Chapter 4

JPOV

In 3 hours we were in Los Angeles airport .The plane landed and as soon as we were in the hotel I called Carlisle.

"Carlisle, I have to tell you something. But promise not to tell anything to Edward. At least not for the moment" .

"Jasper, what happened?" I felt the worry in his voice.

"We are in Los Angeles. Emmett and I saw Bella in a clip on MTV and we bought tickets for the concert of her band." As soon as I had said it I regretted the decision to tell him.

"What have you done? Are you sure? How can it be Bella?"

"Carlisle, she is a vampire. And we are here to talk to her. How's Edward?" Alice was next to me, trying to hear what Carlisle was speaking.

"Well, this changes everything. I am just worried what will happen. Is she willing to see you? Just try to make it right. And about Edward, I am worried as well. He shouldn't know. I am afraid he is worse than before." I felt Carlisle broke and was amazed-he hardly showed his feelings-his control was indisputable.

"What do you mean?"

"Esme called. He haven't hunt for 3 weeks and he is just catatonic. I'm going home now. Hope to change something."

"Carlisle, please, don't tell Esme .I know Bella is like a daughter to her, but we don't know what will happen here and don't want Edward to find out."

"Jasper, don't worry. Esme and Edward won't find out. Just bring Bella back."

I hang up the phone and looked at the others.

"Edward is worse than before. We got to do something before he's done something stupid. Carlisle is on his way to home and won't tell anything."

They all were worried and relieved at the same time. The concert was supposed to begin in 1 hour so we all got ready and went to the car we rented. In 40 min we were at the stadium. The crowd in front of it was enormous and I could feel the anticipation and joy and lust from all the people gathered. Alice was bouncing in her Manolo Blahnik's and Emmett and Rosalie were giggling. We all were very eager and full of joy that we will see our little sister once again, even though we were not so sure we could talk to her. The guards must be hundred and there was no way to get through them.

Finally we were at our seats. There were people every where and we could hardly move. Alice caught my hand and squeezed it to encourage me, even though even for a second I haven't felt the desire to drink anybody's blood. I was overwhelmed by other emotions –mine and from the people around me. Everyone was screaming Bella's name and I felt quite exited.

Exactly on time the enormous spotlights lit the stage and on the screens there was the clip of "Bring me to life". Alice was screaming with everyone and Emmett and Rose were looking very exited. The three men of the band got on the stage and there were applause all around me. They started playing and then I saw Bella coming. She was gorgeous -wearing black gothic corset, with pink tutu and punk boots. Her hair was straight and quite long and she had a lot of make-up. Her face was on all of the screens. The crowd went wild.

"What's up, Los Angeles? We are very glad to be here tonight on our first tour. We love yea." She bowled to the crowd. Alice and Rose were jumping up and down and screaming.

"We dedicate this concert to all the people who love us. Enjoy. Our first song is called "bring me to life" "Then she started singing. Her rich melodic voice filled the silence and the audience was singing with her. Her eyes were filled with pain and I could feel the emotions that radiated of her- love, hurt , anger, regret and so much sorrow. I closed my eyes- I felt like falling. Alice was holding my hand, and I was grateful she was there for me.

"Our next song is "Lithium". I dedicate this song to the one person I loved."

We all looked at one another, knowing for who she was singing this song. Rose and Alice were about to cry and I hardly could stay still from all the emotion pouring at me at this moment. Bella sat in front of the piano placed on the stage and started playing. We all listened hypnotized to her voice and her pain, while she was bearing her soul in front of us.

There was so many sadness in her music that I understood that this was her way to cope with the emotions. I just couldn't understand how we could leave her so easily and I really felt sorry for what we have done.

After three more songs Bella said:

"Ok, Los Angeles. Have a break! " And she disappeared behind the stage to change.

The crowd was screaming and there was some band to entertain us while Bella was gone.

Alice turned to me:" We got to find a way to talk with her? Do you think there is a way to go backstage?" she looked at me with pleading eyes and I didn't know what to say to her.

"Alice, there is hardly anything that I want more than this, but I don't know how to do it. You saw the guards. Maybe if we talk to the manager of the band or find her house…"

"Jasper, I think I know somebody who can help. Remember the guy from the camp? He is in the music industry. I'm sure he can try to reach her manager." Rose was very exited by the idea, even though Emmett was glaring at her, and I felt the jealousy radiating from him.

"Em, calm down! We are trying to find a way to talk to Bella! If he can help…"

"Sorry, Jazz. Just the guy was all around Rose…" he was shaking from jealousy but Rose kissed him passionately.

"You know I think only about you, Emmett!" There was a huge grin on his face.

Rose called the guy and in 5 min we were granted with backstage passes. Alice was beyond herself from joy and Emmett was mumbling something like "I'll hug my baby sister" all the time.

There were screams all over the place and I saw Bella coming back on the stage. She was wearing a dazzling purple mini dress without any strings which was perfect for her .Her hair was in a messy bun, and I felt the pride coming from Alice.

"We are back, Los Angeles. How are you feeling? Wanna some more? "Bella was walking all around the stage with the microphone when she announced the next song.

"For the next song I want to invite one special person. Steve, come here. "She took his hand and hugged him and she didn't let him go. He took the other microphone and said:

"This song is dedicated to Bella. We all love you, Bells."

They sang together, their voices matching perfectly. His eyes never left hers, like there were no other people around him. I could feel from my place that he loved her more than she knew. I knew that he could have made her happy, but her feelings were very complicated. There was sorrow, love, regret and self-loathing and I was bewildered why she felt this way.

Bella sang some more songs and the audience was jumping and singing with her, like all of us. The show was great with extremely beautiful effects and we were very happy that we came but it was near the end and we went to the backstage to get our passes and prepare ourselves for the meeting that was about to change our lives.