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Than To Ever Live Without You

Chapter 16

It seemed like everything was all wrong to Kaelyn. She sat with Katherine on her lap as she looked through finance records in her office. Georgia had a family emergency and Kaelyn let her go tend to her family while she dealt with Katherine herself. Life at home was just to mixed up. The relationship between Kaelyn and Chuck had gone in reverse, they were now back to where they were fighting nearly everyday. Kaelyn was just plain upset about how everything was going. Sitting there a single tear fell from Kaelyn's eye.

"Daddy!" cheered Katherine and Kaelyn looked up to see Chuck walking into her office. Katherine had her arms lifted for him to pick her up and he did as he approached them.

"Hey baby girl." Chuck said as he held Katherine close. "I thought I'd take her for a while since Georgia is out."

"Thanks." Kaelyn said softly as she tried her best not to cry.

"I'll see you at home later." Chuck said plainly.

"Yeah, see you. Bye Baby." Kaelyn said.

"Bye, Bye." Katherine said as Chuck carried her out of the room.

Kaelyn put her face in her hands and let the tears fall from her eyes. She just couldn't take the stress anymore and she knew that being stressed the way she was wasn't got for the baby at all. Taking a few deep breaths she wiped her tears away because she knew that even though her life was crap she still had a magazine to run and it wasn't going to run itself and she needed to be in top shape to get everything that needed to be done, done in time for deadlines. Looking back down at the finance documents in front of her she took her pen and signed where her signature was needed when the voice of her new intern was over the intercom.

"Mrs. Bass you have a visitor." The intern said. The only issue Kaelyn had was that the intern still needed to learn the names of the people who come in and out of her office and just saying she had a visitor was never enough, but she remembered in college her internship is what got her into the business and all the work experience you could get helped so much.

"Alright, let them in." Kaelyn said as she put the documents she had signed back in the folder and on the cart for the accountant to come and pick up. She looked up and walking into her office was Damien. He still looked the same with the rugged looking shadow on his face and the irresistible smile that always took her breath away. "Damien."

"Hey Kay." He said keeping that irresistible smile on his face as he made his way towards Kaelyn's desk.

"I didn't think you'd come. I sent the letter weeks ago." Kaelyn said.

Damien took a seat in the chair that was in front of Kaelyn's desk. "It took me a minute to realize that it was all real. I at first was so angry and I couldn't come and see you like that so then I gave myself time to calm down." He said looking at Kaelyn and letting his eyes scan her body. "So, we're having a baby."

"Yeah." Kaelyn said with a small laugh before she stood so Damien could see the size of her stomach.

"How far are you?" Damien asked.

"Four months." Kaelyn said as she rubbed her bump.

"I came to check on you. You didn't seem happy at all in your letter and you don't look it. You've been crying." Damien said as he stood and walked over to her and put his arms around her.

"It's just a lot to handle right now, but I'm doing okay." Kaelyn said with a small shrug.

"Just okay…Kaelyn you are supposed to be joyful when you are pregnant." Damien said.

"And where can I find that joy, Damien?" Kaelyn asked as she looked at him seriously.

"You and Chuck, not good I'm guessing." Damien said as she started to run his fingers through her hair.

"That obvious?" Kaelyn asked as she felt herself being drawn closer to Damien.

"Too obvious. Kaelyn if you aren't happy you need to leave." Damien then said.

Kaelyn quickly pulled away from her and starred him in the eyes. "Leave?" she questioned and Damien simply nodded. "Damien I can't just leave. I'm 4 months pregnant with a daughter who is nearly 2. I'm not just going to get up and leave my husband."

"Why not?" Damien then asked, but he spoke before Kaelyn could respond. "He just got up and left you, remember?"

"This is different." Kaelyn then said.

"No it's not. He just left you and now I know he is just making you feel like trash I see it in your eyes. You need to be strong and leave him." Damien stated plainly.

"You make him sound horrible. He isn't a horrible man. We just aren't going through a good time right now."

"He should be supporting you and making you feel like the queen you are, but he isn't and I can see it in your eyes. Kaelyn just leave. I'm here and you know I will never hurt you."

Kaelyn then walked towards the door and opened it. "You have to leave." She stated.

"I will, but just call me Kay. I want to be apart of this baby's life and yours only if you are ready to leave." Damien said as he walked towards the door. He put his hand on Kaelyn's stomach for a second and then he walked out the door leaving Kaelyn standing there.

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Kaelyn found herself in the situation that she had been in nearly every night. She and Chuck stood across from one another in the living room yelling seemingly as loud as they could over nothing that big, but for some reason it was huge in that moment because in the end it came to her being pregnant and then random things were just brought into this simple subject that they had no reason to fight over in the first place. There were tears falling from Kaelyn's eyes as she stood there with him yelling.

"JUST STOP!" Kaelyn screamed as she looked at him. "Why are we fighting?" Kaelyn then just asked in a surprisingly calm voice.

"Because you wanted to bring up some stupid shit." Growled Chuck in an agitated tone.

"You are the one who wanted to fight over it Chuck." Kaelyn then said. "I asked a simple question and here we are arguing. I'm just tired as hell and I'm stressed out beyond reason. Please I don't want to fight over this anymore."

"Whatever then I'm going to bed." Chuck then said as he moved towards the stairs.

Kaelyn stood her breathing rushed as she started to feel light headed. She sat down slowly on the couch realizing that she shouldn't be feeling like this especially while carrying a child. Damien's voice was suddenly in her head from a few days before she he had told her that she should leave. "I just can't do this anymore." Kaelyn then said as she turned to Chuck who was just about to walk up the stairs.

"Can't do what Kaelyn?" he asked.

"This." Kaelyn stated. "Trying to make this work. All the fighting. I'm carrying a baby and this stress isn't helping me stay healthy of the baby and then have you even tried to see how us fighting might affect Katherine."

"Why are you making this about me?" Chuck then asked.

"I was asking a question. I wasn't making it just about you. It's about me to." Kaelyn then said.

"You said, have YOU even tried." He then stated with the agitation and anger coming back into his voice. Kaelyn then wished she hadn't said anything. Chuck had already had a few drinks that night and he can fight and fight if he has been drinking.

"I'm dropping it." Kaelyn then said. "Just go to bed."

"No, we aren't going to fucking drop it because here you go again making it what I did wrong." Chuck then said as he turned to walk back down the stairs. "Let's talk about what you did wrong. How about you sleeping with that piece of shit in the first place and getting your ass pregnant, how about that?"

"Just stop." Kaelyn said frustrated. "I've already told you how sorry I am for what I did and we agreed to move on even after you left me and our daughter for your assistant I stuck it out with you and we agreed as husband and wife to move on from our mistakes. I am sick of fighting about it and if you don't want to move on I will." Kaelyn then stood and started up stairs.

"Where the hell are you going?" Chuck asked.

"Away!" Kaelyn then yelled from the top of the stairs as she made her way into the bedroom and into the closet where she grabbed a suitcase. Putting it on the bed she started to throw some of her clothes inside. Chuck walked into the room to find Kaelyn grabbing clothes.

"You aren't serious?" he asked with a laugh.

"I am. I'm leaving you." Kaelyn said as she pushed past him to go into Katherine's room to get some of Katherine's things. Coming back she held a small pile of Katherine's clothes and she put them in the suitcase and zipped it up. She picked up her cell phone and called down to the doorman. "This is Kaelyn Bass. I need a car to take me to my Aunt's…Thank You." She said before throwing her phone in her purse and picking up the suitcase from the bed and putting it on the floor where she rolled it behind her.

"Kaelyn please you can't be serious." He then said as he grabbed her arm. "I love you and I'm sorry you just can't leave."

"Why can't I?" she then questioned. "You just left so I think I have the right to just leave. So watch me." She said as she ripped her arm away and went out the room with her suitcase. Luckily Katherine was already with Lily so Kaelyn didn't have to deal with her daughter being wrapped in the moment. Kaelyn left Chuck standing in shock in the bedroom.

Walking outside the cold air it her face as Kaelyn held in her tears. The driver put her suitcase in the car while Kaelyn got in the backseat. Sitting back she held her tears during the short ride to her aunt's. When there the driver unloaded her suitcase and the doorman there took it for her. Making her way to the apartment she knocked on the door and Lily opened.

"Kaelyn. I thought I was bringing Kat to you tomorrow?" Lily asked. Kaelyn didn't have any words that were able to escape her mouth. She simply burst into tears. "Oh no. Kaelyn what happened?" Lily asked as she pulled Kaelyn into the apartment and closed the door behind her.

"I left him." Kaelyn then finally said as she sat on the couch. "I just couldn't take all the fighting and the blame and I just left." She cried.

"Mommy!" came a little voice. Kaelyn looked up to see Katherine running towards her.

"Hey, Hey baby girl." Kaelyn said as she quickly wiped her tears away and picked up Katherine.

"Mommy, sad." Katherine said as she looked at Kaelyn's face.

"Oh baby girl. Mommy is gonna be alright, okay?" Kaelyn said feeling as if her heart had been pulled into a million pieces as she looked at the face of her little girl who she knew was seriously concerned.

"O-tay." Katherine said as she hugged Kaelyn.

"Awe, my baby." Kaelyn said actually smiling through her tears because she knew that no matter what she had her little girl with her always.

"Go get the pictures you drew for mommy." Lily said to Katherine who then wiggled from Kaelyn's arms and ran as fast as her little feet could take her into the other room where she returned with a pile of papers. Kaelyn laughed at the multicolored blobs of figures that Kaelyn could only imagine were people to Katherine.

"Mommy." Katherine said as she pointed to a blob. "Me." She then pointed to the smallest of the blobs. "Daddy." Katherine pointed to the last one happily. Kaelyn felt tears in her eyes as she looked at the family portrait that Katherine had made. She loved that they were just random blobs, but in the end they were people that meant so much to Katherine. What Kaelyn could imagine to be the sky was a mix of red and green and what was maybe meant to be the ground was purple.

"It's pretty." Kaelyn said as she held her little girl close to her.

"I'm guessing you are staying here." Lily said to Kaelyn.

"Yeah." Kaelyn said.

"Your old bedroom is always free. That's where I have Katherine sleeping." Lily said.

"Sounds like a plan to me." Kaelyn said before gasping and putting a hand to her stomach.

"What is it?" Lily asked.

"The baby is kicking." Kaelyn said happily. "I finally named her today."

"Go ahead." Lily said.

"Lizzette Marie." Kaelyn said happily.

"That's a beautiful name." Lily said. "Does Chuck like it?"

"We haven't even spoken about it. We barely ever talk about the baby besides when we are fighting about something." Kaelyn said with a sigh. "I just want to be happy and it looks like lately that happy is without him."

"Where ever happy is, that's where you and Katherine belong." Lily said.

"Thanks." Kaelyn said with a yawn. "Well we better get to bed."