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Um nothing much to say apart from this is four years later so they are now both sixteen.

We don't really own them…shame really

Four years later

He'd been sitting at the same table now for an hour, stirring the same spoon in the same cup in a drink he only bought out of politeness. His knee continuously see-sawed up and down, and every once in a while when he tried to appear normal, he would take a sip of the lukewarm coffee, and grimace slightly.

Addison immediately spots him, sitting at a secluded table in the corner. She takes a deep breath before approaching him, forcing a Smile onto her face. "Hey Derek. Long time no see."

He turns around to her smiling as he gets up to hug her "I think it's been too long, get the stuff I sent you?"

"Yeah... thanks it was great. It was all... great." She looks down at her hand, smiling at the ring she now has to wear on her pinky. "I've missed you, you know. I've... missed my best friend."

"Yeah…" he pulls back to look at her properly, her petite frame shrouded by baggy clothing and a thick jersey even though the weather is far from cold "speaking of missing, where's the rest of you Addison?" he asks softly, watching as she begins to avoid his eyes

She shrugs back, forcing a very fake smile onto her face. "Oh, you know how it is... exams and stuff. You get busy, run around a lot."

"Addison…." He sighs watching her shuffle nervously, tucking a loose strand behind her ear before he decides to drop it "let's just have something to eat" he offers a small smile

She quickly squeezes his hand before grabbing the memo. "Okay, so the pasta is really awesome here. I'll have... the Napolitano with Fettuccini."

"And in English?" he jokes, happy when he sees her smile

"It's just pasta with tomato. What are you having" She is unable to keep the grin off her face, watching his dark brown eyes scanning the menu.

"The chicken thingy" he says with a definite snap of the menu, beckoning the plump, rosy waitress over with his hand and giving their orders. When finished he takes another sip of his coffee letting them fall into a comfortable silence.

Addison smiles, allowing herself to study him for a few seconds. "You have grown up quite nice, Der."

He chuckles then bends his arm so that he can show off the growing bicep "I've joined a gym, played some soccer" he strokes it lovingly "I've named him Simon"

Addison throws her head back in laughter, arching a brow. "Simon, eh" She reaches over, squeezing his bicep with a grin. "Not bad... Simon."

He grins "yeah I'm pretty proud of him" he begins to lower him arm when he notices the faint scars in the hollow of Addison's sleeve, which, he captures before she has the chance to retract all the way.

Addison frowns, trying to pull her arm out of his grasp. "Derek, what are you doing? Let go of me."

He stays silent, his grasp secure but not tight as he holds onto her, his left arm coming up to help his right, pushing back the thick material on the sleeve so he can get a better look of her skin "what's this?"

Addison shrugs, avoiding his piercing gaze at all costs. "It's nothing; okay? Just... it's nothing."

"What do you mean it's nothing? Nothing's still something right?" he squeezes her slightly "look at me"

She finally looks at him, having to blink back stubborn tears. "What?"

"Tell me what's wrong" he leans forward "tell me why you have been…." He gets cut off when he sees the waitress approaching, dropping Addison's wrist so not to embarrass her. He smiles graciously for the meal, but can hardly find the appetite to stomach it.

Addison smiles politely, grateful for the interruption. She sighs when she notices Derek looking at her piercingly, shrugging slightly. "Things have been... hard... and I went through a phase where... it seemed like the way to deal with everything."

"You could have called me, written, email for goodness sakes! Anything is better than…than" he motions angrily to her wrist, unable to find the words to what she's done to herself "what would you have done if something went wrong? If you bled to death accidentally? Did you even think about what you were doing to yourself? To me?"

She smiles, shrugging. "If I had bled to death I would have had trouble doing something, now wouldn't I?"

He looks at her disbelievingly "do you hear yourself right now? Like seriously?"

"Relax, Derek. It was a joke. Haha?"

He shakes his head "you're unbelievable, I mean don't you care? The pain? The…sadness of it all?"

"Derek, get a grip. It's over, okay? I didn't handle things greatly, and I'm not proud of it. But I stopped so could you please not... just stop, okay?" She looks at him tearfully, her voice breaking. "I didn't want you to find out, get hurt."

"Addison…" he begins, taking in her broken state, her wet eyes, then deciding to rest the situation for now "…lets just eat okay?"

She smiles at him gratefully, wiping a few stray tears from her face. "Yeah... thanks. Look, I'm glad you're here, Derek. I've really... missed you."

"Same here, all I do now is hang out with Mark and his girlfriends" he smiles taking her hand from across the table and making soothing circles on its back "it's not that fun"

"What about you? Haven't you found a few girlfriends yourself?" She looks at him seriously, hiding her ridiculous fear of his answer.

He shakes his head "no, it just…it just doesn't feel right"

She has to hide a smile, nodding slowly. "Yeah... I get it. Hey, can I ask you a question?"

He shrugs "shoot"

She takes a deep breath before finding the confidence to ask what's on her mind. "Do you ever... think about me? Like... what could have happened if we never move?"

He looks away from his plate slowly, setting the fork comfortably amongst the pasta and the chicken feeling suddenly nervous "well...yeah" he sits up properly and scratches the back of his head "I mean if you had stayed we wouldn't have to meet like this, or hardly see each other or could have stopped" he looks to her hand "you know" he sighs "and if you hadn't moved we would probably be together, instead of leading two separate lives wondering what could have happened if you hadn't moved"

She nods slowly, a mischievous glint in her eye. "So have you ever... ya know... jacked off... thinking about me?"

He blushes a furious shade of pink and avoids her gaze, shuffling uncomfortably in his chair before he decides to be bold himself "well…have you?"

Addison grins, winking at him playfully. "I'm a girl. We don't talk about that. And I asked you first."

He narrows his eyes at her "I'll take that as a yes?"

Addison giggles softly, shrugging. "A girl has needs. So have you? Come on, you don't need to be embarrassed."

He gasps still stalling for time "you dirty girl you…." He looks around before leaning closer and whispering to her, pulling back when he was finished.

Addison lifts a brow, biting down on her lower lip. "Hey do you want to get the bill Maybe take a walk... or something"

He nods "sounds like a plan." He motions to the waitress who comes to clear their plates away putting down the bill on the table in her midst. Taking out some wadded bills from his pocket, he tries in vain to flatten them out and put them on the small silver dish, laying a couple of coins as a tip. Happy, he stands up and holds out his hand for hers "where to?"

Addison grins brightly, grabbing his hand. "We could go to my place, but then we'd have to see my parents. The beach?"

"The beach it is" he says, opening the door, then leading her out of the restaurant.

XXXXXX

Together, they walked slowly, shoes in hand, sand between toes, laughing about tiny details if their life, until Derek decided for a bit more bravery on his behalf.

"Addison?"

She looks at him expectantly, her heart beating fast when she notices the intensity in his eyes. "Yeah"

"When…when do you wanna do it?" he inhales deeply "when do you want us to...make love?"

"Wow..." Addison looks at him in surprise, unable to keep from smiling. "You want... you want... to be with me? Seriously?"

He looks at her strangely "who else would I be with?"

"I dunno, I just... okay, well... when do you to do it?"

"Whenever you're ready" he stops and swings her in front of him, taking both hands in his "I'll wait when you wait, as long as it's us then…" he trails off shrugging

She stops suddenly, pressing her lips against his softly, wrapping her arms around his body. "I want to be with you, Derek. Just... not yet. I don't know when... I'll be ready."

He kisses her back quickly "as long as I'm you're first and you are mine, then that's all that matters. I'll be on the first cheep flight down here, just you wait"

Addison grins brightly, pressing her body against his seductively. "Well... I promise, I'll let you know. And...for what it's worth... there's no one else I'd rather have as my first."

"Mmh so very true" he mumbles, before he bends down and kisses her again.

XXXXXX

Well this is the last update till Wednesday cause I won't be able to get to a computer for at least five days, due to an cool people conference in Italy :P

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