Sorry about not updating, but things have been pretty hectic on both sides of the pond, um last chapter I'd say Addison and Derek were around twenty, and this chapter moves on six years after that so they are around twenty six to my calculations, there is smut in this chapter so you have been warned and somewhat rewarded and that's about it
Apart from the huge amount of thanks for reviews for last chapter!
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Six years later
Addison looks at Derek blankly, her eyes void of all emotion. "Thank you for coming, Derek. I'm glad you are here."
"Addison you know you don't have to thank me" he takes hold of her hand and squeezes softly "I'm here for you, I'll always be there for you"
She smiles bitterly, shaking her head. "I should feel sad, or angry. But I just don't."
He shrugs "It's understandable, everyone experiences death differently" he says, not really understanding her previous statement.
Addison takes a deep breath, avoiding his gaze. "I'm relieved, Der. She did something... She was the reason I cut myself when I was younger."
He runs his thumbs over the faint scars he can still feel on her wrist "so you're ready to talk about that now?" he looks around absentmindedly "strange situation don't you think?"
Addison shrugs a faraway look in her eyes. "I guess... do you think I should talk about it?"
"I dunno, whenever you're ready you'll open up I guess"
"She cheated on my dad. I heard them fighting about it. My dad was... distraught, but she laughed in his face and told him that he knew this was never the life she wanted. She never wanted him. Or me."
Derek's hand clenched uncomfortably around Addison's before he loosened them and calmed down "well that totally sucks" he spat
Addison laughs bitterly, shaking her head. "I was never good enough for her. Not smart enough, talented enough, skinny enough, pretty enough... I thought that by doing it... I could control my own hurt."
"You're ok now right?" he looks at her uncertainly "you still don't do that sort of thing right?"
She holds her arms out to him, smiling proudly. "No fresh cuts and... its all because of you."
He smiles "well done us I guess"
"Yeah... Thank you, Derek. For loving me." she moves closer to him, cupping his face in her hands and kissing him softly.
"I wouldn't have it any other way" he wraps his arms around her waist "besides we're man and wife, it's my job" he smiles
Addison laughs, pressing her body against his with surprising force.
He stumbles a little "I guess someone has been working out?"
Addison laughs, kissing his neck softly. "I am not in the mood for a funeral."
He looks down at her raising an eyebrow "oh yeah?" he looks around quickly "wanna go for some ice cream?"
She lifts a brow, smirking. "That was not exactly what I was thinking..."
He screws up his nose "well I'm not really in the mood for anything else"
Addison stands up, shrugging. "Fine. Go get your ice cream."
He looks at her strangely "what did you have in mind?"
"Do I have to give you a lap dance before you get it?"
"Well no, but why cant we have the ice cream join us?" he wiggled his eyebrows at her, clearly with no intent to eat the cold dessert
Addison's frown turns into a huge grin as she slips the straps of her dress off her shoulders. "There is some down in the kitchen..."
"Flavour?" he asks, as he begins to slip out of his suit
She shrugs, slipping the dress further off and closing her eyes. "Don't care."
He grins managing to undress faster than he ever has before "lucky for you neither do I" he slips out of his boxers "about the ice cream anymore that is"
Addison laughs, pressing her body against his and fusing her lips to his desperately.
"We can always have the ice cream later though?"
Addison moans softly, stroking his thigh seductively. "Der... Stop talking."
He smiles "gladly" he says before he kisses her soundly, pushing her backwards until the backs of her knees hit the bed and she falls back softly with a thump. Climbing over her, he bends downwards grinning against her lips when he feels her hands snake through his hair, pulling him as close as she can possibly get him. Soon he feels her hands snake down his neck then around his back where he knows she will feel each and every muscle, tracing their outlines against his skin before she wraps her legs around him, allowing him to lay on top still without bracing his whole weight against her. Breaking the kiss, he looks down at her, her eyes still close, her lips swollen before she looks up at him and smiles lovingly, reassuringly, combing with her fingers a few stranded hairs away from his forehead.
"Ready?"
She nods, biting down on her lower lip; her eyes closed bracing herself for that familiar feeling of being full, complete with Derek as he slowly guides himself into her, letting her get adjusted before he pulls back a little to start a slow easy rhythm.
His lips find her neck, kissing and sucking on the soft skin gently, feeling her pulse beat hotly through her veins, before deciding to up the pace, rocking his hips more frantically against hers, making her moan loudly in his ear. His scalp begins to burn when her fingers tighten in his hair, his hand barely rubbing at her sensitive bundle of nerves, as she writhes underneath him, her mouth making the noises he's proud to have put there.
Letting go of what little coherent thought she had, Addison surrendered to Derek's onslaught to her body, waves and waves of pleasure scrambling her senses so that all she could do was breathe, barely acknowledging Derek's frame collapse next to her, his own heavy breathing a sign of his satisfaction as slowly they came back to earth.
Addison drapes her arm around Derek's waist, pressing her lips against his neck. "That was amazing."
"You could say that again" he says, cuddling her closer, drifting off to sleep when he is woken up by the shrill ringing of his cell phone. He gets up, unashamedly naked and goes in search of it, groaning when he sees the caller ID
Addison stretches lazily, watching him through her lashes. "Who is it?"
He puts a finger up to silence her, then flips the gadget open only to have a hushed conversation which ended as soon as it began. When he flips the cell back down, he walks over to the bed and lies back down, pulling Addison as close as she was to him before.
Addison watches him with a small frown, tracing patterns on his chest. "Was it your mum?"
He shakes his head "it's nothing…just some girl I'm not that serious with"
She sits up, ignoring the covers falling down to her waist. "Some girl? Like a girlfriend?"
He shrugs "we're not that serious to be calling it that, but yeah maybe"
"Are you sleeping with her?"
"We've done it once or twice, but we were drunk both times"
She moves away from him, frowning. "Oh."
"I'm guessing it bothers you"
Addison glares at him, covering her bare chest up. "Ya think? Were you thinking about her just now?"
"You're seriously asking me that question? Like seriously?" he rubs at his forehead "look, I haven't really been in anything serious, she just happens to be with me now and frankly she doesn't hold a candle to you. Why would I be making these trips if she did? If I seriously thought she was the love of my life"
"Why even be with her, Derek?" She looks down, tears forming in her eyes. "You are the only one I've been with."
"I didn't know, I didn't think…we were drunk both times and I immediately regretted it afterwards, all I could think about was how she wasn't the woman I'm supposed to love, how she wasn't you" he looks at her still figure "I can understand if you want me to leave now"
She shakes her head, lunging forward and pressing her lips against his harshly. "Make love to me, Derek. To me. And say my name, keep saying it."
"Come again?" he says nervously at her new found forwardness
She stares at him, tears forming in her eyes. "Don't make me beg you."
"Oh" he says understanding why she is behaving this way. Brushing the hair from her face he kisses her softly, before responding to the sharp urgency she's showing him.
Addison kisses him back, tears streaming over her face, her kisses urgent and desperate. "I love you. I love you so much!"
Saddened by her efforts, by the way he's upset her, he flips them over, looming on top so that he can look into her tear stained face. Slowly wiping the salty tracks away he mutters over and over "My Addie, My sweet Addie" before kissing her at uneven intervals before she finally calms down slightly.
She looks up to his eyes, her breathing steady and calm. "You're my everything, Derek. You're my whole life. Promise me I'll never lose you."
He takes her hand, kissing the little pinkie where she keeps his promise to her "you wont lose me, I swear"
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