Gotta get the creative juices flowing!
This is Edwards POV to prevent confusion :P
And. I don't want you guys thinking I'm snobs, If I'm not replying to the reviews, I don't really know how. J I will gladly reply if someone tells me. I'm still getting used to this. But its coming easier now. Anyway this will mainly involve Edward and his thoughts. He's fighting with himself right now.. And this will be a moderate chapter I don't know if it will be very long yet.
Chapter 4.
Running away.
I want to die, I hate myself. I thought. I was sitting in the back of Rosalie's BMW. I was in my thoughts, playing back this afternoon over and over in my head, while Emmett and Rosalie whispered back and fourth.
Edward, why? I feel so horrible. She's never ever in this universe going to forgive me! And there's no easy way to apologize either. I could see the conversation now.
"So, Bella I'm sorry for damning your soul and taking your motility." I would say
"oh Edward, its cool I've always dreamed of being a monster." pffft yeah right. She'll probably kill me next time she see's me.
"Edward snap out of it! I can't stand doom and gloom back there!" Emmett shouted yanking out my earphone.
"Do you not understand what has happened?" I fired back.
"Yeah but you seriously need to chill, everything's going to be okay, Alice, Carlisle and esme are taking care of things." he said as a matter o' factly kind of tone.
"it doesn't matter what they do to fix things! Its never going to change what I did to her! She didn't ask for this curse! But I brought it upon her anyway! I'm nothing but a monster!" I shouted shaking from hysterics.
"Edward, please calm down, she'll come around eventually." Rosalie wasn't to convincing.
"whatever just leave me alone." I said calmer putting my earphone back in.
there is no way, she will forgive me, I ruined any type of friendship that could have been there. I wish more then anything that I could fix this, I keep wishing I could have been stronger, that I would have just drove her to the hospital, but that monster came out and took me over completely. It was like normal Edward was watching in the distance while savage Edward went in for the kill.
Stop! I was thinking while I was drinking the fragrant smelling blood.
No, keep drinking! The monster would shout louder then my thoughts.
I kept trying to be louder; but anytime I tried to do anything, the monster within would just be stronger. If it hadn't been for Emmett, Bella would probably be completely dead.
And it would be all my fault. I thought glumly.
I can't stand myself; everyday of the rest of forever will be my personal hell, and there was no way I could escape it.
A few hours later.
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I figured we were getting close to where we'd be staying for a few weeks; we wouldn't be meeting up with the rest of the family until they sent word that Bella had calmed down somewhat. I was still lost in thought until Emmett interrupted them.
"Edward--Hello! Earth to Edward!" he said smacking my arm.
"stop it, I'm coming." I said apathetically.
"ugh, I really hate him right now." Rosalie said as if I wasn't here.
who doesn't hate me right now? I thought.
Okay this chapter turned out kind of short; but as promised its posted!