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I don't thank the sarcastic crap some people said.

If you don't like the story don't read it. Its been 18 chapters now. You should already know if you don't like it.

that's all I have to say about that matter.

A/N--For those who do not know…I change perspective from chapter to chapter. Edward, Bella..all though the first two were Edward perspective.

Is that crystal for everyone now?

Okay. Well fact of the matter is, I don't mind constructive criticism because everybody most everybody has been nice.

Okay that's enough here's chapter 18

From BELLA's lol. there i got it right. :P point of view.

And sorry about the underlines. It just happens sometimes.

And I named the chapter after a song. As I did the previous to.

Bliss- muse

Can't keep my eyes off of you--muse.

Chapter 18

Can't keep my eyes off of you

I had never felt this way before. Although my heart didn't beat, I felt as if my chest might explode. As he kissed the base of my throat, I inhaled his scent. He had a wonderful smell to him, honey, and lilacs. It was better then any perfume I had ever smelt before. While he kissed me, I had an epiphany.

Everything that has happened over this time span was meant to happen for a reason. Not the happiest way of doing it, but ended up being happy because I have him. Yeah that sounded about right to me.

"Thank you." he told me. As I played the conversation back in my mind.

"for what?" I had asked him.

"For saving me." he gave me a sheepish smile.

"it wasn't a big deal." I had thought.

"that's not what I meant." still had his poker face on.

"what do you mean then?" I was completely lost.

"Thank you for saving me from myself." he was gazing in my eyes. As I paused for the longest time not knowing what to say.

"its okay Bella, you don't have to say anything." he whispered as he kissed me again.

"How did I save you from yourself?" I finally pulled away and asked.

"Bella, I have walked this earth over 100 years, I went around thinking that there was nothing in this world for me. That I was this sick disgusting creature, that would eventually burn in hell at the end of time. I had nothing. I was a hollow shell. All point of being was gone. My heart didn't beat, but it didn't matter because I didn't feel it anymore. I was empty." he was frowning, but smiled to make me feel better.

"But you have Carlisle, and Alice, and all them." I whispered. Gazing in his liquid gold eyes.

"Yeah, and Carlisle has Esme, and Alice has jasper, and so on. I never would have chose this life for you, I wish I would have had better control over myself that day, but either way I still would have fallen in love with you." he mused with his crooked smile.

"But why on earth would you fall for me? Your almost godlike. And I'm just Bella." my yelling faded to a insecure whisper. Or when I was human I was just Bella, I can't really say that about me now.

"You just don't see yourself right do you? Isabella Marie Swan, you were beautiful then, your beautiful now, and you'll be beautiful tomorrow." he whispered in my ear as he kissed my jaw.

We sat there silent, my face resting in his shoulder, as his hands caressed my back.

"We should get back to the house." he whispered in my ear sweetly as the scent hit my face again.

"Okay." I released him, opening my eyes. He smiled at me and grabbed my hand, as we both took off back to the house.

We got to the porch, he laced his fingers in mine, as we both went through the door. Of course Alice probably seen this coming, but surprisingly everyone was surrounded by Alice when we walked in. She was sitting Indian style on the white leather couch, with Jasper at her side. Her eyes staring off into space.

"She's having a vision." Edward whispered swiftly in my ear.

I didn't dare intrude on her visions, I'd rather wait and her tell me herself. I had gotten good at blocking peoples thoughts. It was nice for everything to be quiet. Plus Edward wasn't as edgy when he knew I wasn't in his mind all the time.

"Bella!" she gasped in horror.

"Alice what is it?!" Edward shouted before I could find my voice.

"Charlie.." she trailed off.

I felt my head spinning. What could have happened to Charlie? Is he dead? Oh no this is all my fault. I ran my fingers through my hair, I felt writhes of sobs deep in my chest.

"W-what, is he?" I gulped, "Dead?" the words hurt.

"He's dying." Alice stayed froze in her position

"what happened?" I squeezed my eyes shut, and held my breath afraid of the answer.

"He was shot, on the job Bella, I'm so sorry." her honey eyes filled with remorse as they stared at me.

"Isn't there a way I can go see him?" I felted Edward wrap his arms around my waste, and kissing my hair.

"He thinks your dead Bella, you can't just go show up like that." Alice frowned.

"It doesn't matter that much does it if he's going to die anyway! I need to see my father!" I shouted in hysterics, waving my arms in the air.

"Bella, calm down, we can figure this out." Carlisle spoke for the first time sense we had entered the house.

"How can I calm down when my father is dying in the hospital, and I'm not even going to get to say goodbye to him!" I felt Edwards grip tighten around my waste, probably thinking that I might snap and attack somebody.

"I need a minute to gather my thoughts, can you excuse me?" it wasn't really a question, I walked out the door to feel six pairs of eyes staring at me.

"Bella, I'm sorry." I scoffed at myself at how his voice eased my pain just like that.

"Its not your fault." I turned to look him in the eyes.

"you don't have to pretend like your okay Bella." the act wasn't working.

"I don't know what to do, when it feels like the pieces are coming together; it seems like they shatter into even smaller pieces, and its getting harder to fix…"I trailed off as more sobs broke through.

He walked up to me, swooped me into his arms, and sat down on the stairs of the porch cradling me like a baby, as I sobbed in his shirt.

"I'll take you to Forks Bella." he whispered.

"What about your dad?" I asked dumbfounded.

"don't worry about that." he assured me as he kissed my forehead.

"isn't Alice going to see this coming?" I kept thinking of ways this couldn't work, instead of being relieved that I'd probably see my father one last time.

"Just don't worry about it Bella. We'll leave now if it will make you feel better, once we're on the highway they won't be able to catch us." he winked reminding me of his driving.

I nodded, he kissed me, gently, and then we got up and headed to the Volvo.

"Thank you." I whispered.

He gave me that dazzling crooked smile as his honey eyes burned in my light crimson eyes.

"Your welcome Bella." He finally said as we spun out of the driveway and began back to forks.

Relieved I rested my head on his shoulder, even if I couldn't sleep, I could daydream right?

Every now and then he'd kiss my forehead, brush his fingers through my hair. He was very comforting. He didn't talk, his gestures were better then what words could have done.

That was pretty long I thought.

I hope you like it.

Stories taking another turn.

Oh well. This is a longer chapter then the usual.

Okay. Well please review.

Sorry about the little rant I went on earlier.

Like I said its not everybody. And maybe they weren't trying to offend me but oh well I really hope you like this chapter.

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