Chapter 30

"I missed you." He murmured into my hair.

"I'm sorry about the whole sex thing." I looked up at him sympathetically. Part of me hoped he hadn't had sex with anyone since he last had it with me, but the other part of me realized we were kind of broken up through that whole time so there would be no reason why he wouldn't do such things. "How's Kingsly?" I questioned snuggling my body more into his. He had one had around me resting it on the large bump that held our baby inside.

"Marissa hasn't let me see him since I skipped out on Christmas." He said sounding a little upset.

"That's my fault, isn't it? If I wouldn't have been in that car accident then you'd still get to see your son…God, if I hadn't been around you'd still be with them." I sigh placing my hand on top of his.

We'd been laying there for two hours just talking. Immediately after we arrived at his place I walked up the stairs and crawled into the bed that I had come to think as mine for those months I had practically lived with him. He hadn't even asked about sex until I brought it up. His face sort of lit up but he still gave me a smile when I said it wasn't going to happen.

"The baby has a name." I told him.

"Really?" He whispered.

"Yeah, I'm not going to tell anyone though. That includes you. I'm the only one that even knows the sex." I say.

"I want to be surprised." He kissed my forehead.

"Ryan, are you scared?"

"Terrified, you?"

"Sort of, not in that way I was scared of Seth or Oliver. I'm not even scared like the way I was to fall for you. I'm more scared for the baby. Scared that I'll end up like my mother, especially being so young." I bury my face into his neck.

"I'm scared that you'll realize that you're still young and you can find someone as young as you are."

"I don't need someone young." I looked up at him.

"You do, Taylor. You need so much more than this."

"You're wrong, Ry. You're completely and totally wrong." I sigh out. He gave me a half smile before kissing me on my lips slowly. "We'll be okay. Once we're settled in Berkeley or wherever we'll be okay."

"Yeah, I hope so."

"How did I get here?" I laid my head down on his chest so I could hear his heartbeat. "I spent that year and a half trying to keep my relationship with Seth. I trusted Oliver. I…I'm pregnant. My mother hates me…God, I've made a mess out of my life." He ran his hand through my hair. "When's Summer getting here?"

"An hour." He checked his watch.

"Would you totally hate me if I fell asleep? I am so exhausted…"

"Go ahead." He laughed a little before I shut my eyes. I sighed happily snuggling as close as I could to his body, even closer than I thought was possible.

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"You okay?" Summer glanced over at me after she picked me up from Ryan's. I hadn't wanted to leave. I had somehow gotten emotional having to say bye to him again.

I wouldn't get to see him until after the baby was born and I was out of the hospital. He wouldn't even be there when I gave birth.

"No, I don't think so…"

"What's wrong?" She asked pulling her car into my driveway.

"Everything." I whisper.

"What do you mean? No, don't cry." She said as she saw the tears in my eyes.

"Sorry, I can't really help it."

"You're going to get through this, Taylor. Everything's going to work out and you'll be okay."

"Camdyn Summer Atwood, that's the baby's name."

"What?" She widened her eyes.

"I just thought you should know. Honestly I'd name the baby after you even if we didn't make that promise. You're my best friend, Sum. You're the only person who's really been with me through all of this. I wouldn't have been able to do this without you…" I looked up at her from my hands and I saw the tears in her eyes.