I fell on the couch with Edward on top of me. Then we heard a slamming of the door and somebody rushing down the stairs. We sprang a part from each other just as Jasper hit the bottom of the stairs. He looked quiet flushed and disheveled.

"Jasper?" Edward asked, with concern in his voice. Jasper stopped in his tracks and looked at the two of us. He gulped consciously, and said "I gotta go, I forgot I was suppose to go to a party tonight" he said with an unsteady voice.

Edward sprung up, gave me one look that had regret written all over it, and ran after Jasper. Once the two of them left, the house suddenly felt empty without them. Alice. I got up and ran towards Alice's room where I found her in tears.

"Oh Bells, I messed up big time!" her voice breaking into a sob. "Alice what happened?" Alice startled fumbling with the hem of her shirt then looked up. "I jumped him, and blurted out I liked him!" despite the horrible situation, I couldn't help but break in to a giggle. Alice glared at me.

"Why would you do that?" I asked gently. Alice just shrugged, but then her whole body started shaking. I gathered her up in to a hug. "He-he was being all nice and stuff, so it just sort of came out" she hiccupped sadly.

I patted her back as she kept on crying. "Oh Bella I'm such a stupid girl!" she said blowing her nose on a piece of Kleenex she was holding. I tried my best to comfort her, but nothing I said seemed to be helping anything. So I decided to tell her my own stupidity, minus the rough kissing fest of course.

"Well if it makes you feel better, I told Edward his very presence intoxicated me" I offered. Then Alice gaped at me, I started to turn red again. Then she started laughing, and then I started laughing.

Then I couldn't help it anymore, I started crying too. "Oh Alice, he probably thinks I'm a freak now" I said between sobs, as the roles reversed. Alice tried to pat my back, and I kept on crying.

"How the hell did we come to this? Tonight was suppose to be our own little 'male free' party!" I said in frustration. Alice just laughed and sniffed some more. The rest of the night we just listened to whiny soft rock love songs. Not trying to think about the up coming week ahead.

Just the thought of Edward always brought back memory of that slight look of regret he had on his face.

Did he regret giving me that kiss? If he did, why did he even bother doing it in the first place? Ever since I came to Forks I've been completely different. Always whiny, and I can hardly control myself. Not that I'm saying I had much control before, but the point of me moving here was to gain control and to change for the better, and I thought I achieved that when mum came back, but it seems like I just kept on going downhill.

Day 29 (Still)

Alice is in the bathroom right now. I've decided, it's a rather rash decision, but I'm just going to completely wipe Edward out of my life. It will be good for me.

Day 29 (2 hours later)

Have been Edward-free for 2 hours now, I'm so proud of myself!

Day 29 (10 minutes later) (A/N this is nearing midnight J)

Alice just pointed something out to me. How can I be Edward-free when we go to the same school, and are starring in the same play? Somebody kill me!

Day 30 (1 hour later)

Maybe I should turn in to a lesbian. I'm going to close my eyes and see if I can imagine making out with Jessica Alba, after all, she is suppose to be the most beautiful thing alive right?

Day 30 (3 minutes later)

I CAN'T DO IT! I JUST CAN'T!

There I was trying to imagine myself with Jessica Alba, but then her long brown hair turned in to a bronze color, her warm brown eyes turned to green smoldered ones, and her soft body turned in to a hard manly one, with toned muscles everywhere.

Then next thing I knew, my fantasy of kissing Jessica Alba turned to a fantasy of me in the beach rolling around the sand making out like crazy with Edward.

I'm too obsessed with someone from the opposite gender to be a lesbian. I'm going to bed, before I totally spontaneously combust!

This is all Edward's fault!

(A/N)Hey sorry for the cheesiness with the miming stuff during the sleep over. LoL it's something my friends and i use to do! Well, hope you enjoyed it!! please REVIEW!!