Chapter 14

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This is a few days after Bella's Birthday from Edward's POV and then Bella's

Edward's POV

I was lying on my bed reading Wuthering Heights- at Bella's insistence of course- when I heard someone knock on my door, "Come in" I said, book marking my page and sitting up. Mom came in looking unusually hesitant. "What's up mom?" I asked, getting worried, she took a deep breath,

"Okay, here's the thing Edward, we're moving to LA." I was shocked, we couldn't go, we just couldn't.

"WHAT" I shouted.

"Edward, don't get mad, but your father is getting paid a lot of money to work at the hospital there"

"Dads already rich, we don't need more money"

"He also feels that he can help more people and expand on his experience in a bigger hospital." She explained. I pinched the bridge of my nose,

"Mom, we can't go, I mean what about school, what about my friends?" I could tell by mom's expression that she knew I wasn't just talking about friends.

"Sweetie, I know you love Bella, but we have to go, I'm sure you too could have a long distance relationship." Esme just didn't understand, it hurt me to be apart from Bella for just a day, how could I ever live in a different state from her.

"Mom it's not the same."

"I know, but it's the best you can do." I knew now that there was no changing my parent's minds. I stood up and walked out of my room,

"I have to go think for a while" and with that I walked away, ignoring moms pleas for me to stay. I climbed into my Volvo, started the car and drove, knowing exactly were I was going, the meadow. I speed there, climbed out and ran to the meadow, I got there in record time, and just sat in the middle of the clearing.

I'd always thought of the meadow as a really good place to think, it was where I'd composed some of my best music, its where I decided to tell Bella I loved her, Its where I told Bella I love her, and now its where I have to decide how to leave her.

A long distance relationship- I guess it wouldn't be that bad, I could visit her in the school holidays, and we could talk on the phone everyday.

Except that wouldn't be fair on her. How could I ask her to do that, to give up on dating other people just to make me happy? How could I really do something that selfish, to keep her to myself, to deny her the chance to find love elsewhere? Bella deserved happiness, and a proper relationship, and I couldn't give her that anymore.

When I realized what I would have do to a fresh wave of misery came over me. I was going to have to let Bella go. I would tell her why, let her know I still loved her, but I'd still have to let her go. I would have to break both our hearts, but I knew it was the right thing to do, I was so mad, at everything. I was mad at my dad for taking the job, I was mad at the hospital for offering it, I was even a little mad at my self for loving Bella so much. I was so wrapped up in that anger and misery that I jumped as I felt a hand on my shoulder, and heard the voice of my angel,

"Edward, are you okay?"

"Bella, how did you know I was here?"

"Esme called me, I figured it out." Wow she must have been worried, to have called Bella, at least it didn't sound as though she had told Bella about the move, I knew that was my job. She must have seen the distress on my face because she continued, "Edward, what's wrong?"

"We're leaving Bella." I explained gritting my teeth, "dad got a job in LA and we're leaving."

"What!" she exclaimed, starting to cry.

" I know, I'm so sorry, I tried to convince mom that we shouldn't go, but she wouldn't budge." Bella started to cry even more, before regaining her composure,

"Edward, don't be sorry, its not your fault" she took a deep breath, "I mean its not like we have to break up, we can have a long distance relationship, you know, video calls and stuff." Oh my God, I had to do it now, I had to tell her.

"Bella, I can't do that to you."

"WHAT, but…but I love you" she sobbed. I couldn't bear to see Bella in pain, and pulled her into a tight hug,

"I love you too, so much, and that's why I can't have a long distance relationship with you, its not fair on you, you could do so much better than that." She seemed to be taking it okay, and kissed me lightly on the lips,

"Edward, I'd much rather be in a compromised relationship with you than without you at all, so there's no need to be so self sacrificing." Oh no, this is going to be harder than I had anticipated

"Bella, really, I couldn't do that, you deserve so much better, I'd never forgive myself." She thought for a while, and then suddenly looked devastated, for some unknown reason she pushed me away before sighing

"Its okay Edward, you don't have to lie." What was going on, what did she mean,

"Lie, what am I lying about?"

"Its okay that you don't love me anymore, really, I'll always care about you, but I understand that you don't want to put the effort in. I know long distance relationships are hard so I don't hate you for not bothering to even give it a go." Her voice was cold and harsh as she condemned me. How could she think that I didn't love her anymore? How could she believe that I was motivated by laziness at all?

"What? Bella, I love you, I'm telling the truth!" I pleaded. If she wasn't mad before she definitely was now, and she pushed me away again and stood up, she started to scream

"Stop lying, stop it, stop it." I just sat there, shell shocked, as she stormed off. She was just about to leave the meadow when she paused, spinning around "by the way, don't be home too late, Esme's worried about you." Her voice was calm, but the tears streaming down her face gave her away. She ran back into the forest, and just like that she was gone. Gone forever. I lay down in what used to be our meadow, I didn't normally cry but today I did, because I was leaving, and she had left me, and our meadow was just mine now, not even, because I was leaving this place.

Bella's POV

I was sitting on my bed listening to my MP3 player when my dad yelled at me to come downstairs because someone was calling me. I trudged down the stairs and took the phone off Charlie, "Hello?" I asked hesitantly.

"Bella, its Esme." She said, relieved to have gotten hold of me. I wonder why she was calling.

"Oh, hi Esme, how can I help you"

"Its Edward." Oh my God, what happened to Edward? Oh please let him be okay. "Don't be too worried" she continued, "he's just a little upset about something and he stormed off to God knows where." Thank God that's all.

"What's he upset about?"

"Um, I think he should be the one to explain that"

"Oh okay"

"So, do you think you might know where he would go."? I didn't even have to think before answering

"Yeah, I'm pretty sure I know where he is, I'll go get him now."

"Thanks Bella"

"Bye Esme." And with that I grabbed the keys to the Chevy, told dad I was going out and drove towards our meadow. I drove as far as the trail before I pulled up and walked to the forest. It had taken me a while, but Edward and I went here so often that I knew my way around blindfolded.

It was such a pretty walk that I usually took my time, but today I hurried, anxious to see what was wrong with Edward. After a while I got to the clearing and there he was, sitting in the middle of the meadow. I walked up to him quietly, and he was so wrapped up in anger and misery that he didn't even notice me come to sit next to him. I put a gentle hand on his shoulder,

"Edward, are you okay?" he gave a start,

"Bella, how did you know I was here?"

"Esme called me, I figured it out" I explained, "Edward, what's wrong?"

"We're leaving Bella," he explained gritting his teeth, "dad got a job in LA and we're leaving."

"What!" I said, already starting to cry.

" I know, I'm so sorry, I tried to convince mom that we shouldn't go, but she wouldn't budge." I was crying freely now.

"Edward, don't be sorry, its not your fault" I took a deep breath, "I mean its not like we have to break up, we can have a long distance relationship, you know, video calls and stuff." It would be harder, but I couldn't lose Edward entirely.

"Bella, I can't do that to you" he said, looking pained.

"WHAT, but…but I love you" I sobbed. He pulled me into a tight hug,

"I love you too, so much, and that's why I can't have a long distance relationship with you, its not fair on you, you could do so much better than that." I couldn't how self-sacrificing Edward was being. I kissed him lightly,

"Edward, I'd much rather be in a compromised relationship with you than without you at all, so there's no need to be so self sacrificing."

"Bella, really, I couldn't do that, you deserve so much better, I'd never forgive myself." Why was he being so insistent? And then I figured it out, he didn't want me, while it was convenient and comfortable he was happy, but the minute we had to start working at our relationship he quit. I loved him, and probably always would, but he didn't love me, he'd rather date some dumb blond in LA. I pushed him away,

"Its okay Edward, you don't have to lie"

"Lie, what am I lying about?"

"Its okay that you don't love me anymore, really, I'll always care about you, but I understand that you don't want to put the effort in. I know long distance relationships are hard so I don't hate you for not bothering to even give it a go." My words might have been nice, but my voice was unintentionally harsh.

"What? Bella, I love you, I'm telling the truth!" Now I was definitely mad, I pushed Edward away and stood up, screaming at him,

"Stop lying, stop it, stop it" I yelled storming off, leaving him stunned, I was about to disappear back into the forest, thought for a second, turned around and spoke again, calmly and coolly, "by the way, don't be home to late, Esme's worried about you."

I stepped into the forest, half ran back to my car, hopped in and started to drive, tears still pouring down my face. I drove for a while and it started to rain. A fresh flood of tears overtook me, and I pulled over on the side of the road. I took my keys out of the ignition and cried, knowing I was in no condition to drive. I sat there crying, thinking about Edward, our first serious fight, and our last one. I would never see his face again and to make everything so much worse he didn't love me.

OMG, just writing that chapter broke my heart, I hope you don't hate me now.(please don't hate me) Next chapter up soon! Please review!
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