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"Arghhhhhhh! OH MY GOD OH HOLY MOTHER OF GOD! KILL ME NOW PLEASE - please…kill me"

I heard Jaspers screams coming from mine and Esmes bedroom where I had left him. I couldn't bare to be in there. She was though, as far as she was concerned Jasper was her son. Alice was there too, holding his hand. She had taken a shine to him. The others popped In and out occasionally to offer their comfort, but nothing, nothing, could save him now - well to his understanding. It had only been fifteen or sixteen hours, he still had a long way to go.

'Pull yourself together, Carlisle!" I very nearly shouted at myself. To hell with it I knew I was gonna go in there sometime, might as well be now.

"god…god….please just take me" I heard Jasper crying and whimpering as I walked up the stairs and lingered outside the bedroom door. I prepared myself for the worse and swung the door open.

It suddenly went silent. Well to me it was anyway. I think Jasper had concluded that screaming wasn't going to help the situation and had resulted to just whimpering into a pillow while my dear wife wiped the sweaty hair out of his eyes. I could see his scarred arms and hands clawing at his stomach and his shoulders moving up and down as he cried.

"There there Jasper im here, we're all hear, I know you cant understand this right now but this will get better I promise" Alice said in her sweet voice.

This evidently didn't help as Jasper let out a blood curling shout.

"STOP IT PLEASE!! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE…IM BURNING..PUT IT OUT MAKE IT STOP!!" fresh tears poured out of his eyes.

I snapped out of my trance and looked at him properly. He looked like death. He still had dried blood that matted to his hair and face. He was writhing around on our for show bed in agony - his hands still clawing at his stomach and chest. The gash on his head had obviously been deeper than I thought because it was still leaking down his face. Although he was doing a good job of cleaning it with the amount of sweat and tears also leaking from his face.

I suddenly wondered if I had made a mistake. Was I right to damn him to our way of life? He was just a boy - I know Edward and Emmett were also boys but there were very different situations. Edwards change for starters had been out of sheer selfishness. My desire to have someone else who knew what I was going through and how it felt and eventually hopefully a friend. I gained a son from that and I have never regretted it and same goes for my wife Esme. Emmetts change was for my beautiful daughter. She was determined not to let this man die which he most certainly would have had it not been for me. I never regretted that decision that resulted in a husband for my reluctant vampire daughter, and I could see that Emmett brought a ray of sunshine into the life that she despised so much. Alice had found me out of her own accord which was in the same way an added blessing to our family.

I felt different with Jasper. One look at his face and I felt I regretted it. Did I really? I mean I felt close to him I thank the lord that he ended up at my door. Vampire family or not I honestly cared for him. But not for one minute did I think of changing him. I know it looked bad on the road out there but times have changed since the others, they can heal people now from amazing injuries. Should I have given him another chance at human life?

"Carlisle.." an angels voice interrupted my thoughts. Esme my queen.

"huh?"

"Come here and talk to him - or at least sit with him."

I was at his side in a second and placed a cold hand upon his head hoping in some way that it may cool the burning. I was kidding myself though of course it wouldn't help, not in the slightest. He still screamed. His eyes squinted as if he was concentrating, he turned his gaze upon me.

"Carlisle…" was all he said before his eyes closed and the screaming stopped.

"Hes out for now" Alice noted to herself and cleared out of the room. Esme left too, but I stayed. I did this to him and I wasn't going to leave him in his time of need, conscious or not.

The silence didn't last long.

He awoke shaking and screaming,

He screamed all night.

And all day.

And all night again.

This continued until the third day. When he eventually closed his eyes again in some kind of pretend sleep. The last he would ever have. His heartbeat was slowing. Then it came to a stop. The venom had spread to his heart the most painful part I think if I recall correctly. And I did.

He didn't scream at first he moaned and groaned through gritted teeth and I thanked god that maybe it might be over for him, but his head suddenly jolted and the last of his ear splitting screams filled the house. The rest of my family was by our sides in an instant. They knew it was coming to an end. He screamed again - more loudly this time as the truest part of the pain took over. I would never forget that sound. Then suddenly it stopped. The silence I had been praying for took place. Silence.

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