A/N: Thank you to everyone for their kind reviews. I had a lot of trouble writting this chapter. I know it may not be to everyones liking and I thought long and hard about how I want this story to go. So I hope you like it!!

Thanks Ash for your help with this chapter. As always it is much appreciated. xxx

Chapter 7 - Sorry

"W.W What." Alex stuttered.

"Alex..."

"No!" He said a little angrily as he took his hand from hers. "You have been here for 3 months. And you are only now getting around to telling me that I have a child." He said looking at her with hard eyes.

"No." She said quickly. "No. We don't have a child Alex." She added a little softer.

Harvard University – Many years ago

Addison sat and stared at the pregnancy test. Positive! Positive! Fuck! Oh God what am I going to do?

Naomi had arrived back to the dorm after a date with Sam and noticed Addison staring off into space.

"Addie? What is it?"

"I'm...I'm pregnant." Addison stuttered.

"Oh Jesus."

"I know. I've been sitting here for a few hours just staring at the positive result. What am I going to do Naomi? I tried to call Alex and he has moved on apparently. He obviously won't help me."

"Well you know Sam and I will and of course Derek. Derek would do anything for you."

"I know and thank you. But Nae what am I going to do? I just can't have a baby. My parents would disown me and I would have to drop out of school and then what? How on Earth could I raise a baby on my own with no help and no income?"

"Well you don't have to make any decisions right now. How far along are you?"

"I'm not sure. I'm about 2 weeks late, so I'm guessing around 6 weeks."

"See you have a little bit of time. You should tell Derek. Between the 4 of us we can work something out. Whatever you decide you know that we will all support you."

A week later and after much consideration, soul searching and talking to her friends, Addison had made an appointment to have an abortion. She cried and wrestled with the idea but she knew she wasn't ready to be a mother and knowing that her baby's father had discarded her she came to the only decision she could.

Naomi and Derek took Addison to the clinic where she had to have some counselling and make an appointment to have the "procedure" done 48 hours later. Addison sat holding Naomi's hand thinking about how she would live with herself after she had had the abortion.

"You don't have to do this." Naomi said quietly.

"I do Nae. I can't have a baby. Maybe I could if Alex was still around but he isn't. I know you hate him and I know I should too but right now I just want him to be here. I just need his love and support. I still love him and I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. He just used me but it felt so real to me." Addison finished sadly.

"Addie, Alex is gone. You will never see him again. I think it's just all the hormones talking." Naomi said trying to be as supportive as she could.

"I'm doing the right thing, aren't I?"

"I can't answer that Addie. But you are being incredibly brave and you are going to go on and become the best surgeon and have an amazing life Addie. In time you will be able to put it behind you and get over Alex. I have no doubt about that."

"Thanks. I'm going to go over to Derek's dorm for a little while. He is buying Thai food for dinner and we are going to watch a movie while you and Sam make out here." Addison said with a small laugh.

"Call me when you get there so I know you are okay." Naomi asked.

"No problem."

An hour later Naomi was getting worried. It wasn't like Addison not to call so she made a quick call to Derek.

"No she isn't here yet. I just thought she was running late and you two were talking." Derek said.

"I have a bad feeling." Naomi replied.

Derek, Naomi and Sam all went looking for Addison. They found her not far from Derek's dorm and they all quickly went to help their friend. She had been beaten and mugged. She had hit her head as she had fallen and was unconscious. They quickly got her to the closest hospital, where the Doctors checked her out. Addison had a mild concussion, some serious bruising and some cuts that required stitches she had also miscarried.

"Addie you are going to be fine." Derek said as he held her hand.

"I hurt all over." Addison muttered.

"It's going to be okay. I will help you."

"I can't go back there Derek. I lost my baby."

"I know and I'm sorry. Things happen for a reason Addie. We can move off campus. We can get an apartment together. I will help you start again. We can help each other; living on campus isn't for us anyway. What do you think?"

"Yeah. That might help. It's a good idea. Thank you Derek, you are a good friend." Addison mumbled as she went back to sleep.

Present Day – Addison's office

Addison thought that she had cried all the tears she had for her unborn child and for what had happened to her that night but telling Alex brought everything back and seeing his reaction made her heart break all over again.

Alex was pacing around the office; he had so many emotions running through him all at once he didn't know where to start. He was still trying to process everything that had happened to Addison.

"Alex, I know you are really angry with me right now for what I was going to do. Believe me I have hated myself for years, but I want you to understand at the time I really thought..."

"Addison no!" Alex interrupted as he made his way back to sit next to her on the small sofa. "Yes I'm angry. I'm angry with so many things. I'm angry with myself for losing my phone, I'm angry with that stupid bitch for telling you lies about me, I'm angry for not being there for you when you needed me, I'm pissed that you had to even make the decision to terminate OUR pregnancy and I'm fucking furious with those guys that attacked you, BUT believe me I'm not angry with you." He finished as he took her hand in his.

"I'm just so sorry Alex."

"It's not your fault." He said as he took her into his arms and held her while tears fell onto his shoulder.

They continued to hold each other, both lost in their own thoughts. Thoughts of all the loss and sorrow they had both been through. As angry as he was he was happy that she had told him, he just wished things could have been different.

"I'm sorry." Addison repeated over and over again.

"Addie, sshh it's not your fault and the decision you made was the right decision. But ultimately the decision was taken out of your hands by those assholes who mugged you."

"I know it was but I was still going to go through with it."

"Well you had to do what was right for you, and being alone with a child at 18 would have been so difficult. Naomi was right it was a brave decision to make. I just wish I could have been there for you."

"I really wanted you to be there too."

"I know it's not the same but I'm here now. I'm so glad that you told me."

"I didn't know if it was the right thing to do or not. I just thought that you deserved to know the truth." Addison said as her tears had begun to subside.

Having Alex hold her again after all these years felt so perfect, so right and so natural. She felt like she was home. Alex was the man she loved and there was no denying that. He was being so understanding and compassionate. She knew by his reaction that he was just as devastated as she had been.

As Alex continued to hold her he felt an overwhelming rush of something he hadn't felt in a very long time. I'm still in love with her. No one makes me feel like this. I just wish I could make all the pain go away.

Addison's head was lying between Alex's shoulder and neck; he gently stroked her hair as he kept telling her none of this was her fault and that he was sorry over and over again. He placed a soft kiss on her forehead. Even under the very sad and emotional circumstances, everything about being in each other's arms felt comfortable and right.

Addison moved from her position and looked deep into Alex's dark eyes. He touched the side of her face and wiped the remaining tears away with his index finger. They gazed into each other's eyes for a few lingering moments; he hadn't yet removed his hand from the side of her face.

As their gaze got more and more intense, the combination of the feelings they had once shared and the built up emotions over the past 15 years began to surface it just seemed like the most natural thing in the world to lean into each other until their lips brushed against each other.

The kiss was soft and a little tentative. They both pulled away just as quickly and Alex removed his hand from the side of Addison's face. They continued to look at each other and within moments they had both leant in again. This time it was Addison who cupped Alex's face in her hands as they began to kiss.

This time the kiss, while still slow, was a little deeper. When Alex sensed she wasn't going to pull away from him he reached out and put his arms around her waist and pulled her closer. The kiss deepened further and Alex's tongue gently entered Addison's mouth as she moaned quietly at the sensation.

After a few minutes of beautiful, slow and tender kissing and holding each other they broke apart. They looked into each other's eyes and Alex took Addison's hands in one of his as the other pushed her hair away from her face.

"Alex I should go." She said quietly.

"I know. Please let me drive you home. It's been an emotional few hours; I don't think you should drive."

"No I'm fine. Truly Alex."

"Okay. Please send me a quick text message so I know you got home safely."

"I will. Are you sure you have your phone?" Addison said trying to make light of the highly dramatic situation.

"Yeah I do. I learnt my lesson." He said smiling for the first time in quite a while.

"Thanks Alex for being so understanding. I'll see you tomorrow."

"Sure drive safe."

Both of them knew they couldn't ignore the kiss they shared forever but right now there were too many other things to think about. Alex watched as Addison left her office.

Addie was pregnant with my baby. I understand why she was going to have an abortion I really do. How different things would have been if I had of known then. She certainly wouldn't have been mugged that's for sure. Who knows we could have had a 14 year old son or daughter now, and Addison wouldn't be married to another man.

Addison I swear I will do whatever it takes to make you mine again. I love you and I finally realize I always have and always will.

A/N: So there you go Chapter 7. Hope it lived up to your expectations. Please let me know what you thought. I'm very interested as I said at the beginning this chapter was very hard to write.