I Love You
It had been a week since my first fight with Brydon. Tanya was so wrong about him loving me. The fights have been only getting worse. His music has been nothing but guys screaming with a hard bass part and electric guitar. I can't help but feel a little bit sorry for him. He seams so angry with the world and especially me. It kills me to think that things are not going to go back to how they were when I was first changed. He was there for me and he really seamed, now that I think about it, like he did like me but now I know that that's a whole lot of bullshit.
I want hi m to be happy and I know that's wrong for me to feel because pretty much wants me dead and the only thing that is holding him back is his very protective brother. I know that I should hate him with every fiber of my being but I don't and I can't help that I just want him to be happy.
I can't even read his mind anymore. All I get is as if there is a locked door and I don't have the key to it. Tanya said that he's blocking us. I can feel how worried Tanya is about him and its scaring me shitless. Decklen is so annoyed at him for being such an ass to me. He's been ready to ice him since the first fight we had.
The soft comfy tan sofa was engulfing me. The lights were off leaving the room movie theater dark. The lights from the TV danced on the wall. Gunshots and sounds of war rang out through the room. The actors in the movie were surprisingly doing a very well job of dying.
Suddenly my face went crashing down into the cushions of the sofa and my arms were pined just above the small of my back. Then I felt the pressure of someone on me.
" Get off of me!" I yelled. My movie was changed to a screamo band and I knew it was Brydon.
" How about…. NO!" He yelled back
" GET THE HELL OFF OF ME!"
" MAKE ME!" Then he started to scream along with the band. I tried to wiggle out from under him but it was no use. " HA! You're stuck!" He yelled and then laughed at me.
" Get the hell off of her!" Decklen yelled. I felt Brydon being forced off of me. I sat up quickly. " What is your problem?" Decklen asked his now restrained brother.
" I don't have one!" Brydon yelled
" Stop it I've had enough of this!" Lue yelled stepping into the room.
" I bet that you watched that movie with TIM and you wish he was here. But, I hate to brake it to you sweet heart, your never going to see that movie with him again because he's DEAD because of what YOU did to HIM!" Brydon yelled.
I should have expected him to say something about Tim. He always does every time. Then I end up crying in Decklen's room with him trying to comfort me.
Decklen shoved his brother aside and ran to me, putting his strong arms around me. I started to sob into his chest. He picked me up like he always does and took me to his room. He sat down on his bed with me on his lap. He whispered soothing words into my ear. After a wile I stopped crying. He did something that he never does. He leaned back so he was lying down on the bed with me still in his arms. I was laying half on him and half on the bed. I rested my head in his extremely sculpted and hard chest. I closed my eyes and tried to relax. He pushed some hair away from my face. I felt his lips come down on the top of my head. He's never kissed me before.
" Ember." He said softly as he stroked my cheek.
" Hmm?" I was slightly alarmed now but didn't want to let it show.
" I know you don't feel this way but I want to let you know that I love you and I'm not going to let anything happen to you. Ever. I would rather before I let something bad happen to you. Hopefully someday you will feel the same way for me too." He murmured softly.
Boy he just made this a lot more complicated. Decklen is great but he's more like a brother then a lover to me. I love him but not in that way and plus, he can't love me or he could just be saying that he does love me for the hell of it.
" Decklen, I love you but more like a strong protective brother." I said
" You do? So there is a God. I thought you were going to start flipping out on me in a really bad way." He said
" Really? Why would I do that?" I asked
" I'm not really sure but I'm really glad that you're not upset about it. I'm gonna close to me like we are right now if you don't mind."
" I don't mind. I honestly like having someone close like this." I said.
He kissed my head. " You want to finish watching your movie?" He asked sitting up.
I sat up. " Brydon is down there."
" Not for long." He said then ran out the door and most likely to the stairs.