122 reviews…I can deal.
I hope nobodies losing interest.
But anyways. School starts in about one day lol.
I'm dreading it..and excited about it.
But anyway. Lets go for 135 reviews..--which is..13 reviews; okay maybe to much..
10 reviews. Making it low. Just 10..lol.
I'm doing a time skip sort of.
Chapter 13
Confused.
I laid on my white leather couch in my room listening to Edwards raging thoughts all night, not to mention having to deal with my own.
Bella! What have you done! Its not like I wanted it, or did I? I mean, I was just jealous? But of what Bella, what are you going to say to him? my mind was cluttered, I was really wishing I could mentally block peoples thoughts. I decided I would go take a shower and warm myself up.
The warm water trickling down my spine definitely helped. I sat down, in the middle of the bathtub, letting the water warm me, sitting there for at least thirty minutes when I decided to get out. I dried myself off, touching my hands to my face, I felt almost warm.
I savored the moment, as I caressed my face in front of the mirror. I hadn't felt this warm in a long time. It felt amazing. I looked at myself long and hard in the bathroom mirror. I ran my finger over the shiny crescent scar on my neck. It was the only place that was cold. I ran my hand to my chest, and placed my hand where my unbeating heart resided.
I felt nothing. I broken sob rippled through my chest. I never would have thought I would never hear the significant sound of my own heartbeat. I stopped thinking about that, and dried my hair, scrunching it, to make it wavy. I put a red long sleeved t-shirt, and kaki pants on, and decided I was decent.
I walked down the long hallway, to go downstairs, I hadn't seen anybody sense last night, but I figure, Alice already knew. I went to the lounge room to see, Jasper, and Alice watching TV.
"Hey Bella, would you like to join us, we were just talking about you." Alice smiled slyly
"I know what you are going to say, and I will answer you right now--" Ugh of course. Interrupted.
"Bella, with the emotion I'm getting off of you, I'm sure it was more then what your letting on, believe me I know." Jasper winked.
Ugh, no good, emotion reading vampire! I thought.
"Its not what you think. Honestly." I said with a blank face, trying to look serious so they would believe me.
"Whatever you say Bella.." Alice trailed off.
I really wasn't sure what I wanted, as I stood there at the foot of the stairs. Staring at them blankly.
"Woohoo, wake up Bella are you okay?" Alice asked waving her arms in the air.
"Huh- oh nothing, I was just thinking." I smiled reassuringly.
I started towards the stairs when I heard jasper think super loud, where it was honestly hard to miss.
I know your confused Bella, but I'm sure everything will make sense to you soon enough. he thought.
With that, I smiled, and turned to go back up to my room. I took the stairs slow, as I would if I were human, minus the tripping. I came to the door, when I saw Edward pacing the halls, I didn't bother tuning in because I could tell by his dumbfounded expression when he saw me what it was about.
"Uh- Bella, I was wanting to talk to you." Edward baffled.
"Well, come in, and lets talk." I smiled, looking at him, with his tousled hair, and his navy blue t-shirt, and faded blue jeans.
We went in, and I sat on the couch watching him pace the floor. As we both started to say something.
"No you go first." we said in unison.
"Really, Edward, you go first you wanted to talk." I relaxed.
"where does last night leave us Bella?" he was upfront and forward about it, which I was not expecting. I sat there flabbergasted.
"Bella?" He said, more a question then just saying my name, he walked of to the couch and sat down beside me.
"Sorry, lost my train of thought, its happened a lot today." I smiled
"Thanks fine, but I need to know, why did you do that last night?" his eyes showed stress, or pain maybe?
"The truth is Edward, all I was doing was showing you what a real kiss was like, I didn't want Tanya give all girls a bad name." I said slyly.
"So it meant nothing?" he said in astonishment.
"The truth is Edward, I don't know how I feel." I honestly didn't know.
I really didn't know, I mean, I'm not bitter or anything about the him taking my life anymore, but to fall in love with him? Being friends was one thing, but falling in love? I don't know if I can do that. I thought.
"I just wanted to know, its not a life or death question." he smiled.
"I'm sorry Edward, but I just don't know if I like you that way, the truth is I don't know what I want right now." it was true, I meant that.
"that's fine, I'll leave you alone now." and he was gone.
I was left alone in my room, once again, stunned. He just left! Without another word!
what did you expect Bella! I mean you pretty much rejected him! You couldn't expect him to be happy! I thought.
I laid there, for hours, wishing for sleep. I wanted to sleep! So bad! It wasn't fair, never when I wanted something did it work out, it seemed like.
I felt my throat began to burn, I jumped up instantly to look at my eyes.
They're pitch black, I need to hunt. I thought.
I figured, it would get my mind off of things, so I decided to hunt on my own. I smelt Elk about a mile west of the house, and with that I jumped out the window, and took off.
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I was pissed, nobody made me look like a fool! That was the last time I would let Edward Cullen reject me! I thought
I came to a snowy clearing, as expected, they were in m face before I could take a breath.
"Hello James, Victoria, Laurent." I nodded, "Its good to see you again." I smiled.
"Yes, Tanya, the pleasure is all yours, now what do you need us for?" he asked me blankly.
"Its rather simple really, I just need you to get rid of one of the newcomer vampires." I scowled at the name
"Which one?" James asked sniffing the air.
"Edward Cullen." I replied smoothly.
OKAY SO I KNOW A BUNCH OF YOU MIGHT BE MAD!.
But its all a part of the plot, I mean who wants Bella and Edwards relationship to grow on jealously and lust anyway?
I swear everything will come together in about two chapters.
I know Tanya's going overboard.
But that's the point. I saw her as an overdramatic person personally
Anyway; I swear, bella's just confuzzled right now!
Edwards sure of what he wants though! Just so you know..
And please review!
I don't want to lose readers! :