Hey guys I'm back! School is finally over for me! Thank god, I am offically a junior and before the hectic upcoming school year I am looking foward to a relaxing summer. Thanks for the reviews last chapter, I think that everyone is in agreement that Nathan is an idiot. lol. Thanks for all the support, you guys really keep me going. And thanks to those of you who left me extra long reviews! I LOVE long reviews hint hint. hahaha. I have a feeling that you are all going to hate me by the end of this chapter. Don't kill me! lol.

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Chapter 28

"Brooke I'm fine." I said as I got up from the couch leaving the tissues and cookie dough behind.

"Hales…"

"Brooke, seriously go to sleep I know you have a class early tomorrow and I just need to be alone for a little. Peyton and Rachel went to bed ages ago. I love you for being here for me but I'm fine, I promise." I said with a half smile hoping to mask my unshed tears.

"Okay." Brooke nodded and stood up and walked over to where I was standing and repeated the same thing Rachel and Peyton said to me before they left to go to bed. "I'll be in my room if you need me." I nodded my head and wrapped my arms around her hoping the pain that I felt would disappear.

"You're going to be okay H.James." I pulled away and gave her a squeeze on her arm and walked into my room and crashed onto my bed digging my face into the pillows willing the tears not to fall. All I could see was Nathan's hurt face in his dorm room. Picturing his face made me hate myself for not being honest with him sooner.

It took me all of ten minutes to pull myself off of the floor of his room and walk back to my apartment. Once I got inside and I saw Peyton and Rachel sitting on the couch I couldn't hold it in anymore.

I cried like someone had just stole Mr. Waffles.

I cried because I hurt the person I love most in the world and I couldn't do anything to take away that pain. I cried because of the way Nathan reacted. But most of all I cried because of the look on Nathan's face.

He looked like he didn't trust me anymore. And it killed me.

On the way to the apartment I almost took a detour to the basketball court he had showed me about two months ago. Undoubtedly he would be there but I decided it would be best if I gave him some time to cool off and I ended up just going back to the apartment where Rachel and Peyton comforted me with soothing words and our favorite men Ben and Jerry.

A couple hours later Brooke and Lucas came home from their date and when Brooke saw us on the couch she immediately rushed over and ordered Lucas to go home for the night. I felt bad for ruining their date and protested to Lucas leaving but they instantly silenced my voice, Lucas making up some excuse about how he forgot he promised his mom he would help at the café tonight.

Liar.

But I loved him for it, I really needed my girls.

All of them.

I turned my head to looked on my table that was near my bed. I saw my phone laying there and I picked it up and held it in my hands staring at the front screen. No missed calls.

I let my head fall back against my pillow my cell still clutched in my hand and let out a frustrated sigh.

He needs time.

I kept saying that to myself but it didn't make the awful feeling in the pit of my stomach go away.

I sat up again and tucked my legs underneath me while taking my phone and flipping it open. I went into my contacts and scrolled thorough the "C" section and when I got to the contact I wanted I hit send and put the phone up to my ear praying that the person on the other line would pick up.

"Hello." I heard a groggy voice on the other line.

"Hey Chase." I said softly hoping he wouldn't hear the hitch in my voice.

"Hales," He said with a yawn. "It's...one in the morning." He said with a slight pause and a chuckle at the end. "Nice timing baby James."

"Sorry." I said slightly embarrassed that I forgot about the time.

"It's cool, so what's up?"

I let my head fall against my pillows once more and let out a sigh "Where do I start?" I said myself while mumbling slightly.

"The beginning would be helpful." Chase said concern evident in his voice. "Are you okay?"

"No, not really." I said bringing my hand up to my face wiping the tears away. I hated myself for acting like a cry baby. But could you really blame me? At this point I had no idea where Nathan and I stood.

Or if there even was a Nathan and me.

"I told Nathan that we used to date, and it didn't go so well."

"Are you kidding?" Chase questioned.

"Nope, in fact he asked if there was still something going on between the two of us."

"Gross." Chase commented.

"Thanks Chase, I love you too." I said sarcastically.

"You know what I mean."

"Yeah I know." I said with a sigh.

"I don't know what to do Chase. I love Nathan and the look in his eyes, god it's like I said we were going around behind his back or something." I said with confused tone of voice. I really didn't see what I did wrong. I mean yeah, maybe I should have told him sooner. But there had to be something else.

"Love makes you crazy James. He'll come around Hales. And if not I'm gonna kick his ass." I laughed slightly at Chase's words knowing that he wasn't joking.

"Thanks Adams, anyway I'm going to let you to get back to sleep. I just wanted to give you a heads up incase Nathan does anything stupid." I said my eyes drooping and sleep taking over my body.

"Please," He scoffed. "I could so take him."

I let out an unattractive snort and replied, "Sure you could Chase."

"Excuse me, I'll have you know that I am stronger than you think." I laughed at his defensive demeanor and closed my eyes.

"Bye Chase." I said abruptly wanting to hang up before he got into a tangent about how he could take on Nathan.

"Bye Hales. You're going to be okay." I heard a click of the phone and snapped my phone shut while staring up at the ceiling.

'You're going to be okay' that was the fifth time I've heard that all night.

But the thing is, without Nathan I would never be okay.

I opened my eyes stretching slightly in bed and looked over to the clock on the table across my bed. Three am. I let out a groan and stared out the window wondering where Nathan was.

I got up from my bed and walked into the kitchen to get a glass of water my arms shivering due to the white wife beater I was wearing in our air conditioned apartment.

I took a seat on the island with my glass of water and let my head fall against the cool marble thinking about hour messed up this day has been.

My head snapped up when I heard a soft consistent knocking at the front door. My eyebrows scrunched together in confusion. Who could possibly be knocking at our door at three in the morning? I walked over to the door and turned the knob not bothering to check my appearance in the mirror.

I opened the door and the sight of the person on the other side made me take a sharp intake of breath.

"Nathan."

"Hey." He said while looking down. I took in his appearance and frowned at the tiredness that took over his eyes. "Can we go for a walk?"

I am evil. muhahahaaha. Okay so in all honestly I was going to write more, I swear! But I am wiped out and it is like two in the morning and I really need some sleep lol. I wrote something in the last chapter in the conversation with Lucas and Nathan that I am surprised nobody caught. Or maybe you did and just didn't mention it in the review! hahaha. But no worries, if you didn't catch it it will be mentioned in the next chapter where everything will be explained. Promise!

R&R

--Storyofmylifee