chapter 3 healing after the break up

It has been 5 days since me and shane broke up and every single one of those days i have been crying. shane has called me 5 times today and its only noon. i have gotten 4 texts from him,7 voicemails and he has come to my house 9 times in the past 5 days. "i cant believe he did that and he just wont give up." she said still pondering the thought of him cheating on me. "yea well guess what he did. now id appreciate it if you would stop saying that." i said. "ok today you are not sitting in the house regretting some stupid guy. today we are going to go have some fun." she said. i just gave her look saying what-are-you-thinking. "just trust me and get dressed." she left the room. i got up put on some sweats and a hoodie and my converse. "ok ready to go. oh no you cant go to the mall like that." she said and pulled me into our gynormous closet and i came out in red high heels, blue skinnies,and a white tee shirt. "much better." she said. we got to the mall and the one person that i was going to murder happened to be there. demi walked up to me. "oh poor little anna just cant keep a guy." she said. "you know what demi."i said "you are just a worthless dumb slut. at least when shane did like me he liked me for who i was not because i was easy." i said. "yea well he obviously got bored with you. because he called me and told me to come over." she said "wait what? shane said you came over and you kissed him first." i said. "nope he invited me over and he kissed me first." she said. "oh so he lied to me. well guess what im done with him and im done with you so stay away or we will have some issues." i said "you think im scared of you. yea right if i was scared of you i might as well be scared of a bunny." she said. that little comment pushed me past my limit. i turned around ready to walk away. "oh little baby anna cant fight. boo hoo" she said after she said that i turned around and knocked her square in the face. "yea this girl can fight but unlike you i dont do little sissy slaps." i said and walked away.

shane called once again, i decided i'd answer and hear what he has to say and boy do i regret that. "hello." i said. "anna thank god you answered! look im REALLY REALLY sorry i did what i did." he said "yea what else is new?" i said. "please anna give me another chance. and i promise i wont hurt you again." he said. "do you know how many times i have heard that line?" i asked retorically."more than a million times by every guy that has broken my heart and i am sick and tired of giving people second chances." i said. "anna please. I LOVE YOU! more than anyone can ever understand!" he said. i wanted to give him another chance but i just couldnt i didnt want him to hurt me again. "anna please" he said. "if you truely loved me then you wouldnt have cheated on me." i said. "i know and i completely regret that. if it was possible to go back in time then i would go back and slam the door in demi's face instead of letting her on." "wow." i said. "what?" he asked "after everything your doing you are still pushing that lie." "what? i told you what happened." "yea then demi told me that you called her and you asked her to come over." i replied. "no that is a full on lie to keep her ass outa trouble and put mine in trouble. that IS NOT what happened." he said. "right now i dont know what to believe." i said. "anna please take me back." he begged once again. "i dont know let me think about it." i answered and hung up the phone.

I could see shane doing a happy dance fromm his room and just laughed. i wasnt sure if i was going to forgive him or not. i want to more than anything but i dont want to get hurt. Ahhhhh what should i do??? "JENNNAAAA I NNNEEEEDDDD YYOOOUUUU!!!!" i screamed. "what?! who died??!?!" she said. "no one but im having a crisis." i said. "oh ok." "yea shane just called and i answered and he continued to beg me to take him back and give him a second chance. i want to forgive him more than anything in the world but i dont want to get hurt again. what should i do?!?!?!" i asked. she just sat thinking."i think you should forgive him but dont trust him." she answered. "how in the hell am i supposed to do that?" i asked. "easy, tell him you forgive him but also dont at the same time like be prepared that he might do it again so dont push that thought out of your mind always know that he did it once doesnt mean he wont do it again." she answered. usually i wouldnt understand but i do i know what she meant. "ok well i have to call him and tell him to come over. i want to do this in person." i said. RINNGGG,RINNGGG "hello?" shane answered "hey shane its anna." "oh hey" "can you come over i want to tell you something exteremely important." i said "yea of course give like 5 mintues to get dressed im kind of in my pj's" "ok"

I went out on my patio again and i could see him climbing out his window. he hopped the fence and climbed up the side of my house. "heyy"he said. once he got up the side of the house i gave him a kiss. "does that mean i get another chance?" he asked obviously knowing the answer. "yes but i have some things i got to tell you." i said. "ok im ready for whatever is coming." "ok" i took a deep breath "i will go out with you again but im not going to fully trust you like i did before." i said "only because i dont want to get hurt again and if you screw up im not giving out any more chances this is your last." i said. "ok i totally understand why im not fully trusted. to tell you the truth i dont even know why i did it in the first place. i mean when i was kissing her i was picturing you the whole time. i really wanted to be kissing you but demi had already been over and she literally attacked my face and me being a total asshole and not seeing who it really was kissed back. anna i want to make one thing perfectly clear to you.....i love you more than anyone in the world......and demi will never EVER compare to you. i will never love her more than you in fact i will never love her at all."

it has been 4 years since that day. i am now 19 and still dating shane and jenna and nate finally started dating and danielle and jason are married with 2 kids a boy and girl. today is our 4 year annaversary and we are celebrating it by going out to dinner. "Anna you ready to go?" shane called "yea im coming." i walked downstairs and got my coat and headed out the door. "so where are we going?" i asked "oh you'll see." he drove for about 20 mintues. "hey anna?" "yessumm." "can you close your eyes for me?" he asked "how come?" "its a surprise" he said. "ok fine." i did and he came and opened the door for me and held my hand til we got to where we were going. "ok you can open them." we were on a beach side with a lovely dinner table set for 2. "oh my god shane this is beautiful!" i said he walked me up to the table pulled out a chair for me and pushed me in. "oh my goodness shane this is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me." i said. "just wait the best part hasnt even come yet."he said "you'll get that after dinner." "hmm i will? well i cant wait for it." we at dinner which also happened to be my favorites roasted chicken with cheesey potatoes. yumm "ok dinners done" "ok close your eyes again." "hmm fine." i said "ok now open them" my mouth dropped. shane had gotten down on one knee with a BEAUTIFUL engagment ring in his hand. "anna marie piscotti will you marry me?" shane asked. "oh my god shane..yes yess i will marry you." he got a great big smile on his face and i had tears streaming down my cheek. he hugged me and kissed me. and now we lived happily ever after.