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Secondly, my most sincere apologies for not updating in nearly a week. My computer got a huge virus and wouldn't turn on, but I managed to fix it. It was good in the way that I had time to think about where I wanted to talk this story, I have a plot pretty much formed now, and I'm sad to say there'll only be about four more chapters. So, sorry again. Let's begin.
Bella's POV
3 weeks later.
So, Edward Cullen, does it actually get any better? I honestly don't know because I have no one else to compare him to, but I wouldn't think so. No one has ever made me feel the way Edward does, like I'm the only person in the entire world when we're together.
I strolled across the campus grounds, towards the health building. It was a blustery, rainy November evening. I had stayed late in the college library finishing a report I'd let go over the weekend. I'd had Edward as a distraction. How was I possibly supposed to be able to concentrate on school work when Edward was biting my ear, and rubbing my inner thighs?
Night had already fallen as I continued on my short cut. I drew closer to the health building and I noticed a very familiar silhouette growing larger, his confident walk was instantly recognisable and his pale skin seemed to emit a faint glow, despite the rain pouring down. My heart soared and I lifted my hand to give a wave, my mouth opening to shout a greeting, however I faltered when I noticed the name on the small green plaque beside the door from which Edward had just emerged,
STI Clinic.
I quickly stuffed my hand back into my pocket and veered sharply to the left, down a narrow gap in between two buildings, pressing my back against the cold concrete I slid to the ground.
My chest heaved as I took great shuddering breaths, fighting back tears. I fought myself to think rationally, there could be many reasons Edward was at an STI clinic, it could be part of his degree. Sexual health could be part of a medicine degree couldn't it?
Why would he visit after class hours though? If this is part of a class? A voice in my head questioned.
Why would he go on his own? He's not the only one in medicine . .
I pressed the palms of my hands against my eyes, trying not to cry.
Why would he need to go to an STI clinic if he's only been sleeping with you? A virgin? For the last two months?
I shook my head violently at my own thoughts, no, Edward wouldn't.
He used to.
Sure, Edward had slept around, before he'd had a girlfriend. Before me.
Look at him, he's gorgeous, if he could have anyone he wanted why would he settle for just you?
"Shut up" I moaned to my own mind.
Did I really think Edward capable of cheating on me? Honestly, yes. I knew he had a reputation. Alice had warned me, she'd told me he wouldn't be a good boyfriend. Why did I think I could change him?
There was one way to confirm my suspicions, I could call Edward, ask where he'd been tonight. I forced down another breath and drew my phone from my coat pocket. I fought to control the shake in my breath as I searched my phone book for his number, I tried not to look at my background, a picture I'd taken last week, I was smiling as Edward kissed my cheek.
The phone rang, and rang. I stood up and began walking again, the rainwater mixing with my tears. Finally, I heard his melodic voie through the speaker.
"Hello?"
"Hi Edward" I tried my hardest to keep my voice normal, sound like my usual self.
"Hey Bells" he said, "what's up?"
"Not much, just calling for a chat"
"Right . . So?"
"How was your day?" I asked, trying to sound casual and conversational.
"It was all right yeah, you?"
"Fine, I got my report finished"
"Good, good . . Bells where are you? I can hear traffic"
"Oh, I'm waiting for the bus home from the library" I lied as I made my way across the campus square.
"Don't walk home, it's dark, I don't want you to get hurt"
I melted at the concern in his voice, how could I doubt him? Then I remembered what I was supposed to be fining out.
"So, what did you do this evening while I was at the library?"
There was a small pause, "Eh, not much. Went to the movies with Jasper"
Lie.
"Oh yeah?" I said, "what did you see?"
"Listen, Bells I have to go . . " he said, sounding distracted.
"Ok," my voice shook, "Good night, I love you"
"Yeah, good night"
He hung up.
I broke into a faster pace and half stumbled, half ran my way home. I burst into my apartment door, tears streamed down my face. Alice looked up from the kitchen counter in shock.
"Oh my God, Bella, what's wrong?"
I threw myself into her arms and sobbed, her petite frame molded into my body as she soothed me, stroking my soaked hair, until I had calmed down sufficiently to peel myself away from her. She helped me shrug off my wet jacket, and walked me to my room, leaving me to get changed.
She returned with a cup of steaming tea, "Now, want to tell me what happened?" she asked kindly.
"Edward" I choked out.
"What happened? Did you break up?"
"No" I shook my head, "he's cheating on me"
I explained the evening's events to her, including my phone call to Edward.
"Did Jasper mention anything about the movies?"
"I'm sorry doll, no, he left about two minutes before you came bursting in"
My head dropped, "I should've listened to you Alice, I should've expected this"
"Shh, you're in no state to talk about this now, get into bed and we'll talk in the morning"
I silently blessed Alice for being so sensible and kind, and not demanding gossip. I pulled back my duvet covers, as I sank into my mattress Edward's scent surrounded me. He had slept here last night. I buried my face in my pillows, breathing deeply. Imagining he was here with me, his strong arms wrapped around my waist. And only mine, I ignored the creeping thought that he could be entwined with some other girl at the moment.
I took my iPod from my dresser, turned the volume up as loud as I possibly could. Trying to block out my own thoughts with someone else's.
Time is gonna take my mind
And carry it far away where I can fly
The depth of life will dim my temptation to live for you
If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears
'cause it's all about love and I know better
How life is a waving feather
Fly me away Edward, talk be somewhere were there's just me and you.
So I put my arms around you around you
And I know that I'll be leaving soon
My eyes are on you they're on you
And you see that I can't stop shaking
No, I won't step back but I'll look down to hide from your eyes
'cause what I feel is so sweet and I'm scared that even my own breath
Oh could burst it if it were a bubble
And I'd better dream if I have to struggle
I'm so scared to lose you.
So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me
Please don't hurt me Edward, please.
I'm dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me
So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me
I hope that you won't hurt me. Please.
A/N: So that's it! It was quite angsty I know, but it can't be all fluff and lemons!
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