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Chapter 22
Darkness. That's all I saw as I looked out of the window of my bedroom. Darkness consumed the once sunny filled sky and a storm was looming. But I've always loved the rain. Even as a kid, whenever it was raining I would run outside and dance in the front yard while all the other kids ran for cover. I have had a lot of time to think today. After my talk with the girls they all left. Brooke and Rachel were meeting Lucas and Mouth and Peyton had an art class. So the rest of the afternoon has basically just been me and my thoughts. And I have come to the conclusion that I am a coward.
Damn Chris Keller.
I wasn't always like this! I used to have no problem giving my heart away. That was until I broke up with that jackass. He hurt me, in more ways than one and I just have a hard time trusting others now. But am I crazy or something? I mean I must be because Nathan hasn't done any of the crappy things that Chris used to do. Nathan is nothing like Chris. So why am I so afraid? Well that is the second conclusion I have made today.
It's because I love Nathan. And that scares the crap out of me. And I am afraid to admit that out loud because if life finds out then maybe it'll try to ruin it for me. And losing Nathan is something that I never want to think about.
But then I remembered something I once told Nathan during a game of truth that if there was one thing I would change about me it's that I wouldn't be so afraid. That I would take more chances. And you want to hear my final conclusion of this really long day?
Nathan is my chance. My chance at love. My chance at life. My chance at living.
I looked out the window again and I noticed little rain drops making their way down the glass. It was almost eight at night and the sun was setting. At that moment I wondered where Nathan was. What was he doing? Was he thinking about me? I needed to see him. He needs to know how I feel. That I'm sorry about pushing him away. That I just want to start over.
I got up from the nook in the corner in my room and walked to my closet and grabbed a grey Duke sweatshirt pulling it over my plain white t-shirt. I walked towards the door of my apartment while putting on a pair of converse and pulling the hood of my sweatshirt over my head.
I walked out of my apartment building and started running. But the difference was that his time I was running towards my chance.
"What's on your mind pretty girl?" Lucas asked Brooke as they sat in his mom's café sipping at their cups of coffee.
"I'm just worried about Haley." Brooke answered distractedly.
"Yeah, I think something happened between her and Nathan. When I went to our room today Nate was all moody." Lucas said while trying to think back about earlier in the day.
"They got into a fight. A big fight." Brooke said while looking at the small drops of rain that was hitting the window of the café. It was barely raining, just a small drizzle but she knew something bigger was coming.
"They'll be fine, its Nathan and Haley." Lucas answered sounding convinced.
"Yeah, but Broody you didn't see Haley today, she was a mess. I just…I want her to just be happy."
"And you think Nathan makes her happy." Lucas said finishing her thought.
"Yeah." Brooke replied softly. "I do." She answered while looking up at Lucas.
"I know what you mean." Lucas said while smiling. "Never in my life have I ever seen Nathan so in love with a girl. Actually never in my life have I ever seen Nathan in love period."
"You think he loves her?" Brooke asked while scrunching her eyebrows together.
"Oh yeah." Lucas said with a faint smile on his face. "Big time."
"She loves him too you know; now all she has to do is admit it to herself." Brooke said while playing with the ring that was situated on her index finger.
"I don't think you need to worry about that." Lucas said while chuckling. Brooke looked at him confused and he nodded toward the window of the café. Brooke looked up in time to see a wet Haley running on the sidewalk past the café.
"It's about damn time." Brooke whispered to herself while smiling softly.
I was across the street from the basketball court that Nathan had shown me almost a week ago. I looked through the rain droplets that were clouding my vision and I could make out the figure of a person making shot after shot, dunk after dunk.
Nathan.
I walked across the street and made my way to the court. At this point I probably looked like a mess. The rain had made my once straightened hair curly and on the way over here I stepped into like five puddles getting my jeans muddy in the process. But I didn't care. I needed to see him.
"I thought I would find you here." I said so softly I almost thought that Nathan didn't hear me that was until he turned around and noticed my presence.
"Yeah, I'm just blowing off some steam." He answered while grabbing the basketball from the ground and gripping it in his hands. "What are you doing here Haley?" He questioned while walking closer to me.
You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
before I see you again
What can I say to convince you to change your mind?
"Look, I know that I have been pushing you away lately and for that I am so sorry, I lied a few days ago I wasn't sick I just needed some space." I said while looking at him in the eyes.
"Why? I thought we were doing so great and then…"
"We were! We are. I just I got scared and I pulled away." I said helplessly.
"You were scared of me? Come on Hales; tell me what's going on because I really want to know here." Nathan said while shaking his head.
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
"No! I wasn't afraid of you, I was afraid of how you make me feel." I said while walking closer to him. "You make me feel alive Nathan; do you get how much that scares me?"
"Why!? Why does that scare you?" Nathan asked frustrated.
"Because I don't want to lose you dammit!" I screamed. I was thankful for the rain because it mixed in with my tears and Nathan couldn't tell that tears were surfacing right now. In the past five minutes the rain has really picked up and went from a drizzle to a downpour.
"Haley," Nathan started walking closer to me and placed his hands on my shoulders while looking at me in the eyes. "You will never lose me. Always and Forever. Remember that." I faintly nodded while looking down at the pavement.
Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try
"Look, maybe we should talk some other time, the rain is really starting to come down." Nathan moved away from me and walked towards the bench nearby that held one of his now soaking wet gym bags.
"Come on I'll walk you home." Nathan started walking away from the court motioning for me to follow him.
"I LOVE YOU!" I screamed out into the darkness over the rain and thunder that consumed the night sky. I saw Nathan turn around and look at me while dropping his gym bag down on the ground. I walked toward him and looked at him in the eye and my hand made its way to his cheek. "I love you." I said more softly this time. I leaned my forehead against his and closed my eyes the rain coming down all around us. "And I am tired of fighting it, I don't want to fight it. I love you Nathan Scott. I'm in love with you." I said while smiling and opening my eyes to look at him.
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
"You mean that?" He asked me, his voice full of hope.
"Every word ." I said while nodding.
"I love you too." He said while smiling. "And I am so sorry about today, I should have never snapped at you, you were just -- " I cut him off with a kiss and I felt him smirk as I slipped my tongue into his mouth.
"It doesn't matter." I said while shaking my head. "As long as you forgive me, I forgive you." I said with a small smile.
Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together baby
Free together baby
"Hmmm, that's a pretty tough choice." Nathan said teasingly. "I mean you did give up a date with me on purpose." He said while pretending to think about it.
"Well I will forever regret that stupid mistake, but if you forgive me I can guarantee I'll make it up to you." I said with a kinked eyebrow pulling myself closer to his body and planting a kiss on
the side of his neck and I couldn't help the smile that formed on my face when I heard him moan.
"You are soo forgiven Haley James." Nathan mumbled just before our lips met. "That's what I thought." I mumbled out in between kisses. I felt Nathan lift me from the ground and spin me in a circle as I squealed in surprise.
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
He put me down and I looked at him his shirt soaking wet sticking to his body. I love the rain.
"Anyone ever told you that you look sexy wet James." Nathan said with a smirk planted firmly in place.
"Just this one guy that I love." I said while laughing as Nathan pulled me in for another kiss.
R&R
--Storyofmylifee