A/N: Thanks again to everyone who is still reading this story. Thanks to everyone's kind reviews. I really appreciate them.

Hope you enjoy this chapter!Chapter 6 - We need to talk

Over the next few weeks Alex and Addison began to get along. They managed to be professional and they worked well together on a few cases. Both acknowledged that the other had a lot of experience and began to value the others opinion.

They both fell into an easy routine of seeing each other most mornings before work to go over various things. Both of them kept up the pretence that it was best for their respective specialties but they both did it just so they could spend time together alone before the day started.

Alex loved to watch her mouth move when she spoke and he had to try really hard to focus on what she was saying. He knew he was getting in too deep and he knew he was never going to have Addison in the way he really wanted her. But for now he would take what he could get and for right now that meant sharing early mornings together and nothing more. If only

"Hey I bought breakfast." Addison said as she walked into Alex's office.

"Thanks." He said as he looked up at her.

"Well it was my turn." She replied lightly.

"So what do you have?" He asked as he moved from behind his desk.

"Oh just banana bread and coffee. Hope that's okay."

"Sounds good. So what have you got on today?"

"I have a C-section for twins in about 30 minutes then I have some cysts to remove from an ovary. What about you?"

"Well its Tuesday so I have my weekly tonsillectomy's today. 5 kids in total today." He said with a smile.

"Sounds like an easy day for you." She replied.

"Don't say that you will jinx it. I will get something come into the ER if you say that." He said.

"I had no idea you were superstitious."

"Well there are a lot of things you don't know about me." He said with a sly smirk.

"I guess that is true." She said trying not to look at his lips.

"I'm sure there are a lot of things I don't know about you too." He replied.

Hearing that comment made Addison feel nervous. They were getting along so well now. Sometimes it felt like she was living a double life. On one hand she had the kind safe husband at home and at work she had this amazing man who made her heart race and made her feel things she thought were long dead. If she told him about what happened the real reason she left campus, everything could possibly be ruined. But as time was going on by not telling him she felt that she was lying by omission and that wasn't what she wanted. She debated with herself over and over... Did he have a right to know?

"Yeah there probably are." Addison replied vaguely. "Look I should leave you too it. I will see you before I leave tonight we need to talk about Baby Henderson."

"Mmm yeah. You still want to wait another 48 hours before we operate."

"I'm not sure. I think you might be right he isn't responding to the medication as well as I would have liked."

"Okay well I will check on him again before my first tonsillectomy and we can talk about it later."

"Alright well I better get going. See you later."

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"Hello."

"Hey Nae it's me."

"Addie how are you? What time is it in Seattle?"

"Midday."

"And you are calling in the middle of the day. What's wrong?"

"Do you think I should tell Alex?"

"Whoa. I wasn't expecting that. Oh I don't know. I mean do you think it will make a difference."

"I don't think I should keep it from him. We are getting along so well I just think the closer I'm getting to him well I think he deserves to know the truth. It was something I never thought about because I never thought I'd ever see him again."

"No I guess you didn't. It's still unbelievable really after all these years. And to think he wasn't the jerk we thought he was. I mean I feel bad for saying all those awful things about him."

"Well we didn't know he lost his phone or that he tried to get in touch with every Montgomery in New York or that he managed to get in touch with the dorms at Harvard, just after I left."

"God he really did want to find you didn't he?"

"Yeah which makes me think I should tell him."

"I guess you are the only one who can decide that. Addison I want you to be honest with me. How do you feel about Alex now?"

"Oh he has turned out to be an amazing man. Still arrogant and cocky but he has a kind and gentle side too. He is amazing with the kids."

"You didn't answer my question. How do you feel about Alex?" Naomi asked again.

"I'm confused. Honestly I don't know how I feel. I know I love being around him, he makes me smile and even when we argue over a patient I like it. He challenges me and sometimes I don't even listen to what he is saying all I can do is focus on his lips moving and then I start wanting to feel them on mine and it just gets Agh I have to stop."

"Addison you can't keep working with him if he affects you like that and telling him what happened all those years ago isn't going to achieve anything."

"Maybe not but I feel like he should know the full story. I only gave him half of it. He doesn't know I tried to call Iowa State."

"Well if you think it's the right thing to do then maybe you should tell him. How do you think he will react though? And are you prepared for that."

"I don't know. I really don't. I mean how can you be prepared for that. I have no idea how he will react, he may very well hate me. But I think he should know, it's the right thing to do. When the opportunity presents itself that's when I'll tell him. If the time is right then I will tell him. I'm not just going to bring it up out of left field."

"Well take care and let me know if there is anything I can do. Be careful Addie."

"Thanks Nae I will. Take care and I will be in touch soon."

Addison hung up the phone and continued on with her day. She managed to have lunch with Derek. Derek was her best friend. He knew her well and she always felt safe with him. He helped keep her life on an even keel and she loved him she really did but it wasn't the love that she knew she still felt for Alex. The way I feel about Alex is just never going to change.

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Later that evening Alex stopped by Addison's office to discuss the Henderson baby. After they talked at length they decided to operate the following morning.

"Hey do you want to hear something funny?" Alex asked.

"Sure." She replied.

"This woman Mark slept with years ago way back when we were at University turns up today for a breast enlargement."

"Oh God did he remember her?"

"No. But she remembered him and it was not pretty. They say karma is a bitch."

"Yeah. I guess it is." Addison said laughing a little.

"God he had that many girls through our dorm room it wasn't funny."

"I bet." Addison added.

"They were fun times though. You missed out on all of that. You never did tell me why you decided to move off campus with Derek."

And there it was. The right time. Alex was asking why she left. It was now or never, time to come clean and tell the truth.

"I did move off campus with Derek, we shared an apartment for 4 years. We both just felt Dorm life wasn't for us."

"Oh well I guess it isn't for everyone. I had a blast though."

"Alex I want to tell you something." Addison said seriously.

"Okay, you sound serious." He said looking at her with concern.

"I wasn't completely honest with you when I told you after I couldn't get in touch with you that I gave up and assumed you didn't care."

"What do you mean?"

"I rang Iowa State University and tried to find you. Like you it took a while but I finally did get in touch with your dorm."

"Oh well why didn't I get a message or speak to you?" Alex was now beginning to feel uncomfortable and a little unsure of what was coming next.

"Well if I remember correctly which I do because I've never forgotten it. A woman answered the phone and when I asked for you she told me and I quote 'Get a clue if he didn't give you his cell phone number he really just used you. The number of girls through that Guys room is too many to count and he has only been here 3 weeks. Sorry.' and she hung up."

"Fuck. Addison I'm sorry that was not true. Mark probably slept with her and she assumed we were the same. Don't get me wrong I had my fair share of girls through University but it took me a while to get over you. It really did. I hope you believe me."

"I do believe you. It's not important now anyway. As we've said a million times it was so long ago. But I did try to get in touch with you for a reason Alex. I really needed to talk to you."

"Addison what is it?"

"I just never thought I would see you again so I never thought I would have to tell you."

"Tell me what? Why did you need to talk to me so badly? Is it the reason you moved off campus?"

"Yes. You have to understand I was 18 and alone and I was so scared I just didn't know what else to do. So I tried to find you. I really needed you."

"Addison what are you trying to tell me." He said as he took her hand in his.

"Alex I was pregnant."

A/N: So there you go Addison was pregnant. I have a scenario played out for what I think should happen but I am open to suggestions so please feel free to let me know!