Okay here is the new chapter for you all. I know that it's short, but life has been hectic right now and its better than nothing right? lol. I wanted to comment on this weeks epi of OTH. It was amazing! Although it was seriously lacking Naley scenes. Come on Mark! Oh but the Brucas scene at the end totally made my night! Okay I am done rambaling hahahaa. Read and Enjoy

Disclaimer: I don't own One Tree Hill

Chapter 21

"Do you want to go grab some lunch?" Nathan asked me as we walked out of the library

"Nah, I'm not really hungry." I said distractedly.

"You wanna go out tonight?" Nathan tried again.

"Umm, if you don't mind I think that I am just gonna stay in tonight." I said while giving him a small smile.

"Oh, okay. Well, if you want I can grab some pizza and a couple of movies and --"

"Alone. I want to stay in alone." I interrupted him.

"Are you okay?" He asked as he sat down on a bench nearby and motioned for me to join him.

"Yeah."

Lie.

"I'm just not feeling good."

Lie.

"I wouldn't want you to catch anything." I added.

Lie. Lie. Lie.

"Oh well, I guess I'll let you go then." Nathan said hesitantly. He leaned over to give me a kiss and I quickly covered my mouth with my hand and he gave me a confused look.

"I don't want you getting sick." I added quickly. "I better get going; I think I am just going to go to bed." I said while shrugging and standing up.

If there is one thing I am good at, it's running.

And well right now, let's just say I am doing what I do best.

"And then he just started on me about my game and how I could have done so much better." Nathan stated irritably. We were walking back towards my apartment after our English Lit class and he was telling me about how his father called him last night. Actually this was the first time Nathan ever mentioned him talking to his dad. Up until now I was under the impression that they weren't on speaking terms or something.

"I'm sorry." I said half heartedly.

"Yeah, well I'm used to it." Nathan said anger evident in his voice. "By the way, are you feeling better?" Nathan added.

"Yeah, I just slept in last night." I said trying not to look him in the eye. Truth was I wasn't sick, I just stayed in last night watching A Walk to Remember. I know, I'm an idiot. I gave up a hot date with my boyfriend for a depressing movie that I watched by myself.

"Why doesn't he pressure Lucas as much as he pressures you?" I asked trying to change the subject. Plus I was a little curious, Nathan was always the one complaining about Dan, Lucas never really mentioned him.

"I don't know, he sees himself in me or something." Nathan mumbled with a disgusted voice.

"Look you ever think that if you talk to him about backing off he will?" I soon realized that was a bad thing to say when I saw Nathan's face tense up.

"Haley, my father is Dan Scott, first grade bastard. He won't back off; in fact me suggesting it will just make him even more pissed." Nathan answered frustrated.

"Maybe he is just pushing you for your own good." I said while shrugging.

"Why are you defending him?" Nathan stopped walking and faced me with an angry look on his face.

"I'm not defending him, I'm just saying --"

"Well, don't." Nathan interrupted me. "You don't know the first thing about Dan Scott." Nathan hissed at me.

"Nathan," I stated a little shocked at his outburst. Nathan had never been so mean. "I am just saying that maybe --"

"Why don't you go figure out your problems with your own dad, I'm sure you have plenty of them." Nathan stated while giving me a look.

"Don't, you have no right to say that and you came to me telling me about how your dad was giving you a hard time! Excuse me if I wanted to help out my boyfriend!" I yelled. Nathan's previous statement really hit me.

"Yeah, well maybe me coming to you was a mistake!" He yelled back.

"What is your problem?" I asked angrily. When he didn't answer I scoffed at him and started to walk towards my apartment leaving him behind.

"Call me when you stop being such an ass!" I yelled over my shoulder.

I was pissed.

And there was only one thing that would help me. Correction, make that two things.

My three favorite girls and a tub of Ben and Jerry's.

"ARGHHH!!" I screamed once I entered my apartment. Nathan and I had never gotten into a fight this big before.

"What's wrong girlie?" Rachel asked from the couch in the living room as I stalked my way into the kitchen where Brooke and Peyton were seated at the island.

"Nathan is an ass, that's what's wrong!" I said slightly yelling.

"What happened?" Peyton asked while kinking up an eyebrow.

"Naley is fighting Goldilocks, catch up." Brooke stated off-handedly.

What the fuck is a Naley?

Never mind.

"He is so ughhh! One minute he is complaining about his dad and the minute I decide to put my two sense in he snaps!"

"Maybe it's a touchy subject for him." Rachel said while shrugging.

"Yeah, well that doesn't mean that he has to go ballistic on me! I hate him! I knew I shouldn't have started something with him!!" I said while stabbing my spoon onto my ice cream and stuffing it in my mouth.

"First of all don't do that, don't do what you always do when things start to get rough. Don't run away from him because you got into one fight, it's what coupes do Hales, they fight and they make up." Peyton said wisely.

"Yeah Hales and you out of everyone should understand where he is coming from, because in high school whenever any of us would try to give you advice on your dad you would snap." Rachel said while giving me a look. And I started to whine knowing she was right.

"And you definitely don't hate Nathan." Brooke added.

"Well enlighten me." I said sarcastically.

"You my friend are in love with him." Brooke stated simply.

She is absolutely nuts! I am not in love with Nathan…right?

"You crazy Brooke, I don't love Nathan, and if today has taught me anything I definitely don't like Nathan right now." I said adamantly.

"You may not like him very much right now because you guys are fighting, but that doesn't change the fact that you love him. You have never given so much of yourself to another person that's including Chris and you know I'm right tutor-girl." Brooke said while smiling softly.

"Stop pulling away Hales, we've seen you these past few days with Nathan and you're not as sickening as you usually are, you need to stop running." Rachel said. I wiped at my eyes unshed tears threatening to spill, I have been pulling away from Nathan because I was scared. After my talk with Peyton a couple of days ago I haven't been myself around him, I closed myself off, maybe I pushed him away, they were right. They were always right.

"You deserve to have love and be loved." Peyton said while walking over to where I was standing, she wrapped one of her arms around my shoulders and gave me a tight squeeze. "Now you just need to believe that you deserve it." I looked at her and nodded.

Like I said, they were right.

They were always right.

I need to stop running and face the facts.

I love Nathan.

R&R

--Storyofmylifee