Here's Chapter four! Yay! Thanks for the reviews, you guys rock! I am going to actually be creating a new story soon too so look out for that. Read and please review!

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My heart split. My tongue froze and I couldn't make out the words. What words? I didn't know. Could I just tell him that he was right, that my heart wasn't his. Explain to him that he give it away, at least for awhile? I was part of Matthew, and he was part of me. We're together and I need him. I need him to understand myself. I need to find who I am.

"Jacob," I whimpered, barely able to speak the unbearable words. "I need to...I love you. I - I ne - I need to live my life. I'm a girl, and though you and I are forever, I need something else in the meantime. I need to...to...experiment. Try a few things out, you understand, right?"

I waited for a response. But he just turned away, to hide his sadness. I wasn't expecting him to understand, I mean I didn't even fully understand it myself, but I just wanted him too.

"Will you wait for me?" I asked him.

We stood in silence, the morning sun shining into my bedroom. We stood there for what felt like forever, My heart shooting with pain.

"Why? I gave you everything." He cried, throwing the pillow into the antique full-length mirror.

"It's not you, Jacob. You are perfect, and always there for me..." I explained, trying to get him to understand. I needed to make mistakes in my life.

"Then why are you leaving me?" He interrupted.

Just then, I felt disgusted. He was too eager to please me! I want more adventure and surprise. I was done.

"I told you, I want to make some mistakes, I don't want a flawless life! You're too perfect! You do everything for me. I want to be normal! Now I'm not only yours, so you can wait, but that's your choice! I'm done!" I screamed, fed-up with him, wanting to run away, to a simpler and better place.

I stormed out of the room in a rage, my destination being the Volvo.

"I'm going out." I yelled into the main house, for whoever cared to know.

I slammed the door, started the car, and zoomed away. I had gone halfway when I realized that although I could drive like a professional, I didn't technically have my license. I flipped a quick U-turn and shamefully drove back to the house. When I got back, I grabbed the bike Grandpa Charlie gave me for my birthday and pedaled. I arrived at Matthew's just a few minutes later.

I knocked on the front door.

"Well, hello." He said, almost expecting me. "Stopping by to hang out?"

"Hey. Yes, I decided I might. Is that ok?" I said as I stepped into his house.

"My parents are out of town for the weekend, so I have the house all to myself. So I'm calling the shots." He told me as he put his arm around my waist.

"Oh," I replied, with a smile. "Thanks for having me."

We walked up to his room and sat down on his bed. We talked for a few minutes, about school and his football career and classes and friends. I was surprised not to feel that guilt I normally felt about Jacob, and for some reason I felt the opposite. I wanted to rebel, to piss Jacob off.

"So..." I started as I ran my fingers through his hair.

"So..." He said as he moved his face closer to mine.

And that kiss was all I needed. It was...perfect. But not in the flawless kind of way, perfect in the, perfectly normal way. Passionate. Flirty. Calm. I couldn't describe how I felt at that exact moment. I felt everything. And it felt right, and appropriate, for me, for a "fifteen-year-old." Completely something that I wouldn't mind my aunts seeing. Which made it feel responsible. But this was something that would drive Jacob up the wall. Which felt great and...perfect!

I guess after that Saturday we were a couple. I was dating Matthew, the football-crazy, popular, sweet Junior. He was dating me, the Cullen, the mysterious but well-known Sophmore. We were the talk of the town. Or at least the school. As you might guess, eventually my family had to find out. With Dad knowing everything I thought about he must have told Mom. And Alice must have overheard in town or got the information for Mom. Then Jasper. Then Rosalie and Emmett. Then Esme and Carsile.

Since they knew, I didn't even have to tell them. Did I?

Well, we were driving over to my house to study for the U.S. History Midterm, so I guess that will be the "revealing." I wasn't sure how they would act towards Matty. But, come on, they had to love him, he is just so sweet. In the pit of my stomach I knew that there would be some tension and moments of very awkward silence, you know, after I just you know. Jacob. They'll be wondering, and I can't blame them, because I haven't really explained to anyone, except Dad through my thoughts, about why or how I did it.

I know Jacob has been lurking around the woods near the house, but, as far as I have seen, no one has come into contact with him. It's been weeks, but I hear still his howls late at night when I'm on the phone with Matthew.

As we pulled up in the driveway, I could feel that he was nervous. I mean, he had obviously heard about the "abnormal" Cullen family's reputation, people called us "interesting, strange." Of course they did, we were. We're a coven of vampires, so, yes, we are different. He opened my door for me and took my backpack and hand. We walked through the courtyard, towards the house. I didn't take one more step. I froze. I knew who it was. I knew it had to be coming. Matthew looked back at me, confused.

"No!" I yelped, under my breath. "Not now!"

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Ok, it's not a very good cliff hanger, but that's where this chapter ends. I have a few ideas for who it might be but idk, any ideas? Write them in the reviews.

Reviews are greatly appreciated, and needed. I need to be motivated. Lol.

I'll post chapter five if I get three more, and within those some guesses/ideas for who it is...is that too much too ask?

-ALLtheSHIPS