Ryan's POV. Probably the only chapter i'll do in his POV. Don't know exactly yet.
Oh and the song is "Seventeen Forever" by Metro Station. Felt like it fit.
Chapter 15
You are young and so am I
And this is wrong
But who am I to judge?
You feel like heaven when we touch
I guess for me this is enough
My head is spinning. This seventeen year old girl standing in front of me is perfect. Everything about her is perfect. Despite her tendency to go for terrible guys. Yeah, even I'm not good enough for her. Seriously, no guy is good enough for this amazing girl.
I can't believe that I've fallen for her in so short of time. With Marissa it had taken so long to decide to marry her. It wasn't even out of love but more for security. For the both of us. Neither of us had really grown up in the most stable of homes. I don't like talking about it much, so I just don't.
My mom stops by every now and then for money but once she has it she's gone on another binge promising to get help as soon as possible. She'll say anything for me to give her a few bucks. I'm her son, what else am I supposed to do?
I can't do this. I just can't…I feel like I'm corrupting this girl. I feel like I need to save her. Save her from her ex and from myself. I'll just hurt her. God, she's perfect. She has no idea how beautiful and amazing she really is. I need to tell her that or better yet show her.
We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight
I'm not letting her move her hands to touch me. No, this isn't about me. This is all about her.
"Ry-an." She's whining but the way her nose scrunches up is so cute. I just shake my head when she tries to kiss me. I'm leaving soft kisses all along her collar bone. She shakes under my touch. I have her pinned up against the bathroom door. Maybe the bed would be better, this time.
"Come on." I grab her hand pulling away from her. She looks at me with these confused lustful eyes that are totally getting to me.
I suddenly feel like we're going too fast. Way too fast but it feels right. It feels more right than anything else in my life. I laid her down gently on the bed. She tried touching me again.
"No." I growled pushing her hands away. She gave me her best pout. As cute as it was I wasn't going to fall for it. "This isn't fair." She spoke as I started to pull her shirt over her head.
"Yes it is." I smiled seeing her amazing body. Then I saw the yellow bruises. They were healing but I could still make them out on her chest, her arms and her stomach. Her hips had thumb prints on them. How someone could hurt her was beyond me. She saw that I was staring at them.
"Don't look at those." I heard her whisper. I bent my head down and began kissing each visible bruise. I pinned her arms down so she would stop trying to touch me.
"Wait! We can't do this here!" She fought against my restraints. I gave her a questionable look after releasing her from my grip.
"What?" I managed to croak out not wanting to stop this but I knew if she wanted to stop, I would. "I am not having sex with you in the same bed you probably conceived your son in." She pushed me off of her and ran into the bathroom to grab her shirt.
"Taylor." I groaned following her. "Look, if we're going to do this we can't do it in that bed or mine. No." She shook her head holding her shirt but not putting it back on.
"Okay." I nod because I don't really care where we do it. I just want to feel her. All of her. I sound like a perv. I'm not. I've never felt like this. Ever. That has to mean something.
I'm not one of those dirty teachers who look at all of their female students as meat. Nope, I've never even looked at a student the way I look at Taylor. There's just something about this girl. I can't put my finger on it but there's something.
You are young and I was scared
You're wise beyond your years
But I don't care
And I can feel your heartbeat
You know exactly where to take me
"Oh and I'm not having sex with you anywhere in this house that you have done it with her." She sounds bitter. She's jealous. I laugh.
"Well, if you must know we never had sex in here." I said huskily. Once again I'm sounding like a perv. I don't have to do this with her. I shouldn't push her.
"When was the last time you two...had sex?" Why did she have to ask that? I stumbled on my words. "Oh My God, you've had sex with her recently, haven't you? After she cheated on you?"
I try to speak but nothing comes out. She's wrong. I haven't even slept in the same bed as Marissa since I caught her. Taylor's trying to walk past me but I'm not letting her.
"No. Taylor, we haven't done anything in months." I am finally able to get out. I watch as her face turns from a frown to an amazing smile. I laugh as she suddenly lunges herself at me kissing me harshly. Where this came from I will never know but I'm not complaining.
"If you don't let me touch you then we aren't doing this." She breaks away from me. All I can do is nod. What is this girl doing to me? No one has ever had this much power over me. Oh. That's what she's doing to me.
We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight
I'm not sure how we managed to get in the shower or even turn it on for that matter. I don't even remember my mind was so fucking cloudy.
This girl was getting to me. And she knew it too. "If I hurt you…tell me and I'll stop." I'm almost in her. I just don't want to hurt her. "No you won't." She bites down on her lower lip. She's so fucking sexy.
I don't think I've ever been more satisfied in my entire life. She…she's…wow. I can't even think straight. What am I doing? This girl is seventeen! Not even legal and I'm in my shower fucking her. On top of that she's my student. I can't stop. I won't. Not unless she wants me to and the look on her face is telling me that she definitely doesn't want me to stop.
She screams my name as she climax's. I'm not far behind her.
"That was…wow." We're both gasping for air. My hand is slipping on the wet tile but I'm still trying to hold us both up. She unwraps her legs from my waist and I pull out. I feel empty now. Like when she was on me…I felt whole. Okay, this is freaking me out. I shouldn't feel this for a girl.
A SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL! I hadn't even felt this way about my wife, ever. My wife. I'm doing exactly what she did to me. Cheat. But I just don't care anymore. This girl is worth it. She's wresting her head on my chest. I still haven't said anything. It's like I've lost my ability to speak. I know I don't speak much but I just feel like I need to say something.
"Ryan." She's looking up at me now. "Hi." I'm able to croak out. She's giggling. It's an amazing sound. I love to see her smile. I love to hear her laugh.
I remember seeing her for the first time. I knew this girl was broken. I knew she needed to be fixed. I hadn't tried to help her to get with her. I hadn't even thought of that. Not until I touched her for the first time. I realized that the spark I felt was much more than what I should have been feeling touching someone.
When I saw her with her abusive boyfriend I remember having to tell myself that they were only kids. That I'd go to jail for hitting him.
Hell, I'd go to jail for doing this with her.
"Will you remember me?"
You ask me as I leave
"Remember what I said?"
Oh, how could I
Oh, how could I forget?
"Hi." She smiles reaching her hand up and resting it on the back of my neck. I lean over and kiss her forehead before we finally break away from each other. The once warm water was now spraying on us cold. She was shivering as I stepped out of the shower to hand her a towel. So much for showering.
"I think I should take a shower. Alone." She shakes her head when I try to hand it to her. "Fine. I'm going to take one downstairs." I say laying the towel down on the floor.
"Can I borrow some of your clothes?" She asks. "Yeah." I nod. God, her body is amazing.
I'm freaking out. How can I do this? How can we not get caught. Everything's going too well. Something's going to happen and we're both going to pay for it. I know I'm far too in this now to stop though. I'm an idiot. A complete total idiot.
We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight