HOLY FREAKIN' CRAP! I can't believe I haven't updated for like ever! I'm so sorry everyone. I was trying to find inspiration for this fic, so I was on writer's block for a long time. Plus, I have other fic projects that I have to work on and I still haven't found the time to fix those yet.
My Ouran High School Host Club fic that I've been working for some reason is now a yaoi, unfortunately. Thanks to the influence of my friends at school (damn them.) who say it should be a yaoi, I'm still working on it. It's already a lemon now. God I feel so embarrassed! (blushes like crazy)
Very Important!: If you're lost into where you are due to my lack in updating, I strongly suggest that anyone go back to the last chapter that I updated. You'll find your placement where you are there.
Disclaimer: This is really getting old. I'm not getting any younger by saying I don't own Tokyo Mew Mew. Geez. And the song lyrics "Love You Like Water" by Shing02 is so not mine. His hip-hop skills are too precise, and it's something I can't match. (plus it took me forever to find these lyrics by googling it.)
Even when it should?
All this Kisshu has to deal with himself the hard way…
Especially with Joushu in mind.
Or maybe it won't be so hard.
If he can't make love, he can always make peace…
Can't he?
Chapter 9: Troubled Minds;
His and Her Circumstances
City Area of Tokyo
He was now in so much trouble.
Just staring at Joushu in complete shock wasn't getting him anywhere. Wondering what the hell Joushu was doing here in the first place didn't explain anything either. Even when her dark ruby irises shined not with fear but confusion. She didn't back away, but came closer with interest and curiosity.
But Ichigo blocked her path.
"Let's go Joushu." She said firmly.
Joushu was taken aback at this, wondering why Ichigo was blocking her path to Kisshu.
"Why?"
"That's the same alien that I dealt with three years ago." She growled.
'Dammit!' Kisshu thoughts shouted. 'Ichigo's really on my ass! Now Joushu will never accept me.'
With that, he teleported away to Joushu's disappointment.
"Ah! Kisshu!"
Ichigo tsked, "Good riddance."
Joushu's head snapped at her. "How could you say that?!"
The Mew Mew leader's pink irises became sharp and dark. "Let's go back to the café. You have a lot of listening to do."
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"Okay, now you've really lost it!" shouted a furious Pai off the communicator. Kisshu, who was lying on a couch with a white undershirt and green boxers, said nothing as Pai continued his rage filled nagging. Taruto sat on a one-seated cushioned chair, saying nothing as well. He didn't blame Pai. The two of them coming back to Tokyo was his idea anyway. However, it was Kisshu's fault for getting involved with that girl in the first place.
"And you!" Pai shouted at Taruto, making him jump. "Crying over some stupid girl-"
"How about you shut the hell up Pai!" Taruto yelled. "You don't need to be calling Pudding some stupid girl."
"Then what am I suppose to call her then, huh?! Your heart throb?!" roared Pai, "Who the hell told you it was fine to go on a date anyway?!"
Taruto glanced at Kisshu as he gave him a nervous look. No way was he going to be a snitch just because an unknown Chirema Anima appeared in the "Human World". Plus, no one knows who actually sent it. By Pai's attitude right now, he definitely wasn't a suspect. It wouldn't be Kisshu either because he doesn't do that kind of stuff anymore. He said so himself- at least, that's what only Taruto knew. Lastly, it couldn't possibly be him, and there was no way and Pai could prove that. He was with Pudding the whole time.
"I did." he grumbled finally. "I didn't think it would be a big deal-"
"Well now it is a big deal," growled Pai. "and both of your reckless behavior will be your teacher."
The communicator screen turned to static, and it automatically shut off. There was silence between the two until Taruto spoke up.
"Then again Kisshu, who was that tanned girl with the black and red streaked hair anyway?" he asked.
All Kisshu could do was curl up into a ball on the couch. The thought of Joushu made his stomach queasy as if he were getting a cramp.
"Someone I met at the park."
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"So let me get this straight. You all are saying that Kisshu is an alien from another planet, he almost destroyed Tokyo and the world with these Pai and Taruto aliens three years ago, and now you all think he's back to finish what he started?" stated Joushu. All of them gathered around her and told her the full story of what happened during those years. Agony, grief, pain, courage, strength, rage, love, betrayal, hatred, all of the emotions was there as all of them told her to the last detail. It only left her with one question.
"Why?"
"He did want to use the Mew Aqua to save his home planet," began Akasaka-san, "but it would have brought destruction if he did."
This rose the confusion meter on high for Joushu. "But the Mew Aqua is for healing right? Why destruction?"
"It depends how it's used." responded Zakuro.
"And it was horrible na no da!" Pudding exclaimed. "Everyone would have died under Deep Blue if he ruled the world na no da!"
Minto gave Pudding a suspicious look. "Plus, Pudding was already on the scene with that other alien. Taruto was it?"
The monkey infused Mew Mew could only think of one word: BUSTED.
She crossed her arms over her chest and huffed making it seem like it wasn't a big deal. "There's nothing wrong with me out on a Sunday night no da. I had a date, that's all.'
Lettuce counted her thoughts with her fingers. "Taruto was there though…and then again, there's the Chimera Anima….and all of us had to put all our powers together to defeat it. Has that ever happened before?"
"And more important, where did it come from. Or, who sent it." Zakuro added.
Ichigo cracked her knuckles with returned anger. "Oh, I have a pretty good thought of who send it-"
'That's it! I can't take it anymore!' grumbled Joushu thoughts, her head giving a very uncomfortable throb.
"Or maybe it was someone else." stated Shigonane. The tan skinned girl's head gave another painful throb. 'I feel like I'm on a big ass game of Clue!'
"I still think it was Kisshu's doing because-"
"Geez, enough already!" shouted Joushu. Everyone turned to her, now silenced. Again, her head gave a very uncomfortable throb as she put her hands up in defeat.
"I've had enough of this, I'm going home." she said, stood up and marched out the door gripping the crystal blue orb in her hand. As she got outside, she gave a sigh of both relief and exhaustion. She had school tomorrow, and she needed to get some sleep for she had to take the bus 5:30 in the morning with Ichigo.
She changed before she left and was now wearing a white tank top that had a sakura tree. One flower was glittery gold with writing that said "Bloom to be different" in kanji, a denim plaited skirt puffed in the breeze along with her fingerless black leather gloves, navy blue stockings that stopped at her thighs kept her warm, and black one strap shoes with a pink glittery lightning blot on the sides completed her look. (with Shigonane still commenting on how she dresses playing in her mind.).
Just when she thought about her red haired friend, her gut seemed to kick. How she going to face her now? 'She's probably going to give me the silent treatment tomorrow.' she thought sadly. It was already 10:32 and her mom was probably worried sick. Plus, her dad was probably watching the news at work and coming home in a few minutes.
'And I'm the one in between.' she thought as she held the blue orb close to her chest, it giving her an abnormal radiation of warmth. She gazed up at the starry Sunday night sky.
"Man, what am I going to do?" she asked the sky looking for a sign or an answer, until starting her walk home.
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Kisshu press his cheek against the balcony that was outside his room, his arm crossed over his face as his other arm dangled on the rail as he wore a very open white button up shirt and black jeans while he was bare-footed. His hair looked as if it was in spikes but was just messy and hair band-less due to what happened today. All throughout the rest of the night, he has been trying to get all his thoughts, problems, and stress together. That didn't work as it only made him feel like he was just punched in the head, and gut so he opened the balcony doors and tried his best to relax.
if we can't make love
we can always make peace, can't we?
if we can't make love
we can always make peace, can't we?
if we can't make love
we can always make peace...
All that came in his thoughts were stress in which he wished he could run away from.
'How are you going to face her now?'
'She's probably wishing she never met you.'
'She'll never forgive you.'
'You just lost her only true trust forever.'
'…forever.'
'…forever.'
'…forever.'
can't we have a minute or two?
to come face to face ya know
just name the place and
I'ma be there half an hour early
so I can feel the joy in my chest
while waiting for...
The word seemed to echo in his mind until eternity, which in his state would until his completely decompose and continue on. He still battled with his mind back and forth if he should really fess up to Joushu.
'Oh yeah, that really gives yourself a good deed sticker,' snorted his disagreeing conscious sarcastically. '"I'm sorry Joushu, but I was trying to earn your trust on a big fat lie that I moved from Tokyo, missed it there, and decided to be stupid and come back. And did you know that I fell in love with Ichigo before I met you?"'
'That's the point, I used to like her.' debated Kisshu. 'Besides, I was only trying to have Joushu trust me so I wouldn't be such a threat.'
'Let's refer back to how you were a huge threat to the human race, now Joushu, and of course - the big fat lie.' said his conscious in a matter-of-fact tone. 'You've done enough damage - mentally, physically, literally, and "as is" - so what gave you the best bet that you were able to start over, especially again in Tokyo?'
That statement, true or not, made Kisshu now irritated.
'Now it's my turn. Let's refer back to how Taruto had a 4 year-old tantrum when I said no.' sneered Kisshu, which silenced his conscious. Unfortunately, his mind still wasn't clear enough to make him relax or at least to send him to sleep.
"Might as well go for a walk." he said to himself jumping off his balcony, and landing on the grass before starting his night stroll, for some reason giving off a lonely aura. He closed his eyes in shame as the wind blew from the west while he was heading north, blowing his hair and making his shirt ripple, carrying his lonely aura into the night's wind.
even if you're late a couple of ticks
it'll feel like forever to sit
in front of the building
watch the crowd walk by and you're not in it
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As Joushu continued walking, the Sunday wind began to blow from her east as she headed south. Strandsof her hair was getting in her eyes as she pulled them away. She also felt an awkward lonely aura. She hugged herself tightly to keep her cool. Then, she noticed a figure walking. And it looked rather familiar…
doubt reach a limit
then you surprise me
with your presence,
the dopest present of all
totally in awe
by the simple fact that you came
plus you answered my call
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There was nothing left in his mind that wouldn't reverse back to Joushu. Yet, he continued to feel self-pity for a stupid stunt into even meet or know Joushu. He almost brushed off the thought that he saw a figure walking. His thoughts and mind were in full focus when he stopped walking, and so did the figure as both stood face to face.
It was Joushu.
my body love you like water
dry land thirst to the highest order
sweet memories saved on recorder
two pal birds sitting on the border
my body love you like water
dry land thirst to the highest order
sweet memories saved on recorder
two pal birds sitting on the border
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The scene between the two now felt awkward.
He looked at her, probably the last look that he would able to remember.
She looked at him, now with the knowing of what he really is and what he used to be.
All Kisshu could feel was absolute shame. He didn't even want to be in the position that he was in now. Too much dirt about him was horribly dished out to Joushu. (and knowing Ichigo and her rage still on him, he would guess that she dished out all of it.)
Now in her presence, he felt a strange emptiness.
"Um, hi…Kisshu-kun." he heard her say breaking the silence. She tried to give a warm smile, but his deep forest green bangs blocked his troubled golden orbs as he grunted a "hi." in reply.
so much on my mind and yet
before I lay to rest I find the space to
think about a long lost friend
"Wherever the excitement went,
so did the air and the heavenly scent?"
Unfortunately, for him, she gave herself the courage to walk towards him.
'Please, don't come any closer Joushu.' his thoughts begged, secretly wishing that she would hear them. 'Don't come near me.' It felt like she was slowly killing him. He couldn't take it.
Suddenly, he felt hands touch both sides of his cheeks and have him stare at her ruby red irises. (he also saw black leather fingerless gloves on either side of her shoulders.)
now the stench of my own breath
got me sucking on a fruit of death,
real life and debt around the world
got me fiending on the times we spent
I don't know, how the two relate but they do
He somehow felt she knew he was trembling.
"You know," she whispered her thumbs stroking his cheeks. "you look kind of different, now that I know who you really are."
There went the punch in the gut he felt before.
"But…when I think about it, I could look in you eyes and still see the same Kisshu-kun that I met at the park that day." she said which surprised him. As he continued to stare into her eyes, he felt like he was being sucked in. 'No, don't fall in you idiot!' his mind screamed.
Joushu cocked her head to the side. "Even then, I envy you. You have really pretty eyes." she said in admiration.
Her compliments didn't change his mind. He still felt shame. 'Please, don't do this to me…Joushu.'
see, believe you me
I never felt so wanted
like a fugitive on a poster
but you already had me
like a coaster
on the bottom of a fine glass
translucent the most a
He was able to find the will power to speak. "I only wanted you to trust me Joushu. Now you'll never be able to know because I'm different from what you expect. And having you think that…it hurts."
She removed her hands and stood up straight. "Look at my shirt. What does it say?"
He gave an effort to see the shirt and saw the kanji "Bloom to be different." on the side of the sakura tree. He also saw the gold glittered sakura blossom.
reason to pass n' pour from a sealed bottle
we can crack shells like a pair of sea otters
gaze like crystal
geyser with the mineral
rich with the natural gift
"See? This represents you." she said referring to the gold sakura blossom. "It matches your eyes, yes?" she added with a cheerful smile. Her cheerful nature made him smile a little.
"You know, I still remember when I first moved here, people called me an outsider since I was so different. Ichigo stood up for me and we've been friends ever since then." she said remembering back when she was 13 years old. "Even you can't think of the thought of Ichigo since you two were enemies, but I guess we have a bit in common now, yes?" she said again with another cheerful smile.
Kisshu turned his head away. "I guess."
"So what if you're different? I kind of like the idea that you're an alien-"
She then felt his arms wrap around her and hugged her small frame. Kisshu could only thank God for this girl for showing mercy upon him. He knew that definitely the ones she's friends with would never accept him in his current state, even if he got on hands and knees and begged forgiveness. All he could think that he was grateful as she hugged him back. At that moment, he began to relax.
He would finally get a second chance.
"Thank you, Joushu." he whispered.
my body love you like water
dry land thirst to the highest order
sweet memories saved on recorder
two pal birds sitting on the border
my body love you like water
dry land thirst to the highest order
sweet memories saved on recorder
two pal birds sitting on the border
now break it down like...
He felt he was within her debt so he took her home by air, helped explain to her very worried mother that she was with him, and proved to her that he was an alien. (however she fainted when he teleported around the house.)
After see Joushu rested in her bed quietly and departed by jumping over her balcony, he gave one last look at her as she called out his and gazed down at him from the ground.
"Promise you won't leave unless I go with you." she said sticking out her pinkie. He chuckled and soared towards her and intertwined his pinkie with hers.
"I promise." he said and bid her goodnight. Kisshu began to walk back home and still felt that hug she gave him. He wrapped his arms around himself and secretly cherished it. Acceptance. When was the last time he ever received it from someone? He could only say that Joushu was the first.
if we can't make love
we can always make peace, can't we?
if we can't make love
we can always make peace, can't we?
if we can't make love
we can always make,
peace…
As the Sunday wind blew, his aura was now shrouded with relief and hope as he kept in his mind four words:
"Bloom to be different."
No mew mew preview this time people. I have a very strong feeling that my writing style has greatly changed. Also, I really don't want to go back and revise my whole fic because of my changed writing style. Since I'm an authoress on one of the imdb dot com message board, I'll make the resolution I made there take affect here.
I will submit a chapter every month. (like magazines do, yes?)
For the song, if you go on youtube and search for the song title, enjoy the flash music video that the artist himself personally accepted. It's a really good song.
Furthermore, I hope you enjoyed the chapter, and liked the small bit of Kisshu and Joushu fluff that gave to you all. Tune in soon for the next chapter. Ja Ne for now!
Nighttime Mistress