A/N: Thanks a ton for the reviews from…bluebear48 and Nelle07.

Than to Ever Live Without You

Chapter Eight

Laughing Kaelyn sat in her office with Blair as they ate frozen yogurt and talked. It was funny how things worked out with Kaelyn and Blair who had been mortal enemies in High School and were now like the best of friends. Kaelyn and Chuck were home for Christmas during their Junior year of college and Kaelyn had run into Blair and they then reconciled their differences. From then they had become very good friends who did so much together and were always there for one another. It was a lot better for Serena who now didn't always have to pick between them and could spend time with both of them having no problems at all.

"Remember in High School when we went to the Hamptons weekend and you attacked me over Chuck?" Blair asked as she ate a spoon of her yogurt.

"Can I ever forget that?" Kaelyn said with a laugh.

"I know you seriously had my air supply cut off in that moment when you were choking me. I say we find this Amber whore and I hold her down while you put your death grip on her neck." Blair simply stated.

Kaelyn laughed on response. "I seriously don't have the energy to fight her for him now like I fought for him with you."

"Hey I was a bitch." Blair said before taking another spoon of yogurt. "She's even more of a bitch."

Before Kaelyn could respond Nadine was on the speaker. "Mrs. Bass, Mr. Martin is on his way up."

"I see you lover is on his way." Blair said as she stood and started cleaning up where she sat.

"I'm leaving work early so we can hang out and he is going to help me Christmas shop." Kaelyn said in response. It had been a few weeks since Kaelyn and Damien's first date and they had quite a few after that one. She was really starting to warm up to him and she enjoyed all the time that she spent with him. Everyone around her was extremely supportive also and it helped with her decision to continue dating him.

"Awe. Well I will be on my way. Call you later." Blair said as she gave Kaelyn a quick hug and skipped out of the office in order to be gone before Damien arrived.

Kaelyn walked back to her desk and started putting away paperwork when her door opened and Damien stood in the doorway with a smile. Kaelyn looked up and returned the smiled before walking to him and putting her arms around his neck as his looped around her waist. They stood kissing for a second and then Kaelyn found her way out of his arms to grab her purse from her desk.

"I'm ready." She said as she walked to where he was and he put am arm around her waist as they exited the office together.

"You look beautiful today." He whispered into her ear as they got into the elevator.

"Thank you." Kaelyn said with a blush. Dating was all new to her again and she felt fantastic. He always made her blush like a little girl whenever they were together. She hadn't felt that cared for in a long time. It was like when she and Chuck had first started to date, but as the years had gone by in their marriage he had slacked on the way he used to treat her. Damien treated her like a princess in everything they did the way Chuck used to. "You always say the sweetest things."

"I have nothing, but sweet things to say to you." He said as they exited the elevator and walked outside where a car was waiting for them. Getting into the car Damien put an arm around her as they sat in traffic. Kaelyn was frustrated with the traffic and Damien couldn't help, but laugh at her. "You're so sexy when you're frustrated."

"Shut-up." Kaelyn said playfully giving him a nudge. Damien bent down and kissed her.

"So have you and him talked about Christmas?" Damien asked referring to Chuck.

"We haven't spoken in weeks. He missed the last counseling session when he was in France so whenever he gets back we are supposed to have a session before Christmas and I guess we will talk then. He hasn't seen Katherine in two weeks and she has been fussing for him." Kaelyn explained as she looked out of the window.

"Pretty little Kat. I can't wait to get her a gift." Damien said as he put his face into Kaelyn's hair and sniffed. "Kaelyn…" he said.

"Yeah." She said in response still looking out of the window.

"I know you are married and trying work things out, but I enjoy every moment I spend with you and for this to be something more than you dating me would be great, but only if you wanted." He suggested.

Kaelyn then turned to him and looked him in the eyes. "Like being an official couple?" she asked.

"Yeah something like that." He said.

"I'd like that it's just I'm trying to work on my marriage even though we haven't gotten far. To be your girlfriend would be tricky for me." She responded.

"It won't be tricky for me. I will understand if it all works out, but for now how about it?" he asked.

"Alright I guess. I just don't want to get too serious about it." Kaelyn said and then Damien kissed her strongly.

They were having such a good time shopping. The two of them walked through the store looking at things for Kaelyn to buy for other people. They stood in the jewelry section with his hands around her waist as she looked for something to buy Lily. Kaelyn was concentrated on a particular necklace when she heard a familiar voice calling her name and she turned to see Chuck walking up to her with a furious look on his face.

"Who the hell is this?" he asked as he approached her.

"Excuse me?" Kaelyn questioned.

"This guy who is he with his hands on you?" Chuck growled as he stood there looking from Kaelyn to Damien and back.

"He's my boyfriend." Kaelyn said clearly and without fear.

"What the fuck…" Chuck started, but suddenly Damien cut him off.

"We are in a store don't cause a scene." Damien said calmly as he held on tight to Kaelyn who had started to shake in his arms.

"Bitch you are going around and sleeping with this guy now?" Chuck asked his voice still raised.

"Don't call her that. If you are going to talk to her call her by her name, Kaelyn. You have no right to confront her like this you and your little thing over there." Damien pointed out to Amber who was standing in the background. "Let's go Kay." He said to Kaelyn as he started to walk with his arm secured around her waist.

Walking out of the store Kaelyn took a good breath. She felt like she had been holding her breath the entire time. There were tears in her eyes as she stood with Damien's arms around her as he held her to his chest. Kaelyn took deep breathes as she tried to control herself. In just that single moment she felt like everything was crashing down. Damien rubbed her back as he held her close.

"I'm alright." She breathed into his chest.

"Are you sure?" he asked.

"Yeah." She nodded and looked up at him with a weak smile. "Thanks." She said before standing on the tips of her toes to kiss him quickly. "Let's go to another store." She suggested.

"Sounds like a plan." Damien said as he help am arm around Kaelyn's waist and they walked up the street to go inside another store for Kaelyn to finish her shopping.

Walking into her empty apartment Kaelyn turned on the lights as Damien and the doorman walked in holding the bags from her Christmas shopping. Damien gave the doorman a tip before he left them alone in the apartment. Damien walked over to Kaelyn and wrapped his arms around her waist. Standing there He bent down and have her a passionate kiss that sent shivers down Kaelyn's spine.

"Thanks for today and being to calm in the store with Chuck." Kaelyn said as the two of them walked into the living room where Damien sat down and pulled her into his lap.

"You don't deserve to be treated like that and he should know that." He said as he pulled her close. Kaelyn could feel his breath on her skin before he kissed her neck. She bit her lip as she sat with him wanting more than his kisses. She felt so wrong, but then she really accessed the situation and turned to him and kissing him strong on the lips.

Kaelyn then broke the kiss and stood. "This way." She motioned with a finger as she walked towards her bedroom. Suddenly she felt Damien scoop her up in his arms as he then carried her into the bedroom. He sat her down on the bed and Kaelyn started to unbutton his shirt. Working her fingers down she took his shirt off. She felt him as he reached to pull her dress over her head. She moved to help in getting her dress off. As she now sat on the bed in nothing but her bra and panties she suddenly for the first time felt embarrassed about her body. She had never been naked with anyone other than Chuck and it felt so wrong. Suddenly everything she felt wrong with her body was coming to her mind like her stretch marks from when she was pregnant with Katherine and the scares on her body from when Ian raped her. Her breathing was now hard from how nervous she was.

"Are you sure about this?" Damien then asked realizing how nervous she had become.

"Yes." She breathed as she moved to kiss him. She pulled at the buckled of his belt as she loosened it up so she could unbutton and unzip his pants. Pulling his pants down as much as she could he then kicked them off. His body was now over hers as they were only separated by their under garments. Kaelyn then tugged as his boxers in a motion that seemed for a second like she was going to rip them off. He sat her up and reached behind her and unhooked her bra. He started to kiss her lips and worked his way down her neck to her stomach. Kaelyn giggled at the feeling of his lips on her stomach. She then moaned as his lips moved to her thighs and she felt his fingers as the elastic of her panties. "Hurry." She breathes as she pleaded in response to his teasing.

Waking up Kaelyn opened her eyes and sat up in bed. She felt a breeze and realized that she was completely naked. Her mind then went back to the night before and everything had come back to her. She looked over and she noticed that Damien was no where to be found. With a sigh she cursed herself and suddenly thought that she must have been really horrible in bed for him to disappear on her before she even woke up, but then she heard the door open and he walked into the room in only his jeans with still no shirt on with a tray in his hand. As he walked to her with a smile on his face she realized that he was bringing her breakfast.

"For you." He said as he brought the tray to her. Kaelyn pulled the sheet over her body and sat up more so he could sit the tray on her lap. The tray contained a full breakfast as well as a fresh rose.

"Thanks, its wonderful." She said happily.

"I cooked it myself." He said as he sat down next to her and stole a piece of bacon from her plate.

"You did not." She said looking at him.

"I did, your kitchen staff was about to start and I told them that I wanted to cook myself just for you." He said. Kaelyn gave him a smile and was speechless. It was something that Chuck had never done for her. She had breakfast in bed plenty of times that the kitchen staff had made, but he never personally had cooked for her or done anything like that for her.

"So sweet." She then said as she kissed him quickly and then started at her breakfast.

"He doesn't deserve you." Damien then said. "You are too good for him and you need to be treated better and with someone who actually will take care of you."

"Damien." She started in protest.

"No listen to me." He said as he took a finger and lifted her chin and looked her in the eyes. "I care about you and about your daughter and all I want to do is what is right and that is take care of a woman who deserves to be loved. I know we talked about not being too serious, but if you want to be you have me."

"Thanks." She said softly. "That means a lot."

"Now let's enjoy this breakfast." Damien then said with a smile as he picked up what Kaelyn realized was a second fork. The two of them sat together in the bed enjoying what he had made for her. Kaelyn's mind wandered to what he said and now she realized that she was thinking about it seriously.

A/N: I know this is really random, but in a review please respond. I wanted to know if any of you were Harry Potter fans and if so are you going to Terminus next month?