Warnings: Orosaso, Deisaso, short, fluff, angst, suicidal thoughts, a bit of OoCness
Disclaimer:
Deidara, Sasori, Tobi, Shizune, Orochimaru belogn to Masashi Kishimoto
Plot/dead girl belogn to me Aka petite-neko/vatelle
'In order to form new bonds, the old ones must be broken.'
My science teacher.
Chapter Five - Feeling
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I gulped, but sat up.
"My name is Sasori and I am twenty-eight years old. My partner was convicted for a crime and is currently in jail. Because of the… punishment (I had struggled to say that word) I feel as if we are drifting apart. That is why I am here," I said bluntly. I was very careful not to mention his name, or that I was in a relationship with a man.
"Very good everybody! Now let's start with deciding why you fear things, etc. and how to solve them. How about you first Sasori?" Shizune said optimistically.
I looked up, a bit shocked.
"Don't worry dear, we wont pry if you don't want to."
I just shrugged.
"So Sasori? What crime was your beloved convicted of and do you think they are guilty?"
I sighed, "…" I didn't know how to respond properly, "Shizune-san? May I call them a nickname? I… I don't want to say their same." I really didn't. I knew that even though Orochimaru and I were falling apart, (I have now accepted that fact) I just couldn't bear to state his name in front of everybody. I still had affection for him.
"Of course dear, whatever makes you comfortable, what would you like to call them?"
I tiled my head at this, "Hebi…"
She just nodded.
I took a breath and started, "Well, Hebi was convicted for murder," I heard a small gasp from a few people, though Deidara did not, and that had pleased me a little. I really didn't know why, "And they were put in jail for it. But… I don't think that Hebi is guilty, because I was there… Hebi was just protecting me…" I felt a wave of sorrow and guilt, 'If only I could have protected myself…' I thought.
"By there, you mean you witnessed the murder Sasori?" Shizune asked as she jotted things down.
I just nodded. I felt Deidara gazing intently at me. Nothing felt right.
"Okay. That's enough for today. Who wants to go next?"
We had only gone through three more people, none of which were Deidara or Tobi, before the session was over. I glanced at my watch as I left the room but I was stopped by a voice.
"Hey Sasori un! Wait up!"
I turned around to see the blond running towards me, but I remained silent.
"Come here, let's go down using the stairs," He said which perked my interest, confusing me. Wouldn't the normal person use the elevator? It's only common sense.
"Why don't we use the elevator? It's quicker." I said, glaring slightly at the blond. I really didn't understand his logic, must be from his light hair.
A grin appeared on his face, "That's what you think, but I know that three meeting end at this time, many people get off and start work. The stairs are more efficient un." He seemed to be proud of his knowledge. This blond just earned a point or two.
"Good. Thank you since I hate waiting." I said bluntly. This male was odd, but it didn't bother me for some reason. I would be normally pushing a brat like him out of the way, and going where I wanted to. He seemed to trigger a spark of conversation within me, though it was probably because I didn't talk to people anymore. "So how long have you been in that group?" I asked him.
"Oh… about six months un. So, what made you come here?" He said, an unusual grin on his face. It made me want to smile at him. His aura that he radiated made me feel at ease. I just didn't know how to react, though my body did it for me.
I laughed. It felt so foreign to me "Looks like you hit the spot brat." I said, grinning back at Deidara, though it quickly faded, "A friend of mine's been pestering me for months and she then pleaded, so, I decided to come." For the first time in a year I am having a decent conversation with a person. It's making me feel again, and you could go as far to say there's a spark of happiness.
Suddenly my heart dropped and I ceased movement. 'It's the anniversary and I'm happy?! I should be sitting alone, mourning but I'm happy?!'
"Sasori un?" I heard the blond brat say. It was all his fault! If only that brat didn't show up!
"Shut up brat!" I snapped, glaring hatefully at him. There was fear in his eyes but I didn't care. I wanted to get away from him. I needed to. He was like a disease -a disease of happiness. I stormed down the stairs and out to my car. I slammed the door, and rain began to pour.
I smashed my head against the steering wheel, a loud 'honk' echoed from my car. I didn't care anymore and I let the tears escape my eyes.
I know, I'm such a procrastinator XD
AND IM SORRY FOR THE ANGST! SERIOUSLY
but it HAD to be there x.x or else it wouldn't seem realistic
AND IM STILL OPEN FOR IDEAS! like pairings :P
once i finish typing up a few thjings I'll work in this again I PROMISE...
hopefully its updated soon XD