It's been super long since I've updated and I apologize to any fans of this story! I have a one year old now and it's hard to write, much less think when she's around. I'm going to try to get the next chapter up soon, be patient. I will try to make it worth it.

After wondering aimlessly for an hour in the cold, Rukia found herself in the middle of the deserted park. There wasn't one child playing on the small jungle gym, and with a roll of her eyes stuffed her tiny hands in the pockets of her (Yuzus) jeans. She'd been kicking herself the whole time she was out, telling herself over and over again how much of an idiot she was for running out on Ichigo once again.

She couldn't help herself. Their relationship was getting incredibly complicated, and she knew it wasn't something she would be able to handle. There were so many thoughts running through her head, it seemed almost impossible to sort everything out. Although she would look like a spaz to Ichigo now, running was the right thing for her to do. It prevented her from making anymore mistakes than she already had.

She plopped down onto one of the many empty benches surrounding the play area and let out a long sigh.

"What the hell did I get myself into?" She pulled her legs to her chest, then leaned forward to rest her chin against her knees. "What on Earth posessed me to kiss him?! I'm such an idiot!" She didn't know exactly how long she was sitting there before she heard a familiar voice calling her name.

Her head popped up and she searched the area around her till she spotted her closest and oldest friend. It wasn't that she didn't absolutely love him, but right now he was definetly not someone she wanted to be talking to. In fact, there wasn't really anyone she wanted to talk to right now.

"Hey, Rukia! Is that you?" He began to jog towards her and she turned her head with a roll of the eyes. "What's up? How come you aren't answerin' me?"

"I'm not really in the mood to talk right now." He took a seat down beside her anyways, and she tried her best to avoid any eye contact. He was good at getting her to talk when she didn't want to.

"What's up? Is everything okay?" She didn't reply, and tried her best to scoot a few inches away from him. He scooted as well.

"I said I don't want to talk about it." They quieter she seemed to get the closer he got to her. "Come on. You can tell me what's up. Is Ichigo trying to put the moves on you or something?" He threw his head back and started to laugh at his absurd statement.

"Actually-"

"No shit? He is seriously? I was just kidding! I'm gonna have to go over there and kick his ass-"

"He didn't put the moves on me idiot! I put the moves on him!" She'd gotten the reaction she wanted. His eyes were wide, his jaw hanging open, and he was speechless. She would have preferred his nagging over the way he was acting though. He just stared, but she knew exactly what he was thinking.

"What are you thinking?" Another roll of her eyes.

"I wasn't thinking!"

"You sure as hell weren't. There is no way in the world this thing between the two of you could work! Come on now, think of what your brother would say!"

"You act like I haven't thought about all of that already." She pushed her fingers through her hair. and finally Renji noticed her lack of a coat. "I've been thinking about this for the last couple of days." He lowered his head and let out a sigh. He shrugged out of the old leather jacket he'd been given and placed it over her shoulders.

She turned her head to look at him, now feeling bad that she'd snapped at him.

"Sorry. I just, don't know what came over me. The first time I kissed him-"

"First? What do you mean first? It happened more than once?" Her eyes widened and her bottom lip poked out in a pout. She felt like such a fool talking to Renji this way.

"Nevermind, just forget it. I don't want to talk about it anymore." She stood up and crossed infront of him to walk away, but he reached out and took a hold of her wrist. He didn't look at her and she could tell he was hesitating to say whatever he had to say. "I don't need you to lecture me about this! I already know I made a huge mistake!" She tried pulling away from his hand, but his grip only tightened.

"Why him?" She stopped struggeling and looked back at him with wide eyes.

"What?" He was able to get up the nerve to look at her and cleared his throat before speaking again.

"I said, Why him?" She was completely dumbfounded by his response. What exactly did he mean by that? Why did he seem .. angry?

"Renji, I-"

"What's so special about him? I just don't get it." He pulled her against his chest, his hand letting go of her wrist only to slide up her arm, then her neck, then finally up to her face to cup her cheek. Her eyes slid shut as his thumb caressed her soft skin, so she was completely taken by surprise when his lips came crashing down on hers in a gentle kiss.

I know it's a short update, and I promise to try harder next time. Hope you guys all enjoyed it!

Oh, just had to comment on Projekt Revolution and Warped Tour. Both awesome. Linkin Park and Gym Class Heroes rocked my socks!

Love you guys, peace.