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Chapter 11

Ashley's POV

I've managed to avoid Spencer for two weeks now. It's getting really hard to not talk to her, and Mrs. C keeps staring at me as if she's trying to figure something out.

What am I gonna do about her? I want to be with her, but I'm so scared she'll just throw me away again when it gets rough. To make matters worse Aiden has been all over Spencer. My Spencer. She seems to hate his advances as well.

Madison and Kyla keep telling me I need to talk to her. Make things right but I keep refusing. She hurt me really bad, and I'm not one to forgive and forget easily either.

I have become and insomniac since she broke up with me. I dream of her every night and it kills me, so I don't sleep. I look awful; well that is what Mads keeps telling me. Spencer doesn't look much better though. I'm sure she hasn't been sleeping either.

I need her as much as she needs me. What am I gonna do?

Spencer's POV

Because I dream of her every night, I haven't slept in weeks. Death would be the only way to describe the way I look right now. The dark circles do nothing for my appearance. What am I gonna do about her? I want her back but I'm pretty sure she will never give me another chance. I don't blame her though I did just push her away as soon as it got hard.

My mom and Glen have been trying to help me figure out a way to get her back. I would have never thought in a million years that my mom would be okay with me being gay. I was so wrong about her. She's a great person. I love her so much. She has been staring at Ashley a lot though, I'm pretty sure she freaking her out with it. I think she's just trying to figure her out or maybe trying to see what I see when I look at my Ashley. Damn it! She's not my Ashley anymore. I gave her up. I'm so fucking stupid.

Glen claims that he has came up with a foolproof plan to get my girl back. I'm not to sure about it since most of his plans backfire leaving someone covered in shit. Unless Aiden is the one covered in it 'because that would be great. He has been flirting or stalking, depending on how you see it, for the last several weeks. Ash's calf idea is sounding a lot better to me now.

Dad still isn't talking to me. I've tried and tried. All he does his walk away from me whenever I approach him. He is being so hateful towards me, and I thought with him helping kids all his life he would be the understanding one. I was wrong. I still love him. I just wish he could love me for me regardless of my sexuality, I'm still the same person I was before I told him I was gay. He'll come around. I hope.

"SPENCER!" My brother running up to me brings me out of my thoughts.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. I just wanted to let you know that the plan 'Get Spashley' together is a go for this weekend." Spashley?

"Spashley? What is that Glen?"

"You know where you merge two names together. I thought it was cool."

"How long did it take you to come up with that?"

"Shut up Spence!" It must have at least taken him a week with that response. "Dad's leaving Friday for a few days, so now would be perfect."

"Okay"

Ashley's POV

We're going on a camping trip for the weekend. Great. Just what I wanted to do, spend three days in the woods sleeping on the floor, I cannot wait. Can anyone say sarcasm? To make matters worse, I will not be able to avoid Spencer at all. Damn Mrs. C for making us do this.

"Everyone got there packs packed?" The older blonde woman looks at all of us with her clipboard in hand. "Good. Everyone mount your horses."

Did I forget to mention that we are going on horse back? My ass is gonna be so sore when we get there. I did find it amusing that Spencer and Glen put Aiden on a horse called Psycho though. I hope he lives up to his name.

Madison ended up riding double back with Glen claiming that she was scared to ride by herself, so Mrs. C is coming now.

"Ready?" Glen yells. "Let's get going." We turn our horses in the right direction and we're off on an adventure in the woods with the bears, snakes, and bugs. I think I would rather deal with bugs and snakes instead of bears.

How long have we been riding these blasted creatures? I can't feel my ass at all. I hope it's still there. The ride hasn't been completely awful though. Aiden was thrown from his horse several times. The last time he fell, he landed in a small swamp we where riding by. Finally Mrs. C made Glen trade with him. I did catch Spencer laughing to herself about it. Hell I was laughing right along with everyone else too.

"We are here!" Spencer says. I miss her voice.

Spencer's POV

It took us about two hours to set-up camp. Glen and I have never laughed so hard in our lives watching them trying to set-up the tents. Mom gave us a stern look when she saw we where not helping them. Now came the question of who to help. Glen went straight for Madison and Kyla, which left me to choose between Aiden and Ashley. There is no way I'm helping that asshole. Ashley it is.

"Hey. Do want some help?" I gesture towards the tent, which now looks more like a hazard to be in then a safe place to sleep. I look down in shame waiting for her answer.

"Why don't you go help Aiden so you can be who your dad and mom want you to be?" I deserve that.

"Please..." She cuts me off.

"No! Leave me alone Spencer!"

"Sorry" is muttered to her as I leave her alone. I make my way over to my horse. He always makes me feel better.

Ashley's POV

I wiped away the few tears that escaped after she turned and left me to the tent again. I hate the affect she has on me. There is also a sinking feeling in me that we are sharing a tent this weekend since there is only four. Maybe she will stay with her mother instead.

"I hate you." I scream out.

Kicking one of the tent poles "Fucking tent." I sit down to pout. Maybe I shouldn't have sent Spencer away.

"Want some help?"

"Sure Glen thanks."

We get the tent up rather quickly after that. I can tell that Glen wants to ask or tell me something but he's not sure how to bring it up.

"Ashley can I ask you something?"

"Sure." Please don't be about Spencer.

"Why won't you talk to Spencer?"

"Look Glen. It's none of your business, but since you probably will not leave me alone I'll tell you." Sighing, "She broke my heart."

"I know she did, but she's sorry. Spencer is hurting too. I think you two should talk." Without another word, Glen turns and leaves me to think it over.

Later that night, we are all sitting outside in the woods in the dark. I have never been scared of the dark before, but some of the noises coming from around us are scaring the shit out of me.

"Who wants another marshmallow?" I'm pretty sure Mrs. C is on something because she is acting strange. Her eyes don't hold that same indifference like before. She seems more open and maybe more accepting.

"No one? Fine. Okay. Sleeping arrangements then." She pulls that clipboard out again. I sure that woman plans her bathroom breaks too. "Madison and Kyla, Glen and Aiden, and Spencer and Ashley. I'm by myself. Alright then. Everyone get to your tents. We have a long day ahead of us tomorrow." With that she gets up and goes into her own tent.

Glen, Madison, and Kyla all get up and head to there tents leaving Aiden, Spencer, and me alone in front of the fire. Our little triangle isn't even a real triangle. Aiden wants Spencer. Spencer wants me and I want Spencer. God I want Spencer!

"You know Spence. If you want I'm sure Glen would sleep somewhere else if you want to share a tent with me." I'm gonna kill him.

"Not in a million years asshole!" Spencer storms off towards our tent. I just smirk.

Getting up I make my way to the tent. This going to be a fun night.

Spencer's POV

"I can't believe that asshole," I say to no one as I get my sleeping bag ready. "He actually thought I would sleep with him in his tent!" I scream out.

"Don't hold back tell me how you really feel." Ashley enters and she actually spoke to me.

"You're talking to me now?"

"Yeah. I think we should talk." Please don't let me blow it. Please God.

"Ashley I'm so sorry. Please believe me when I say that. I shouldn't have pushed you away. I should have fought to keep you. I was wrong. Please. Please forgive me." I get out in one breath with tears in my eyes.

"Why? Why did you have to break up with me Spencer? Why?" She has tears in her eyes too.

"I was scared. I... I didn't want to lose my father. I lost him anyway. The worst part was that I lost you too. I'm so sorry Ashley."

She's shaking her head "You're scared? That's not a reason Spencer. Why did you throw me away? Why when I LOVED YOU!" The last part was screamed out. Her confession left me speechless. She loved me. She loved...wait loved not love.

"You loved me or do you love me?" I ask, with a little hope in my voice, moving closer to her.

"Don't." She stops my advancement. "You hurt me Spencer."

"I'm sorry. I was wrong." I look up into her eyes so she would know I was sincere with what I was about to say. "Ashley, I love you. I fell for you the instant I saw you in my room that first day. Please tell me you still feel the same way. Please I love you. I miss you so much. I don't give a shit what my father thinks." I move closer to her.

Another inch I will be kissing her again. "I love you." I go in for the kiss, but she stops me.

"What about your mother?" Her eyes are completely focused on me waiting for my answer.

Smiling a little "She knows everything. She's fine with it." That nose crinkling smile that I've missed returns to her face.

"I've missed you too Spence." The mere inch that was between us is no more. The lips that I missed for weeks now are kissing me. Gentle and slow instead of rushed and needy. The kiss is perfection. Ash pulls back from me, and I groan in frustration.

"I do love you." We both smile before we come together in another kiss.