A/N: It's a short chapter, I had wanted to make it a bit longer, but I didn't have time... I got a few messages asking for my to post more, I didn't have time to write more, but this is what I already had written for chapter 4. I intend to write more soon. :) Review!
Disclaimer: I have the book-set but I don't own the right to Twilight... Stephanie Meyer does, We shall bow in her presence.
JPOV-- I had my hand wrapped around Alice's, my hand began to lose feeling, though I wouldn't dream of letting go. We
were hitching a ride on the back of a train, we sat amongst crates used for storage. Alice clung to my side, as if she would
be pulled away, truth was I craved her closeness, if it were up to me, she would be right there next to me forever.
Although I knew I never could, I wanted to give her the world. Right now, she wanted a family, that I could get her. We
had spent the past three days on our way to Forks. When we got off this train it would be a short run, and we'd be at the
Cullen's house. We could have run here much faster, but we had no idea of the way there. I knew Alice was squeezing off
my hand, not because she was scared of getting caught with this storage, we could out run or out fight anyone who would
care of our presence here, no, she was scared of the family we were working our way towards. She had seen in her vision
that we will be accepted into the family, to most that would be a heavy comfort, but she was still a wreck over what she
was going to say when we got there.
"What if I say the wrong thing? And then they hate me?" She wailed.
I rubbed calming circles with my thumb on her hand, while I sent waves of calm and happiness to her.
She seemed thankful for my effort. Her eyes widened in horror. "What if I don't say the wrong thing?" She looked over into my eyes.
I was confused with her question, I answered with sarcasm. "No... It would be bad if you didn't say the wrong thing..."
She ignored my pun with no apparent effort. "Jasper, what if I don't say the wrong thing..." She looked down. "What if I freeze up and don't say anything at all?"
"Alice, try not to worry about it, you'll get yourself worked up. You'll find the right words, I'll be right by your side. My right hand may have fallen off by then, but hey... there's always the left, right?"
My bad joke, seemed to get the job down, she laughed. "I'm sorry, your probably going to need that one day." She
removed her hand from mine. I immediately missed the touch, I debated what was worse, not having her hand in mine, or
going without fingers. I reached over with my other hand to grab hers. This made her smile widely. I could feel more love
radiating from her. As she leaned her head down on my shoulder, I planted a kiss on her forehead before leaning my own
head down on hers. I whispered. "Love you."
She sighed contently.
APOV-- We sat with our eyes closed waiting for the train to stop, when it did, it appeared over urgent. Alice and I were
standing in an instant. "Do they know were here?" He asked me. I thought for a moment trying to pull the answer from my
mind, then it came to me. "Yes, they came to a stop to check back here."
"What gave them any idea we were back here? We were quieter than the mice in here." I said glancing at vampire speed
out the door, he looked back at me.
I sighed. "I don't know that many details...We should get out fast though, quietly too."
He gave me a goofy smile. "You scared of them? You could out smart, out run, out fight any human in this world..." He took
three steps towards me, so slowly, even for a vampire, I didn't think I could move so slowly. His eyes locked in mine, it was
a look that didn't make me believe that I should be frightened, but it wasn't a look that made me think their was anything
expected from me... As he looked into my eyes, he was definitely looking at me... but, it was a different kind of look than he
had given me so far, he didn't just look at my eyes, he burrowed deep within them. He seemed to be searching for
something. Jasper smiled, but didn't break eye contact, maybe he found something he liked. He didn't just glimpse at the
surface, he looked deeper at something I had never tried to find myself, something I didn't know I had... My soul.
You'd think a constant stare such as this one would be uncomfortable, or awkward, not with Jasper, I couldn't bring myself
to look away. Not that I tried. Why would I want too? I had fully forgotten of the situation we were in until, he let me free
of his spell, when he spoke. It wasn't that he spoke, his voice would have only enchanted me more, it was what he said.
"You don't fear them..." I he breathed, he was so close, I could feel his unnecessary breath on my neck. He leaned down
his lips an inch from mine. "You fear forthem..." It wasn't quite a question, but I felt I had to say something, whether it were
to comfirm his accement, or to pull my attention back to the voices growing louder as they approached the box car. I wasn't
sure what I was trying to find words for, all I knew was I needed to speak, but I couldn't bring myself to speak, he stood
lightly pressed up against me, and I lost any words I had intended to speak, I let my air out in a whoosh. He closed his
eyes and breathed in my scent, his eyes had a charcoal tint to them when they opened.
The only thing to pull my eyes from his, was my instincts, my reflexes. My head swerved to stare at the door in horror, as I
heard them right outside the door. I silently gasped, I flashed a look at Jasper, he placed a hand on either shoulder.
"Jasper, please... I don't want to be a monster..." I pleaded to quietly for anyone but him to hear. "Shh." He whispered. He
glanced at the door now beginning to slide open. He look anxious, as he searched the room. He grabbed a large cover from
the top of a crate, he wrapped it around us, and he silently jumped. I was fairly convinced that I was the only one to hear
his hands and feet dig into the ceiling. He told me to hold on to him and the cover, and we wouldn't be discovered. I
stopped breathing altogether, to prevent any movement. I rested my head on Jasper's chest, listening as the men below
searched the crate. I felt Jasper tense as a breeze flowed through the room, my eyes drifted up, nothing else of me moved,
to ensure not catching him by surprise any further. I wouldn't dare, make this harder for him. His eyes were a totally
different color, than just a moment ago, they were the darkest red I had ever seen, he looked crazed, he seemed focused
on a single spot on the ceiling, his jaw clenched so hard, if he were human, he would have snapped his bottom jaw off my
now.
Jasper was in pain, it was clear to see, he dug his nails deeper into the ceiling, his strength wasn't a problem, I'm sure he
could hold us up here for weeks without even getting tired, it was a different kind of strength he lacked, resistance, he
hadn't gone without blood a single day, for most of his vampire life, then he starved himself unsuccessfully over and over
again, I didn't believe he had eaten recently... not since before I had met him a few weeks ago. He only had to be a
stronger a minute longer, wasn't sure he could make it. As I stared not blinking at Jasper's expression, his eyes flickered to
me, he gave my a weak smile, making sure to hold his breath, as he looked at me his irises lightened slightly. I lightly
tightened my arms around him, testing his response, his eyes lightened further. I squeezed my arms tighter, still careful not
to startle him. His eyes still lightened more so. As we waited for the men to leave, I did nothing but hold his eye contact,
nothing but kept him in control of his instincts.
After what felt like a lifetime, they exited the box car, we waited listening for them to walk a fair distance, before we
lowered ourselves back to the ground. Jasper's eyes relaxed to their usual state, in a moment or two after they were gone.
The scent still lingered, but I knew most temptation was gone. I gave him another hug, when he was back to his usual laid
back calm. He wrapped his arms tight around me. "You did it, Jasper! You did it!" I kissed him lightly, still careful not to bring
back the other instinctual side of him. I let out a giant breath, and smiled a glorious smile at me, before kissing my back
much deeper. "We did it. I've never been able to fight it before" He said this with wonder. "I don't know how, but we did...
I thought I was going to lose it," He looked down to the ground for a moment. "I felt so much pain trying to withstand the
thirst, I fought with myself... I didn't know them, I could have gotten every last one, without causing a sound... even if
there was a sound, I could fight anything that the noise brought along. Then I thought of you. You don't want to be a
monster... so why would you want to be with one, I had to be strong for you. I knew I couldn't do it, but I still kept thinking
I was going to..." He looked up at me now. "I thought my pain was unbearable, until I look at you. I could sense your pain,
I could see it." He paused, as I nodded. "You were in control..." He continued. "At first I thought you were thirsty, but no
you felt the pain as you looked at me."
"I don't like you in pain, it hurts me to watch." I explained.
He smiled as he went on. "You know how when you keep telling yourself not to think of something?"
I smiled to, not getting his point. "Yes, you just end up thinking about it."
His smile grew wider. "Exactly!" He exclaimed. "You know the trick? How to stop thinking about it?"
I shrugged, happiness filling me up. He must be really happy.
He laughed. "You just stop thinking of it, think of something that always catches every bit of your attention. I thought of
you, I looked into your eyes and felt instantly calmer. I felt your arms tighten, and I knew I wouldn't be able to pull away
for anything. Thank you, Alice." He finished on an entirely serious, but sincere tone of voice. His hand moved as slow as it
had before, up to my face, his fingers lightly brushed a short strand of hair from my face. It went to rest in the spot where
my face met my neck, his other hand made its way to my waist. He kissed my forehead first, impatiently I reached up on my
toes and placed my lips harshly on his. He leaned down for further convince. I felt a smile play across his lips as we kissed.
"Thank you." He whispered against my lips. I laughed a small laugh. "Was my pleasure."
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