Chapter 2

EmPOV

Rose was again with Alice in the mall. I just couldn't get what the two of them were doing in this mall all the time. As if there were any clothes left that they already didn't own.

Carlisle was at the hospital again, he hardly came back here and I didn't blame him. If I had a chance to run away from here that was what I would be doing. This place was such a boredom and was torture to stay here with Edward and his constant depression. Jasper was sitting with me on the couch and I really couldn't remember the last time we played with the wii. As if we played with anything. The TV was on and again the music channel was on mute. Edward hated to listen to music since we left Forks and we didn't want to piss him off so we just watched. Jasper was in constant depression and I really felt sorry for him. The dull expression on his face was only litten when he had seen Alice, but she was gone again so I just sighed and turned my attention to the TV again. There was something new, I hadn't seen this clip before. Must be some new group, but i thought the mood in it is just like the mood in the house I was living. All this snow and the piano the girl is playing on. OH, nooooo…..

I looked at Jasper who was watching somewhere in the nowhere but he felt my gaze and turned his attention to me .I just pointed to the TV without a word and saw the expression

on his face. I was not wrong. That was Bella. I jumped and dragged Jasper from the room to my Jeep and drove off.

"Oh, man, did you just saw this?" I noticed the horror on Jasper face.

"Do you think he heard our thoughts? Oh, dude, hope we were fast enough." Jasper was speechless, a state I haven't seen him for quite a time.

"Is that really her? It couldn't be her. There were 10 years since we last saw her and she was.. oooohh.. man…. Noooo…. It couldn't be that… she was the same…." Jasper looked at me and I saw in his eyes that he was thinking the same thing.

"Oh, man.. She can't be vampire! " I couldn't believe it but deep inside I felt a wave of joy which overwhelmed me. My sister was one of us. Finally there was something good in the world.

"Em, don't be so happy. You know that Edward will freak out. We can't tell him anything." Jasper was pleading and I knew he was right. Just I couldn't stop the happiness from the thought that our family can be whole again.

"Em, where are we going by the way?"

"To the mall. How can you ask? " I looked at him like he has lost his mind. I really needed to find out as much as I can. My sister was on MTV and I needed to know what the hell is going on. We haven't bought any music for, let me think, seems like 10 years. Since we left Bella in Forks.

As soon as we got to the mall and parked the Jeep in front of it I saw Rose and Alice running in human speed to us.

"Em, Jass, I just got a vision of you in here and … what are you doing here? What happened? I haven't seen anything wrong with Edward.." Alice said all that in a second and looked at Jasper. He just looked bewildered and didn't know what to say.

"Alice, we were in the living room and we watched TV when there was a clip and you will never guess who was in it." Alice was looking at me expectantly and Rose came to me and punched me.

"Who was in it ,Emmett?"

"Bella…" The two of them just stared at me and it seemed like they were in shock.

"What are you talking about, Emmett? Are you out of your mind? Bella? Like Bella?" Rose was looking at me disapprovingly.

"Yeah, Bella like our Bella. Me and Jasper are going to the music store to find the CD. Are you coming?" They all ran after me and in no time we were there. I saw the name of the band and tried to find the CD in the music section. It was everywhere- it seemed they were quite famous but since we didn't care much about music we haven't noticed anything about the band till was a DVD as well with their clips and we took them both. We paid and hurried out of the mall. When we got to the cars Alice stopped.

"We can't go home. Edward will hear us. I don't think it is a smart idea to see all of this."

"Let's go to a hotel for some time. I will call Esme and tell her we will be out for the night but won't tell her about Bella for now." Said Rose and we all agreed with her.

The nearest hotel was not very luxurious but I hoped there were some DVD players in there so we just booked the first apartment they offered us and headed to it. As soon as we got in there I put the DVD in it and put the volume on max.

The first song was the one me and Jasper saw on MTV. When I heard the voice I was sure it was Bella. And I really felt shivers when I heard what she was singing.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow
Oh but God I want to let it go

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone
Couldn't hide the emptiness you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow

Don't want to let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go
Let me go

Darling, I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place among the ashes

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium, stay in love with you
Oh I'm gonna let it go

We all looked like something very hard had stricken us. Jasper was shaking from the intensity of the emotions he felt. Bella was so devastated that we all wanted to cry if we could. She looked so gorgeous and beautiful that even Rose was little jealous but the pain in her eyes was so enormous I felt like falling. Alice was dry sobbing and all she was saying was' How could we… how could we… "

The clip was only Bella, a piano and the snow around it. When it was over the other clip started. The name of the song was "My immortal" and we all knew to whom all the songs would be dedicated . The clip was again Bella all in white and the pain she felt.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
by your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you´re gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

We all watched without a word and I thought I was not the only one with nothing to say. It hurt to see our little sister so broken and we knew that was all our fault. I wanted to turn it off but Jasper stopped me and we watched the whole DVD. In the end there was an interview with the band and we listened to everything she said. Bella was sitting in a sofa with 3 men-in fact they were vampires, because their eyes were the same colour as ours- and she looked extremely gorgeous in her purple dress. One of the man was embracing her and I heard the protective growl from Jasper. Well, I felt the same way- who was he to embrace my little sister. I dreamed about hitting his face, but Rose just looked at me as if she knew what I was thinking and I silently listened to the interview.

"Bella, everyone knows that you are behind all the songs as writer. Is there a specific person to whom you write all the songs?" asked the reporter.

Bella looked at the others of the band who just nodded to encourage her and she answered in her melodic voice; "Well, every song writer has to have a muse. And I write what I feel ,so, it seems like the answer to the question is yes. There is a specific person but that's all I will tell about this."

" Your first album was huge success. You were number one for 38 weeks and won 4 Grammy's .How do you feel about that?" The man next to Bella answered:

"Well, it was difficult in the beginning. All the attention we got –it was an end to our lives because there was no peace and anonymity after that. I think Bella got through this harder than the others."

"Yeah, I have lived all my life in a small town and all the lies and the news about me everywhere just pissed me off but I'm fine now. I hardly pay any attention ." said Bella while she was smiling at the man next to her.

"There is a lot of speculation about the connection between the two of you. Bella, is it true that you and Steve are more than colleagues?"

Alice looked frightened from the question and stared at Rose who had identical expression on her face. They were interrupted by Bella's answer.

"I think that our personal life is not important- what matters is our music. All I will say is that our connection is more than that. We are friends." Steve smiled at her and the other man with the blond short hair got her hand and patted it encouragingly.

The other part of the interview was about their new album and the songs in it.

"Bella, is it true that you tried to kill yourself?" the men in the band all stiffen at the question and Bella's eyes were for a second pitch black and full of pain.

"It seems like everyone wants to know the answer to this question. In fact that is true. There was a very hard period in my life when I didn't have a reason to live and maybe that brought me to this decision. That's in fact how I met Steve. He was the one who saved me. And that was how we started the band."

We stopped the DVD. Alice looked devastated and Jasper and Rose just collapsed on the sofa.

"What have we done to her?" Alice's eyes looked blank.

"It seems like we completely destroyed her. But we found her now. I think we should bring her back with us. In fact she is our little sister." All looked at me like I have said something stupid.

"How do you think she will react when she sees us? Look at her! She is broken!" Rose just stared at me trying to persuade me to look at things from her point of view.

"I know , but we can try. Come on, Edward haven't stopped loving her for a second and I'm sure she loves him too. Come on, guys. We've got to do something. Look at our family! It is falling apart!" I looked broken . I just couldn't think of anything else to say.

"Emmett is right. But how can we get to her? I mean she is a star for god's sake! And these three don't look like they didn't care." Jasper pointed to the other members of the band.

"This is going to be hard. But you know ,I have connections " Alice's face lit up as she said that and got her phone frantically browsing through the numbers in her phonebook.

"What about Edward?" We all looked at Rose when she said that. She was right. There was no way we should tell him. At least not now.

"I think we should block our thoughts for some time when we are around him." Said Jasper cautiously. Alice thought for some time and said.

"I think that is best. I don't see him finding out from us, so it is decided. Block your thoughts and never -I said never- think of Bella. I don't know what to do about Carlisle and Esme."

"Better tell Carlisle but I'm not sure about Esme. She looks so depressed that it is possible to forget to guard her mind and Edward could see what she is thinking. " Rose said. We all agreed that for now Esme and Edward should not be told.

"So, we have to find a way to contact Bella." I said and then I heard Alice talking on the phone. She ended the conversation and there was an enormous smile on her face.

"The band is about to have a tour around the country. And guess who has 4 tickets?" She was jumping up and down and Rose joined her. Jasper was smiling as well and I felt happiness at the thought that we would have our little sister back.

"I think we should buy tickets for the first flight to Los Angeles" said Alice and she and Rose headed to the mall to get all they needed for our trip.

"Emmett, Jazz, I think it is better not to go back to the house. Edward might feel we are up to something … " Alice said and we both nodded. Jasper went to the TV and switched it on. We just stared at the clips of the band, still not believing that this is our little sister.