Thanks for everyone's reviews, i'm sorry I haven't posted for a while but school has been mad, teachers, coursework and all

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Jack and Sam sat there for what seemed like forever both happy to able to be so close to on another without having a major apocalyptic event ten minutes away.Eventually Sam's attention began to wander and almost unconsciously she began to look into Jack's mind. In Jack's relaxed state his defenses were down and he didn't even sense her gentle probing.

Sam saw wonders and horrors in Jack's mind some that she had been present for and some that were unknown to her. It wasn't until Sam began to become aware of what she was doing that she sensed the emotions that he felt with these memories.

Realising what she was doing she began to draw back but Jack had already realised what she was doing and urged her to remain surprising even himself at how open he was being with her. She began to look deeper and came across his deepest and darkest fears.

Sam No!!!!!! In Jack's mind she saw herself dying in so many ways and felt the guilt the guilt that accompanied these fears.

Jack what are these?

Sam, please, i'd rather you hadn't seen that, can we leave it.

NO! Jack your hurting and its my fault.

Colonel!

No JACK! Tell me now!

Sam, please, I don't do feelings.

Jack, i'm your friend, don't keep everything bottled up, it's the worst thing you can do.

Says you Sam. Jack thought and Sam realised he had a point.

How about we make a deal, you let me help you and I'll let you help me? Can you deal with that?

I dunno Sam. Jack thought, even with Sam he was reluctant to open up to anyone.

Fer cryin' out loud Jack, this is me. Jack almost laughed, he had had more of an influence than she'd ever admit on her over the last few years. Sam heard him but decided to let it pass, there wasn't really anyway she could deny it when he was able to read her thoughts.

OK Sam, but i'm not really used to this, you go first. I don't like opening up to people, it normally just leads to more problems.

Jack, when have I ever caused you problems?

I dunno Sam try the last eight years. Sam grinned, she loved his witty comments, even if they were annoying sometimes.

Me annoying Carter? Again Sam grinned.

Don't try and change the subject Sir not going to work.

I know Carter, I know. Jack thought suddenly becoming serious. You first.

Flashback

"Sammie, are you OK?" A much younger Jacob Carter appeared at Sam's doorway, a sixteen year old Sam was sat on the bed, having just returned from a day of torture at school. She was the class swat, she knew it, everyone else knew it, now that Mark had moved away she no longer had anyone to stand up for her, not that she needed anyone, Sam Carter was perfectly capable of defending herself, but how could you defend yourself against words, sure they were just words but that didn't mean that they didn't get to her. But she was Sam Carter, she didn't care if people called her, it didn't bother her at all.

"I'm fine Dad." she replied, since she wasn't facing her Dad he didn't see the tears which were slowly running down her face, but then he never did, Sam made sure of that. When she sat alone all day at school, when she stood alone at dinner, when she walked home alone at night, no sign of her torture flickered across her face, it wasn't until she was alone at home in her room, her sanctuary that the mask fell and she allowed the tears to flow.

It seemed so stupid and she knew it, but it was her life and it was pointless with everyone hating her what was the point?