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Chapter 5

Ashley's POV

A couple of weeks have gone by since Aiden's little rendezvous with the bull. I still catch myself laughing whenever I think about it. I was surprised however by the fact that Mr. C didn't get on to us. He actually had a smile on his face and laughter in his eyes after Aiden's little drink. Spencer and Glen where pulled aside though. I'm not sure what was said exactly. Only thing I know is what Spencer told me in her room that night, which was, she promised not play anymore pranks on him like that again. Of course, the only thing that came to my mind was "like that".

Spencer's rodeo is this weekend, and Mrs. C promised we could all go and watch as long as we behaved. The pond has become mine and Spencer's spot to relax and talk without being caught. She seems to fear her mother catching us. I've asked her about it several times but she always brushes it off or changes the conversation on me. I'm not giving up though. I will get to bottom of the mystery that is Spencer Carlin.

"Hey Ash. What you doing?" My beautiful blonde asks from behind me. I have grown used to thinking of Spencer as mine. I like thinking of Spencer as mine. Even though all we consider each other is friends. I still want more.

Spencer's POV

"Thinking." She is so beautiful. These last couple of weeks have done anything but relinquish my crush on Ashley. The only thing I have come to realize is that she is an amazing, smart, funny, and caring person who I would love to have by my side for the rest of my life. We catch ourselves having moments like the first one all the time now. Nothing ever comes of them. I think she is scared that I will panic and runaway from her. I wouldn't though. I want her to kiss me. That would be all I would need for my entire emotions spill out and my fears to be forgotten. A kiss.

"What are you doing?"

"Looking for you."

"Well you found me. Now what?" She smirks at me. I wish I had the courage to kiss her but I can't, at least not yet. I also have the sinking feeling she might not kiss me ever. We are both battling our fears but we are both losing.

"Have you finished your chores?" I step closer to her wanting to feel her touch. "Because I would hate for you to have to miss my barrel competition on Saturday." I see her visibly gulp as I enter her personal space.

Ashley's POV

She is killing me with these games. Always finding a way to touch me or a reason to hug me, she's killing me. I want her so bad. I find myself taking cold showers every night because of her. She is a tease and a fucking good one at that. "Ye... y... yes" I manage to stutter out. I'm already wrapped around her finger. I'm in so much trouble.

"Good" she brushes a few loose curls behind my ear "I would hate for you to not be there, cheering me on." She whispers and I can feel her breath on my lips. Our lips are only centimeters apart. All I would have to do is lean in just a little and I would be kissing Spencer Carlin. Why can't I? My heart is telling me to go for it but my head is saying no. I want my heart to win but it never does. I pull away only to miss her warmth right away. The hurt in her eyes is apparent. She wanted me to kiss her just as bad as I want to kiss her. I know I can't make the first move. It has to be her because she is the one battling with whether she's gay or not. She has to work through her issues without someone trying to pull her in one direction or push her in another. This is not the Ashley Davies I'm used to. Normally I would have already used her uncertainty against her. Fuck'm at any cost and leave'm, but not her. I care for her. That's a lie. I don't just care. I love her. I'm in love with Spencer Carlin and I have never even kissed her.

Love is such a new feeling for me. I have never been in love before.

"Sorry" She takes a step away from me.

Spencer's POV

I try to make my retreat from her but she grabs my arm before I can run. "Don't be sorry. You need to figure out what you want. I'll be here waiting for you when you do." She kisses my cheek and lingers there longer then normal and just like that she gone. I'm left here to think about what she just said. "Don't be sorry. You need to figure out what you want. I'll be here waiting for you when you do." What does that mean? I know what I want. I want her there is no doubt about it. I'm just scared of what that means for me. Can I handle being gay and everything that comes with it? I hope she waits for me. My fears are the only thing holding me back. The weirdest part is I'm not sure of what I'm scared of.

"Please wait for me." I sigh to myself as I watch her walk further and further away from me.

Ashley's POV

I had to leave. She cannot see me cry. Wiping away my tears, I whisper, "I will wait for you forever, my love."

The rest of day, I avoid her even though I promised her I would never do that again. It was too hard to look into the crystal blues and not want to make her mine. Instead, I spent the rest of my day with Kyla and Madison helping them with their chores.

Meals where uncomfortable for me. I still sat beside her but I didn't talk. Neither did she. We listened to the other conversations around us which where not anything worth remembering. After lunch, I had to go to a shrinking session with Mr. C. today. I need to talk about what I'm feeling but if he figures out it's Spencer. He might send me away, and I may never get to be with her.

I've caught her staring at me constantly the last several days. We haven't really talked anymore and I've made sure we are not alone except when we are in her bedroom at night. Those have been the hardest times. She wants to say something to me I'm sure, but she never does. All I can do is wait.

Spencer's POV

I am so confused. We are hardly ever alone anymore. She will not talk to me except for the occasional polite small talk. She is driving me mad. I know she is waiting for me to figure things out but I have. I want her. I have to tell her. Just how to tell her, is the question. We are never alone together except in my room at night, and she is always pretending to be asleep when I come in from my shower. I need to stop thinking about this. I have my barrels to think about. Thunder and I have about three girls in front of us before we go. I have to stop thinking about her. My dream is to win the nationals. Well is used to be now all I want is to kiss Ashley. "God. I need her," I pray to myself.

"Need who?" I know that voice. Ashley!

Ashley's POV

She climbs down off her horse and faces me. The smile on her face is the biggest I've seen in days, which makes me smile too. Taking a few steps closer so she is in my personal space again, she whispers "you." I can feel her breath on my lips and just like the last time our lips are only a few centimeters apart. As I start to back away again, I feel a hand grasp the back of my neck stopping me. "Please don't run from me again." Our eyes lock and for the first time I don't see uncertainty. I see hope, want, and trust. Her eyes glance at my lips before she wets her own. I follow suit. We both lean in our lips just almost barely touch before our spell is broken.

"CARLIN TO THE GATE!" The loud speaker announces.