A/N sorry it took me some time to update. I finally managed to spend some time writing these chapters, and i'm very grateful to all of you who read my story. In fact I don't think it is good, but i enjoy writing it, so i wouldn't be offended by rude comments. :) And as you know, i don't own the characters...

Chapter 7

BPOV

'Please, I want to be alone. Give me some time…" I saw them leaving the room and I closed the door. I couldn't resist the anguish and felt like suffocating from all I could have said. So many things were unsaid and I just kept silence.

I slid on the door and when I reached the floor all I could do was to whisper:

"Oh, God! Help me!" and I was obsessed by the sobs.

I needed to move. That was my eternal inner argument since he left me. Should I make the effort or not. I didn't see the point. Why, oh, Why did you have to come back into my life? Why did you bring back all I was trying to forget? Why did you bring back this killing pain? I needed to move. Then everything would be back to normal. But not a single cell in me believed me. I knew that nothing could be ok, not when they were back. Was it not enough all I've been through? I needed to move, just one little move. Just to get to the phone- I was sure that Steve could bring me something to dull the pain. One of the things I remembered from my human life was the forgetfulness these drugs brought me. The feeling was now not intense as it used to be back then, I didn't know the reason why, but it was something. I just needed to get to the phone. But how could you make something which is dead to move? Who was I trying to delude? I was dead. In every aspect- my body and my soul. Oh, Steve, why didn't you leave me to die when I could?

I didn't remember how I got up, somehow I managed to persuade my non responding body to get to the table and dialed Steve's number.

"What's up, babes?" Steve's voice was cheerful.

"I need you." I couldn't recognize my voice- was it me that whispered those words?

"Bells, I'll be there in a minute. Don't do anything stupid." I heard the engine and I hung up the phone.

I was again falling in an abyss. I desperately tried to calm myself, but my feelings were suffocating me and I just couldn't reach the surface. I felt like drowning in the pain, but I felt content- I got used to being in that state. In what seemed like eternity I heard a knock on the door. I saw Steve burst in the room .He looked quite scared and he frantically looked around the room.

"Where are they, I'll kill them. Babes, are you ok? Please, talk to me!" He collapsed next to me and took me in his embrace.

"Bells, please, please, talk to me…"

I looked at him and all could do was to whisper:

"Just make me forget…"

" Babes, you know that if I could I would do it. " the desperation in his voice was killing me. I didn't want him to suffer, he was the one who deserved happiness. But I couldn't do anything to make things right. In my blank despair I thought to forgive Edward and to end my miserable existence in Voltura. But they wouldn't kill me. They would try to make me stay there and my existence would become more pathetic, because I would become a prisoner.

'Please, just make me forget." I was watching him with pleading eyes. My only hope for salvation was death. All I knew was that I could never have his love- I gave all I have to him, and he took it all, and now I was left with nothing except for the shattered remainders of a broken soul and a missing heart.

"Bells… you know I love you more than my own life…what to do? Just tell me what to do?" his voice was shaking of the emotions he was trying to hide.

"Bring Jasper." The only one I felt like talking. I needed his cold arms and his smoothing presence. He was so much like him- he felt like home.

Steve hesitated for a moment then left me on the bed. I heard the door slamming behind him and just stared at the blank spot on the wall.

In 5 min I heard somebody entering the room and I knew it was Jasper the second I felt the wave of calm in the room. He came to the bed and layed next to me, and all I wanted him to do was to take me in his hands. He felt my desire and embraced me. I put my head on his chest, remembering all the nights I have spent with Edward lying like that. I couldn't bear any more of this. I was beyond broken, and just wanted some peace.

"Jasper, please take me home…" was all I could manage to whisper. I felt him stiffen and then he stroked my hair and told me:

"I will take you home"…

RPOV

We took an apartment in the same hotel in which Bella was staying. Alice haven't said a single word since we left Bella's apartment and I was wondering if it was a good idea to come here after all. Bella was trying to live her life without us and our appearance seemed like only made things more difficult for her. Emmett was not the same- he was silent and it hurt to see him like that. Jasper was still trying to cope with the feelings Bella brought to his constant depression. And I felt more down than ever.

"Oh, no. Her future is so unsure .She just keep changing her mind. She plans seeing Edward for last and going to the Volturi." Alice was having a vision and we were all stuck in horror listening to her. Her eyes were again their normal topaz color when she said:" she won't do it. But I can't see her now."

I jumped when I heard someone knocking. I could smell it was a vampire but was surprised to see one of the band-Steve- in front of me.

"I need to talk to you." His was mad of worry. He just stood there not knowing what to do.

"She is worse than ever. I haven't seen her like that and I have seen her in a lot of bad moments. Just don't… " his voice broke. His took a deep breath and went on"…Just don't know what to do. How to help her. "

Alice jumped and went to him.

"Steve, we will do everything to help her. We will never leave her again." She was sobbing and trying to comfort him.

"She wants to talk to Jasper." He said that and left.

We stared at the spot where he used to stay and finally Jasper rushed to the other room. Alice closed her eyes and in a minute there was a faint smile on her lips.

"She will come back home". She opened her eyes and hugged me" Rose, she will be home again." I felt relief for first time in the last days and if there was a tiny chance things to be back to normal I was willing to do anything . Emmett was with a huge grin on his face and I felt urge to kiss him with all the passion I had.

But there was one tiny problem- Edward. What were we supposed to do with him? Bella never told that she planned forgiving him, she obviously wanted to be back home –not to feel lost, to feel that she belonged somewhere, to the motherly Esme and Carlisle, who was like her father. But there was Edward who would be broken when he would see the girl he adored more than life itself. He was my brother, and even though I loved Bella I couldn't allow something like that to happen to Edward. I was torn apart between them- I loved them both and I couldn't choose between them. 10 years ago I chose Edward and seeing Bella now I thought I made the wrong choice when I decided it was better for us to leave. We left her and she was devastated. If I did choose her now would this be the right choice? Would this devastate Edward? I just couldn't leave any of them. And it seemed like there was no future in which they would be together.

"I think we should call Carlisle. Think about Edward, he will be broken. He already is. And Bella is not sure she can forgive him." I looked at them and they agreed. Alice dialed Carlisle's number and I heard his voice in the speaker.

"Carlisle, Bella wants to come back home. But she is ….I can't describe how she is. You will see for yourself. But she is not sure she can forgive Edward." Alice's voice broke down.

"I guess I have to tell him and Esme. When are you coming back?"

"As soon as we buy tickets. Maybe by tomorrow will be home."

"Ok, I will wait for you. Is there any hope for them?"

Alice hesitated then said with shaking voice

"I don't know."

We stood there motionlessly, waiting for Jasper. When he entered the room we all jumped and looked at him expectantly.

"We are leaving with the first fly to Chicago. I can't bear what the two of them are going through! If feelings could kill I would have been dead million times. Just can't it bear any more." Jasper sat on the sofa for a moment before he gathered himself and turned to Emmett.

"Bella is in her room. I have already called for the tickets and the plane leaves in 2 hours. Bring her to the car while we deal with everything here."

We were ready in 5 min and met Emmett in the elevator. Bella managed to stand on her feet and we rushed by the crowd of reporters. They tried to get to her but Emmett just snarled silently and they all backed up.2 hours later we were on the plane with Bella between Emmett and Jasper. She called the others of the group and told them to postpone the other concerts of the tour for now. She was little better and I was praying with all my damned soul that she and Edward would finally be together.