A/N: I have started another story called: Who am I? Its an in-depth look at Jasper's life as both human then vampire. I want you guys to check it out, and tell me what you think. I have though about it and depending on people's responses to the story I'm thinking of linking it with vision of love, because they seem to work well together... It would be as if my story Who am I? Had occurred before Vision Of Love.

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Disclaimer: I don't own the right to twilight!

I had a great and funny disclaimer to write, but I wasn't sure if writing it would be breaking some sort of law. (I am completely serious about that! lol)

JPOV--

I was in the backyard having a conversation with Carlisle and Edward, Emmett stood close by but, only threw in the occasional comment. They explained to me of their choice of lifestyle, they were 'vegitarrians' as they put it. I was sure Alice would be given the same speech within the hour.

At first, Carlisle appeared to be the leader here, he seemed to make all the decisions. Now I began to see him as the one with most insight, he had more years than the others, even more than I, he did just make all the decision for everyone, they entrusted to make the important decisions. So, sure he was the leader but, it wasn't at all by force. Edward could over come him if he wanted, I was sure of it. I knew Carlisle probably had more opportunities to learn how to fight but, he didn't appear as much of a fighter. Even with Edward's advantage of read our minds, I didn't believe he would ever have to use it on Carlisle, in battle or otherwise. Carlisle seemed like an honest man, and I don't think he would try to force his vote on anyone, if Edward was willing to fight for house leader, Carlisle just might back down.

It was weird to mix my army training and common knowledge of others. When I served you thought of others as a target or an advantage depending of which side you were on. It was weird to see this family act so civilized, I had never seen anything like this before. Alice had told me they were a family, but I took a different meaning from that... I had replaced the word family with, secure coven, in my head. It was as if we were from different worlds, I couldn't even compare myself with them without feeling a sense of shame, though that didn't stop me.

I managed to listen to what Carlisle explained to me, and conduct my own chart of similarities and differences in my head, while being fully aware that Edward knew what I was doing. What did he think of that? Did he believe me rude? Or was it expected?

I tried directing myself fully into the conversation, but I couldn't help but be bothered by the the thought that swam in the back of my head. There was a longer list of differences than all else. What if I ruined this for Alice? If she had a working heart, I think she would have had a heart attack when I called her my fiance'. No, I couldn't ruin this for her but, what if I did? What if I did something so bad that the Cullen's told me to leave? I wondered where that would put Alice. Would they judge us as a couple? Or would they let Alice stay? I had another thought flash through my head. Would she even want to go with me, if they asked me to leave?

Carlisle's voice pulled me out of my thoughts. "I understand all of this will be a challenge for you, especially with your past training newborns and feeding every night but, it is important if you choose to stay in one place for long. We are on reasonable terms with other non-vegetarian vampires, we respect their right to make their own decisions but, it is important, for the safety of my family," There went that familiar yet odd word again. "that you can convert to our lifestyle. We can't risk being discovered. We won't force anything on you... The decision is all yours, and all Alice's but, I want you to know... We'd love to have you as a part of the family and I believe in you... that if you commit to this, with our help, you can gain that control."

Carlisle and I were different creatures altogether... but, I wanted to be like him. I wanted the control of myself, he said I'd be able to gain. "If that what she wants, I'm in."

Emmett made a skeptical face, I knew his occasional comment was going to come. "It's great that you care about her, and that you want to do this for her... but, if it's not for yourself, if you don't want it, how do we know you'll truly stick to it. Jasper, I know you'll try but, I've been forced with the temptation of blood, even without your past... Rosalie's words couldn't calm that monster in me. Your loved ones may be a motivation...but your the only one who can truly calm yourself."

Edward spoke. "I don't know, Emmett... He really seems to mean his words,"

Emmett cut him off. "Yes, he does... now. The thirst is a selfish thing. When he's forced with the smell of ones blood, won't his reasoning change? At least when it's something your doing for yourself, the selfish side the monster inside us can acknowledge that,"

Edward broke in on Emmett now. "Your complete absurd, our conscience mind and our instincts are separate... that fact that your doing something for yourself or someone else doesn't change that... I think he wants this enough, we should give him a try if that's what he wants."

Emmett was about to counter him, but before he could speak Carlisle had considered the information, and arguement each of them had made. "You both have points worth considering... Jasper, your state of mind will change when forced with the scent of blood but, I can tell that you want this for Alice real bad. I think we should give you a chance, let you try the lifestyle out for awhile. Come hunting with us, take sometime to consider it, and talk with Alice after before you make your decision."

Both Edward and Emmett seemed pleased, Edward because his point was followed further, and Emmett because Carlisle mentioned he had a good point.

I couldn't decide if I thought Emmett was smart or dumb. He seemed happy with Carlisle's decision, though it wasn't what he had even suggested. His point did make sense though, a lot of sense, I knew I needed to consider that a lot. Maybe thats why he felt victorious, that Carlisle's approval of his words, would make me more likely to think about it. I guess you could say I lay of the fence for everything at this moment. If Emmett was dump or a genius, if I could do this or not. The one thing I was sure of was Alice, whatever she wanted I would do. If she could follow the lifestyle but, I couldn't. I would insist that she stay, even if I would spiral back down to my depression I had carried before, if it made her happy, it was fine with me.

"Sure lets see how this works." I said as I followed behind them into the forest.

APOV--

I was aware of Jasper out in the back discussing the Cullen's lifestyle, I had heard what I needed to about their families choice from Esme and Rosalie. I knew it would be hard but, I was eager to try out this new way of life. I may have killed people in my past, but I had started out my life as a vampire trying to avoid feeding. I had never eaten much more than once a week. Rosalie told me my transition would be a challenge but, still easier than most. I had insisted that they explain everything to us separately, I didn't want Jasper to feel forced through my enthusiasm.

Jasper was quiet through most of their conversation but, he seemed interested to try. After their discussion they took him out hunting. During their hunt I stayed back with Esme and Rosalie while they explained the story they told the town. Carlisle and Esme were their adoptive parents, Edward and Emmett were considered Esme's nephews, who's parents died in an accident many years ago. It was also told that Rosalie had been the daughter of one of Carlisle's close friends, who had passed five years ago in his sleep. He had been a single dad, and everyone else he knew had claimed to be too young to raise a daughter. They told the town, that since Carlisle was already helping Esme raise Emmett and Edward it only made sense to him, that he should adopt his dear friend's daughter. Every detail of their story was covered, they knew exactly what they needed to say when a certain question was asked.

I asked them if they had fake ID's apparently they didn't. "How do you manage to lie to everyone for so long without anyone ever needing to see ID's? Don't you have passports?" I asked.

Esme answered. "Well, our story is pretty solid, no one ever asks... and we mostly just travel from here to Denali, were a coven much like ours exists, we consider them our extended family. I'm sure they would love to meet you."

"Speeding tickets? I've noticed you like your cars." I said eyeing Rosalie.

Rosalie laughed at this. "Yes, I like cars, but I prefer to work on them rather than drive them. Actually, Edward is the speed fiend."

"You know stuff about cars?" I asked. I wouldn't expect someone so pretty to be interested in getting dirty at the under belly of a car. She appeared slightly vain to be interest in things other than herself.

She smiled. She must have heard this before. "Emmett said the same thing, with much the same expression." She laughed. "I know I have a pretty face," Okay, maybe a little vain but, it was true... "But, it doesn't mean I don't know how to use my brain. I love cars. Edward has a need for speed but, if you ever have car trouble I'm your girl to call."

I smiled. "I'll keep that in mind." She was pretty and she knew it but, she definitely seemed nice enough.

JPOV--

I watched as they would get down into a crouch then spring gracefully at their pray, they would drink them dry, then get up looking for the next without a single drop on their clothes. They didn't even get dirt on them.

Carlisle came over to me now, he seemed to come out of his hunting mode quicker than the others. Yet, another reason why he fit good as our leader. "Okay, Jasper. Are you ready?"

I nodded. Never anymore than now.

He demonstrated the crouch for me, I mimicked it easily. It was the same crouch I had used many times before. "This is basically the same as any other hunting, only the animals here are more aware of our danger than humans. I have no doubt your fast enough, you just have to be aware. Try to keep in your logical state of mind best you can. We can let you drink to your full, because unfortunately we don't believe you'll fill yourself up with animals for a long time. It could be months, maybe years before your stomach doesn't feel like a bottomless pit. Don't feel bad if you try attacking us when we try stopping you, that's a regular occurrence with any vampire. Even Edward has that problem from time to time, and he is the second oldest in our family."

"Why don't you have a problem?" I asked.

Edward was next to us now. "Carlisle's special ability is self control, he works in a hospital, so it has more or less developed over time. He wanted to do something, he put his mind to it and did it. We think you can do the same if you try. Everyone in our family has tasted human blood before. Well, all except Rose... She has killed before though."

I could feel a sense of outrage and protectiveness run through all three guys. It was strong enough coming from Emmett that it pulled him right from his hunting state of mind. I felt a touch confused, were they mad at Rosalie, or did they want to protect her.

"Whats the story behind that?" I asked, still confused.

"You'll have to ask her." Carlisle answered.

I nodded as if I would. I think I'll wait awhile though... the phrase 'who the hell are Alice and Jasper?' ran through my head. I heard Edward chuckle at the memory he heard through my head. She seemed nice enough after we had told her our story but, I had a feeling she didn't like sharing with those she didn't know. Although, she seemed rather pleased that we were here, I wanted to let her become more comfortable before I pried for answers, and anyones life story.

I scanned the land in my crouch, I spotted an elk about a hundred yards away and made a run for it before making my final leap twenty feet away from it. When I sunk my teeth in my mouth filled with the oddest taste, it wasn't particularly bad, just different. It was like going to a gormet restuarant and being given a cheese burger and fries. It was good but, not what was expected.

They let me take on about five more elk before they suggested we go back to the house, I had wanted more but, it was still early enough that I could pull myself away from the elk. I was still marveling over the different taste to get too far into my own instincts. Then we were headed back to the house.

APOV--

The guys had been gone all of five minutes before Esme said she needed to get back to cleaning. I looked around but, the place was spotless, I offered to help anyways.

"No, no my dear. I'm quite fine, I enjoy it, the trivial things that humans do... Its like my hobby. Also, you want to set up Jasper and your room, am I right?"

I nodded. I hadn't even thought of that. Just then I had a vision of our room. It was beautiful to the south side of our room there was a beautiful glass window, the entire length of the wall, that showed the beautiful view Jasper and I had witnessed earlier. When I came back from my short vision, they were smiling.

"You had a vision? Any room you want, its yours." Esme said as she carried a broom into the next room.

"Do you know what room you want?" Rose asked as walked the halls.

"I know what it looks like but, I just haven't found it yet." Rosalie kept walking when I paused at a door.

She looked back at me now. "That's Edward's room."

"This is the room." I corrected.

"Awesome" She laughed.

She helped me carry Edward's belongings downstairs to the garage. When we had carried his last things out of the room we came across Esme joyfully cleaning. "Hey, girls! Having fun?" She raised an eyebrow when she looked at the bed we held in our hands.

"Loads!" We laughed.

"Tell me when your ready to decorate, that's my even greater hobby." Esme smiled as she continued down the hall.

"Well actually," Rose started. "This is the last thing we have left to carry out of the room."

Esme smiled her gracious smile even wider, I could see excitement brewing in her eyes. "I'll go get the book, I'll meet you in the dinning room. When your done."

Rosalie and I hurried Edward's bed down to the garage. "Whats with the book and the dinning room?"

Rose nodded at my questions, she was expecting them. "Esme and I will explain the book when were back inside but, the dinning room just isn't ever used for eating... So it serves as kind of a family meeting/discussion place."

When we got to the dinning room Esme was sitting there with a giant book on the table, she had three chairs all lined up together. She sat me down in the middle and she and rose took the seats the right and left of me. Esme held the book closed as they explained.

"This is the book" Esme said.

"It holds many secrets." Rosalie laughed.

"It is filled with everything you need when your going to redecorate. Different colour options, flooring, furniture... everything." Esme explained.

"Yes, I can tell by its size..." I laughed.

"We update it often filling it with everything we need. You have an image of your room, and we're going to find it in here." Rosalie announced.

They opened up the giant book, They gave me a paper and pen to draw what I could of certain pieces of furniture. We began pulling out the bed, curtains, and flooring that I had seen in my vision.

We finished within the hour, the book really was a lifesaver. "How long does this stuff take to get delivered." I asked Rose as Esme called in for everything.

"It depends." She said.

"On what?"

"The tip." She laughed.

"How can you afford to pay for all this?" I questioned.

She thought for a second. "Carlisle's been alive for centuries... He's been a doctor for a longtime, we're billionaires... he doesn't have to work he just enjoys saving people, and the control he has gained because of his job... We have no doubt he could keep that control even if he stopped being a doctor but, I think he likes it because it makes up for the few people he killed a long time ago. He's made up for it a million times over already but, he enjoys it. I don't see him ever stopping his job as a doctor."

"Wow, I still can't believe he can work in a hospital, around so much blood. I mean I've been able to resist someone bleeding, but being around that all day... I'd lose control for sure."

"I think that just made it easier, he got used to the burning in his throat, until one day it just disappeared..."

"It disappeared!?" I nearly shouted in surprise. I calmed myself in a second when Esme turned around with her lips pursed. At least she found it humorous. Rose and I laughed.

"Yeah, that's how he explained it. Its like he silenced his monster..." Rosalie's words trailed off as Esme hung up the phone. "How soon?" Rosalie asked.

"Sometime in the next two hours."

"Your a magical vampire, you!" Rosalie shouted. Throwing us all into a fit of laughter.

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