Feelings
That kiss was so much different the when Tim kisses me. This was a trillion times better. It was something about the was his lips felt against mine or, maybe it was I wanted him to kiss me so bad, maybe it was because he wanted to kiss me just as bad but I'm not sure. Maybe it was just meant to be.
After kissing him I knew what he meant by me being his world. I had no idea how much I needed him but now I know. He means so much to me. I would never let anything happen to him. I would help him do anything that would make him happy. Right at that second I knew that he meant the world to me too, for there would be no world without Brydon in it.
His lips were ice cold but at the same time they were warm. I couldn't believe I was making him warm. Warm, an ice-cold vampire warm. Wait. I could only be doing that one way. No! I'm burning him!
I pulled away quickly. My hands came flying up to cover my eyes. I could have killed him. Oh no what if I did? No I couldn't have he was still kissing me back.
" Ember! Are you okay?" Brydon asked, fear clinging to his deep voice.
I put my hands down to see how bad he was. He looked fine. " I thought I hurt you." I mumbled. He laughed.
" Hurt me? I thought I did something wrong."
"Only contrary, you were doing everything much too right." I said to him.
" Why did you think you were hurting me?"
" You were getting hot. I thought I was burning you or something along thoughs lines." I said.
" I was getting warm from you. Your skin," he brushed his lips along my cheek. "It's so warm and soft. I just want to touch you all the time. I'm not sure why I'm so drawn to you, maybe it's your taste." He kissed my lips softly again but only for a second.
" It's your body." I said.
" Oh really?" He asked rising an eyebrow.
" Yes it is. Your hard sculpted chest." I said. I ran a finger down the middle of his chest and to make him really go nuts, I moved closer to him and put my hand on his inner thigh. I leaned into him. " Yes it's all about your chest. Your lips… have nothing… at all… to… do… with … it." I got closer and closer to his lips with each word but at the last second I pulled away.
" You tease." He said.
" Am not."
" Yes you are."
" How so?" I asked.
" I can't call you mine and just mine." He said sadly.
" I'm sorry." I felt my happiness fade. " I wasn't thinking, at all." I looked away. I could feel his hurt.
" It's alright. You still love him. I just have to work for your love is all." He said.
" The thing is I don't love him. Every time I kissed him I thought of you. You mean so much to me Brydon. I know exactly what you mean by me being your world because I know your mine. I never want anything to happen to you. I never want you to be sad. I don't know what would happen it you weren't here. I would be so unhappy. I would be alone and … unloved by someone that I'm almost positive I feel the same for." I said, looking into his dark eyes.
" Ember, I want you to be as happy as you can even if it's not with me. I want you to love and be loved. I want you to love me. I want you."
I put my arms around his neck. He pulled me close and put one arm around my waist. We rested our foreheads against one another's. He took his free hand and brushed his fingers gently against my cheek.
It felt so good just being with him. I didn't think I had missed him as much as I did. I wouldn't have cared if the next time we saw each other we were screaming in each other's faces, just as long as I got to see his godly face. I would miss him so much. It hit me then that I had no idea what he missed, as for his human life. I knew nothing about him.
" Brydon?" I said and picked my head up to look at him in the eyes clearly.
" Yes?" He said, a smile coming across his prefect lips.
" I know nothing about you." I said rather bluntly.
" What do you want to know?" He asked stroking my cheek.
" Everything."