I DO NOT OWN THE TWILIGHT SERIES. JUST A FAN!
Here's the next chapter! Haha. I have like no subscribers, or fans, or reviews...:-(! I guess I should just...understand that this is only my first story. I hope you like this. I have much more ideas about my story now, so it's really coming together! R&R!!!!
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The first day was a blur. The next week was a blur. And then things calmed down, but only to make me more confused than ever.
I was torn, torn between two different worlds. Whoever said that "you get the best of both worlds" was seriously deranged. I guess I want and need one of them more, but you know, it's never easy.
Matthew and my Jacob. My Matthew just didn't sound right. It's a fling, and a nice one at that. Flattering and "cute-sy," that's what it was. Jacob was my world, or I guess most of it, and I was his. He would never leave my side, and he cannot...because I'm his imprint. I love him, I love my life, but I want to be spontaneous and live life like I don't have a clue what I'm doing. Go through some boyfriends, find him, and fall in love like Mom and Dad. Not just "imprint" love, real love. I want to fall into love. I wanna slip and fall into love.
"Want to, um, go to Port Angeles sometime with me?" He asked, staring into my eyes. "We could see a movie, and go to this restaurant my uncle owns called, um, Bella Italia."
I didn't even think, I just nodded and mouthed the word "sure." He smiled as big as I had seen him smile in the past few months. And took my hand and we walked to his car. It had become kind of a routine, except for the hand-holding, that was new. Sometimes I felt nervous walking with him, like Jacob was watching my every move.
When I got home from school, I tried erased my mind of all Matthew. When Jacob swept me off my feet and embraced me passionately, I felt the love for him I always have, but in the back of my mind was Matthew.
Matthew haunted me in my sleep. He kept saying the same thing to me, "It may not seem wrong, but it doesn't mean you should. It doesn't mean it's not right, either. Face it." I couldn't tell if it was a nightmare or a dream. The dreams taunted me, Matthew looked...so...so...cute. I liked the thrill of "dating" this forbidden Junior boy. I squirmed around a lot when I had those dreams, and when Jacob would sleep in my bed with me he would question me in the morning. One day, it all fell apart.
"Nessie, something is up. You're unsettled in your sleep and you don't need rides home from school anymore." He began, obviously very upset. "You don't act like my Ness, but like someone else's."
He stared down at me, hurt in his eyes. Angry, jealous tears welled up in his eyes. "That boy, the one who is your personal little chauffeur, kissing up to you all the time, likes you a lot..."
"I - I - I..." I stuttered, teardrops covering my face.
"And you like him back." He concluded.
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Sorry if it's not that long you guys...I can't say ate my homework. I need three more reviews (total of eleven) to be motivated to write chapter four! :-)
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