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Chapter 29

"Nathan."

"Hey." He said while looking down. I took in his appearance and frowned at the tiredness that took over his eyes. "Can we go for a walk?"

"Yeah." I said softly while nodding. I quickly looked around me and found my black converse by the door where we were standing, I hastily slid them on and followed Nathan out into the hall closing the door behind me.

Awkward silence. That's all that filled the air between Nathan and I as he led the way to the abandoned basketball court he loved so much. I hated awkward silences, the reason being that when its quiet people are forced to think and they get scared so they cover it up by making something out of nothing.

And that is exactly what I was doing right now. What did Nathan's silence mean? Was he practicing in his head how he was going to break up with me? Oh god he was wasn't he? Right now he is wondering how he is going to tell me how he never wants to see me again.

Okay I need to take a breather.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Inhale.

Exhale.

I looked over at Nathan as we were walking and noticed that he was still looking down at the ground. Not once since we left the apartment has he even looked in my direction. In a way I was relieved, a part of me was scared of what I would see in his eyes.

"Nathan," I began my voice just above a whisper.

"Hales," His deep voice interrupted mine and for the first time since we left the apartment he looked up at me. "Can we just wait until we get to the basketball court before we talk?" I nodded my eyes searching his.

Was that regret I saw flash in his cobalt blue eyes?

A few minutes later I looked up again and saw that we were at the basketball court and shortly after I felt Nathan's hand on the small of my back leading me to the middle of the court where he took a seat on the concrete. I followed his actions and as a gust of wind blew by I shivered involuntarily bringing my hands to my bear arms hoping to get some warmth into me.

I saw Nathan who was sitting across from me move to take off his zip up sweatshirt he was wearing. I reached my hand out and took it from him slipping it on me and mumbled a quick thanks.

I waited a few minutes for Nathan to say something but when he didn't make any move to talk I took his hand in mine and brought his face to my own our foreheads touching and my eyes closing at the close contact we were in. "I'm gonna need you to say something Nathan, you're scaring me over here." I said while opening my eyes to find Nathan's still closed ones a mere few inches from mine.

"Promise me something." Nathan's eyes were finally open and his hand still held mine.

"Anything." I answered with a nod of my head.

"Promise me you'll hear me out before you say anything." I looked at him for a few minutes before obliging. Nathan's hand left my hand and he moved closer to me while I moved to sit inside the open space in between his legs while still facing him.

"First off I want to say that I'm sorry about the way I reacted, I have had some time to think about it and I should have heard you out before jumping to conclusions."

"No, I'm sorry. I should have told you sooner and --" Nathan silenced me by putting one of his fingers over my mouth.

"It hasn't even been thirty seconds yet James and your already breaking your promise." He said with a slight smile.

"Sorry." I answered sheepishly.

"So anyway I think I should explain to you why I acted the way I did." I nodded for him to continue on and a few minutes later Nathan took a deep breath and started speaking again.

"I told you about my past in high school, how I was more of a love them and leave them type. But I did have one serious girlfriend in high school. It was junior year and I had just started dating this girl that just transferred. Her name was Lindsey and I immediately became interested, she turned me down repeatedly and that intrigued me. I was so used to girls just falling at my feet." I rolled my eyes at that knowing that Nathan was still pretty much used to that.

"So anyway after months of chasing after her she finally agreed to go on a date with me and I was the happiest I had ever been. She was unlike any girl I had ever known and I liked it. So after a couple of dates I asked her to be my girlfriend and when she said yes I felt on top of the 

world, we had only known each other for about a month at that point but I fell in love." Nathan paused and I tried to ignore the pain in my chest, the thought of Nathan loving another girl tore me apart. But I couldn't really say anything because for years I thought I was in love with Chris.

But what I thought I had for Chris was absolutely nothing compared to what I feel for Nathan.

"Anyway," Nathan continued. "It was going great you know, she was my first serious girlfriend and I honestly thought that we would be together forever." Nathan stopped and closed his eyes. "And then the lying started. We were together for almost a year at that point and sometimes I would come by her house to pick her up for a date and she always had some other excuse to not go. Or when we were together she always seemed distracted. Turns out that for about the whole time we were dating she was lying to me and she was sneaking around with one of my friends from my basketball team."

I grabbed Nathan's hand and gave him a squeeze letting him know that I knew what it was like. Do the names Chris and Theresa ring a bell?

"So ever since then I've had a hard time trusting the people that I let into my life, so when you told me about Chase, I snapped. I love you Haley, more than I have ever loved anyone in my life and the fact that you kept something like that from me brought back all my old insecurities."

"I'm so sorry Nathan, I should have told you sooner." I said while leaning over and giving him a light kiss on his cheek. "You know I love you right?" I asked him forcing him to look me in the eyes.

"Yeah, I love you too Hales." I nodded happy that we got that out of the way and that we could move on. "Hales, there is something I have to tell you." I looked over to Nathan and gave him a questioning look. "If I don't tell you this I will be a total hypocrite. Um tonight when I left the dorm I was really angry so I came here and I talked to Lucas who just angered me even more so I went to that bar downtown to get some drinks and I ran into Stacie."

And just like that the smile that was once on my face fell into a frown.

"She said something about her having some vodka back at her place and stupidly I followed her there." Nathan looked back down at the ground ashamed.

"Unbelievable." I mumbled quietly underneath my breath.

"Hales, nothing happened I swear."

"But you went with her." I asked edgily. "You get mad at me because I didn't tell you that used to go out with Chase so you go out with your ex?"

"Haley." Nathan started but I quickly cut him off.

"No, I cannot believe you would do this!" I told him.

"Haley, I thought that she was just trying to be my friend but when she tried to kiss me I left." I took a deep breath not being able to handle the situation presented to me.

By now I had moved away from him and we were both standing up and I was pacing the basketball court back and forth. I felt Nathan's hand on my elbow stopping my movements. I looked up at him sadly tears brimming in my eyes. "It's obvious that we don't trust each other."

"Baby I trust you." Nathan answered back emotionally.

"No you don't." I shook my head back and forth. "If you did you would have never jumped to conclusions about me and Chase. And even if you do trust me like you say, right now I don't trust you." I said while closing my eyes willing the tears not to fall.

"Haley."

"No Nathan, the one thing that I learned about my relationship with Chris is that I need to trust the person I am with completely and the fact that you went with Stacie when you know that she is after you, I just, I don't know what to think anymore. I care about you too much to lose you forever." I said emotionally. At this point the tears we flowing freely down my face and I felt Nathan's thumb come in contact with my face trying to dry my tears.

"I think we should take a break." As I said those words I literally felt my heart rip out of my chest. I didn't want to do it, but a part of me knew I had to.

"Haley no we don't need a break." Nathan took me by the shoulders and crashed his lips onto mine. It was hard not to give into the kiss but I pulled away reluctantly. "Nathan, don't make this harder than it already is."

"Don't I get a say in this?" Nathan asked me angrily.

"No, don't you even try that because if you had never gone with Stacie I wouldn't have to be doing this."

"Nathan please." I begged seeing as how he was still going to argue.

"I'm going to get you to trust me again Hales." I nodded and began to walk away from the basketball court and back to my apartment. I had to leave I felt like I couldn't breathe.

"I'm the guy for you Haley James, and I'm not going anywhere."

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