there is only disappointment

Sometimes you put all of your desires in an object of affection

But in time because you idolise there is only disappointment

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Later that night

Marian heard the doorbell ring, but ignored the sound. Feeling miserable and anti-social as hell, she didn't want to leave the safety of her bedroom. She didn't want to see or talk to anyone not even her sister. It had been a long and emotional day. Her arm was pounding dully and all she wanted was to fall asleep and drift into a world of oblivion.

The bell rang again and she held her breath for a second, straining to hear if Sarah was going to answer the door or not.... With the third ring, her lazy sister finally turned off the TV and dragged herself out of the living room.

Wood creaked, footsteps echoed down the hallway and the front door was opened. Marian listened for more sounds, but none came. Presumably, whoever had been waiting outside didn't seem to be somebody Sarah invited in.

Minutes passed and nothing happened. Marian was just about to crawl back into her bed again when suddenly her sisters loud voice screeched through the apartment.

"Marian! Someone's at the door for you!"

"Who is it?... " she found herself forced to shout back. Then suddenly it dawned on her. "No, wait, you don't have to answer that. It's HIM, isn't it?!"

"Yes, it's Robin. Apparently you forgot your suitcase at his house. He has it in his car but he refuses to hand it over unless he gets to talk to you in person. So get out here now will ya!"

"I don't want to... Can't you take care of it?!" Marian wined. Spending the entire afternoon cooped up in her room crying and feeling sorry for herself had left her cranky and irritable. She so did not want to deal with this now. Or ever, for that matter... "I don't care about my luggage. Ask him to leave.... Scare him away.... Push him down the stairs... Do something, anything... Just as long as you get him to leave."

"Don't you think I have tried ?! He wont budge. He's even threatening to put up a tent and camp in our garden until you talk to him. Look, I don't have all day. Either you get out here and handle this yourself or I will call the cops and have them sort it out... Those are the options, you choose... Just hurry up because I don't have time for this shit..."

"Alright, alright. No cops! I'm on my way!" Pulling her robe tighter around herself Marian stomped out of her bedroom and joined her sister in the hallway.

"I can't believe I'm doing this... God, will this nightmare never end. I so do not deserve this..." she muttered to herself as she took a deep breath and pushed the front door open and stepped outside.

Marian felt herself tear up again as she stared at the poor excuse of a man waiting for her on the other side of the threshold. A thousand emotions danced across her eyes: anger, betrayal, doubt, sadness, hope and even love. ... But none of them was trust and that's when she knew it was over...

They stood there looking at each other in silence for a few moments before Marian shuddered and turned her face away.

"Can I come in?" Robin asked quietly and nervously shifted his weight from one foot to the other.

"No. That wont be necessary," Marian replied coldly as she closed the door behind her and leaned with her back against it.

"You've got some nerve showing up here, but fine I'll give you five minutes to explain yourself...." she said, and placed a hand on her hip. "....Starting now."

It was unsettling how quiet she was. Robin had expected her to yell and curse at him, but her demeanor was calm if not a little weary. Robin was nervous, his hands wouldn't stop shaking and his chest tightened painfully. The words of apology he had rehearsed before he left home were now long forgotten. He started mumbling something about how sorry he was and how he hadn't meant to hurt her....

Marian refused to even look at him. "Are you done?" she snapped and continued without waiting for his answer. " I'll save you some time. I already know why you did it. I have read all the documents in your folder, from front to back. And its okay, I understand.... Your family is under a microscope right now because of that lawsuit. It's all about saving face... Fine! I can accept that... But what I can't accept is when someone I'm in a relationship with lies to me!"

He didn't say anything at first, he just stood there looking like he'd been punched in the gut. Then he pulled himself together and took a few steps towards her.

"I know this is much to ask but can you please give me another chance. I know that what I did was wrong. But it wont happen again. I can change, I promise...."

"It's over, Robin. I don't want you in my life anymore. "

"But I love you! Doesn't that count for anything?!"

"No, because you're just like every other man I ever known... It's all about sex.... A man only says "I love you" when he's drunk and horny or during mind-blowing sex, or when he screws up and is in danger of not getting any action..."

"...or when he really means it!" Robin finished the sentence for her.

"True, there is a slim chance that you really mean it but I'm not taking any chances. This is goodbye, Robin. I'm leaving town. I'm going back to Denmark, where my mum lives and where my true friends are.... It was silly of me to come here in the first place. I'm a small town girl, I don't belong here, I never did..."

"Please don't go!" he whispered tearfully, ragged sobs shaking his broad shoulders.

"It's too late for us. My mind is made up... I hope you really do change. Not for me but for yourself.... But this is the end...it has to be... "