Hey I'm back so I don't want to hold you up for to long. I have to credit my betas zacefronandjohncenaluvr, shagen5 and my friend Ashley. Just a reminder that there's going to be a HUGE a/n at the end of this very short chapter.
Gabriella sat at home one night with a notebook in her lap. The notebook she was writing in wasn't just a regular spiral. It was her 'issues' notebook. Whenever there had a problem or she needed to clear her mind she would write little quotes or doodle in the book subconsciously, and today she definitely had something to worry about, and that something was Troy Bolton.
Spring break had started five days ago and Troy hadn't called or come to see her since he left early to visit his cousin. Gabriella wasn't one of those clingy girlfriends who needed her boyfriend to call everyday, even though he usually did, but ten days? There had to be something wrong. She called him on the second day but it said his phone had been disconnected. Earlier that day she had walked by his house to see if anyone was there, it was deserted. She had called Chad but he was as clueless as she was.
After she was done writing in the notebook she set it on her desk side table and laid her head down, trying her best to get some sleep, which was, of course impossible. She groaned, got up and went downstairs to get herself something to nibble on. When she walked back into her room she almost dropped the glass of water she was holding.
"Troy? What are you doing here? I was scared as hell, you didn't call, text, anything all week! Where have you been?" Gabriella asked in shock, but Troy simply stood in the middle of her room staring at the ground. He had sweatpants on and a large sweatshirt with the hood up covering most of his face. Confused, Gabriella walked closer to him.
"Troy?" She whispered touching his arm. There was silence; she tried again, dipping her head so she could see his face, which was turned away from her.
"Tr-" But before she could finish she was pushed roughly against her bedroom wall and being fiercely kissed. Usually she wouldn't have any problem but this time there was something different. Something she didn't like. These kisses weren't light, or slow they were hard, fast and harsh. He then bit Gabriella's bottom lip--hard. So hard she yelped in pain giving Troy the chance to plunge his tongue into her mouth. That didn't last long because he traveled down to her neck and he sucked on every part that was exposed. What's going on? Gabriella didn't know what to do everything was happening to quickly. His hands started traveling around her body. Her neck, arms, face, sides, up her shirt to her stomach, the base of her bra. And that's when she did it.
-Slap-
"Troy what the hell is wrong with you? You-you know where we have to stop. I can't believe you! " She tried to yell, her confidence gone as she pulled up the straps of her shirt, keeping her arms covering her upper body and backed away from Troy, hurt and fear deep in her eyes. Troy had never touched her like that, kissed her like that, and it reminded her of her ex-boyfriends, something she would never expect from him, and she didn't want to go back to. She finally round up the courage to look up into his eyes and what she saw hurt even more then the pain that was just inflicted upon her. His eye reflected hers, terrified at what he had just done but the terror was also mixed with guilt and sorrow.
"0h my god…" He whispered his mouth open and eyes wide. Gabriella's fright immediately melted and she opened her mouth to talk but didn't have the chance because Troy had already run out of her room and out of the house. His actions took awhile to register with Gabriella but when they did she quickly grabbed her car keys and ran downstairs. 0nce she had started the car she realized, she had no idea where to go. Troy couldn't have gone very far and it was late at night so she decided the park near her house was her best bet. When she pulled into the empty lot she began her search.
She walked through the park for a good twenty minutes until she spotted a teenager under a tree on the edge of the lake. His knees pulled up to his chest and his head in h is hands. His shoulders were moving rhythmically and she could hear a heart-wrenching sob from where she was standing. When he heard someone coming near, his shoulders stopped moving and his hands swept across his face but he continued looking down. Gabriella called out to him but got no response. She walked toward the boy as he began getting on his feet, getting ready to jog away before he could do so she yelled down to him.
"You know you can run all you want. I'm going to keep following." Troy slowly got up and walked to the point where the dirt met the water and stopped, giving Gabriella a chance to catch up.
"What happened back there?"
Silence
"Troy please say something." She pleaded. He kept his eyes locked on his feet
"Please?" She whispered.
"I can't." He muttered.
"Why not?" She gently asked touching his arm for the second time that day. Troy spoke through clenched teeth and squinted eyes, snapping his head away from her.
"Because I don't know what happened Gabriella! I don't know what I'm doing anymore; just please…please leave now." He begged his voice cracking at the final words and two tears sliding down his face and onto the dirt below. Gabriella had never seen Troy in this type of state. It made her heart ache. This was not the confident basketball superstar she knew, this was a lost boy, and he was vulnerable. She quickly engulfed the sorrow filled boy in a hug but got no response. His arms stayed at his sides. Still she kept her arms around him and whispered into his shoulder,
"It's okay to cry Troy." He shook his head violently and his breathing became even quicker and harder.
"No i-it's not. I can't, I'm the reason all of this happened. I'm the reason she's dying." He choked out.
"Who's dying Troy?" She asked staying calm and rubbing his back trying somehow to soothe him, which made him shake even harder.
"My mom Gabriella, my freakin mom! Those damn doctors couldn't warn her earlier and now she's lying on her death bed because of me!" Troy's inner wall was starting to crack as tears flowed down his cheeks, but his mouth was clamped shut he refused to make a sound. He knew if he opened his mouth, if he took too deep a breath, he would lose it. Time went by as Troy gathered the strength to speak again.
"The worst part is-when I was-born-they knew-they knew something was wrong. They knew and-and they didn't te-tell us, some complications during the birth,-she-lost too much-blood and-never-got it back. This would have never-never-happened if she didn't have me. She wouldn't have to be writing her-her-damn will after she just turned thirty-nine! It's-it's all my fault, she hates me, my dad hates me, my entire family hates me and you hate me, now let the hell go Gabriella!" He wailed in short, out of control breaths.
"No." She whispered and held on tight, as tight as she could, letting Troy's body flail against hers trying to escape her grasp. He was weak at this point but Gabriella still had to put up a fight. Eventually Troy couldn't take it anymore, the fighting stopped and he surrendered, wrapping his arms around the petite girl and letting out the breath he was holding in.
"None of this is your fault Troy, do you hear me? No one knew this was going to happen and even if they did I know your mother would have wanted it. She wanted you she wants you, we all want you! No one hates you, your mother loves you, your father loves you, your family loves you, your friends love you, and I love you! Get it through your head Troy Bolton none of this is in your control!" She screamed, her emotions getting the best of her.
"And Troy if it is your mom's time to go then it is, none of it is your fault! It's in God's hands now." She finished in a whisper as tears poured out of her eyes, both sobbing teens held each other. This is what Troy needed, someone to show him he was loved.
The two stayed there, under a tree the boy's back against it holding the girl upright. Neither counted the hours that passed but both couldn't care less, all they knew is that sometime in the wee hours they both fell into a light slumber and woke up to bright rays of sunlight beaming down on them. Troy awoke to the sound of Gabriella's soft humming. The couple was lying in the due covered grass, Troy's protective arms around Gabriella's middle. She sensed his body moving so she looked up locking eyes, brown to blue. He then bent down to give her a soft kiss and leaned back, sighing.
"Thank you." She closed her eyes in satisfaction and snuggled closer.
"No problem." She whispered.
Goseethedarknight!
During the silent walk home Gabriella spoke up.
"Troy?" She asked nervously, afraid she was opening healing wounds.
"Yea Brie?" He asked giving her a small smile encouraging her to go on.
"What happened last night?" She asked and immediately looked away. He stopped walking and looked up into the sky as if asking for an answer. He then took a sigh before continuing.
"I wish I could tell you Brie, I really wish I could but I really don't know. I guess, ugh, I know this is lame but do you remember when you were 12 and you got in a fight with your parents? You didn't know what to do with yourself so you wrecked your room thinking it would some how upset your parents, when all it really did was ruin everything you had set up?"
"I-I don't really get what you mean Troy." Gabi admitted trying her hardest to understand. Troy nodded, realizing that he wasn't making the most sense.
"Basically I didn't know how to deal with my mom and everything so I hurt the one thing, or rather person that really meant something to me, somehow thinking it would make everything better, when in the end it made everything worse. It still gives me no excuse for what I did but at least you know why I did it."
Gabriella slowly nodded, satisfied with his answer. She then took off the light sweatshirt she was wearing, unconsciously revealing purple marks on her wrists and shoulders. She looked up at Troy and then looked down at herself. Before he could say anything she jumped in.
"Troy don't worry, they don't hurt, it was a mistake."
"But Gabi..."
"No buts Troy it's fine, the marks will be gone in a few days."
"Can I at least get you some cream, or ice, or something?" Gabriella smiled his generosity and innocent guilt.
"Well you know they did just build an ice cream shop next to Rite-Aid..." A relived grin spread on Troy's face at Gabriella's light mood change.
"Why of course, I know you can't go a day without your fudge ripple."
"You're right about that one. You know who else likes fudge ripple?"
"Who?"
"You're mom." Troy took a deep sigh and Gabriella took his hand.
"Well then we better hurry up before they run out."
Goseethedarknight!
Holy crap you guys I am so sorry for the last chapter! I re-read it last week and it made me cringe at how awkward it is. I guess issues like that should stay personal, sorry again. Well since the sorry train is boarding (ugh how corny is that) I should say sorry for this chapter. It really has nothing to do with the perfect boyfriend list but I felt it sort of went in and I've been dieing to write a quick story like this. My last sorry is for the hold up and short length of this chapter. I really hope you guys still like it. Also I am only going to be writing one more chapter to this story and I'm out of ideas so requests or recommendations are much appreciated. Also if you can't tell from my little scene separators, go see the dark knight it's amazing! Even if you're not into superheroes. Finally I am a twilighter. A huge one, and my friends and I are going to buy our copies at midnight and read all day in a caffeine filled basement. Anyway I was wondering if anyone has found Edward/Bella 'first time' fanfics that are just cute lines. I don't want extreme details and I have a personal petpeve against the phrase 'making love' (shivers). So if anyone knows any twilight fanfics like that or just really well written twifics could you drop me a pm? I'll love you forever and a day. By the way, the movie comes out on my birthday! How cools is that!? Kay one more sorry this a/n is crazy. Anyway hope you enjoyed the chapter! Reviews are love!