A/N - 50 REVIEWS CELEBRATORY CHAPTER!!! Thank you soooo so much to everyone who has halped me get to the the big 50 it really means a lot.

Anyway - To the story. I really had great fun writing this chapter, especially the last bit. I hope you like it and as always i don't own Torchwood.

Enjoy!

The path moved steadily past him, as if he were in a trance. The sun pushed defiantly through the winter clouds casting a dim glow on the bare trees and the gravelled path that stretched away into the distance.

Jack plodded onwards, his face was pink and screwed up against the cold and he thought. He thought of all that had happened and all that could happen in the future.

His tired eyes looked up from watching the ground as they had been doing for miles. There was a figure in the distance. A tall, broad shouldered man dressed in a sharp suit beckoning for Jack to reach him.

Jack ran, as fast as he could, crying as he went – wanting so desperately to reach the end of that cruel path and be happy again. But, when he neared the end, there was no one there to meet him. He was still alone.

And then he woke up.

05th February

Well it's a lovely sunny morning. Again – morning, this is beginning to become a habit.

What Ianto did last night fills me with great sadness but also, I think, a tiny spark of hope. This hope is not the sensible, reasonable hope about Ianto finding happiness even if not with me, this is the selfish, Love induced hope that we will get back together.

We'd had our usual evening text conversation, stretching long into the night, so long that I think he fell asleep.

He broke up with Martina. For me – I think, though I told him not to. I didn't want to ruin yet another thing. I feel I have already ruined both Iantos life and my life and I really didn't want to ruin Iantos relationship with Martina as well. But that's over now and I suppose I will have to live with the guilt. I can't do anything right can I?

Ianto told me to stop beating myself up about all this and I said I would if he did as well. He agreed and honestly he has no reason to feel bad because nothing was his fault, it was all my fault.

He's got this new thing. He says I plan things and think about things too much and it's his new aim in life to make me more spontaneous. Really! Where would Torchwood be if everyone was spontaneous all the time? We'd never get anything done properly. It's good to be organised – have a plan.

To be honest I don't know how he's going to attempt to make me spontaneous. He said he might jump me!

Well I couldn't say it wouldn't be a nice surprise but I don't him to do anything he would regret later. You have to plan and think about these things. The last thing he sent me before – I think – he fell asleep was 'so how about it?'

I thought about that a lot. There are so many things it could mean - in my head at least. I hope Ianto's been thinking about what he is doing. I just don't want him to get hurt.

That day passed without too much bother, well before the evening came at any rate. UNIT had confirmed that Torchwoods position was assured but they insisted that they needed to have more meetings. Jack felt it was a complete waste of time but it was just one of those annoying things that had to be done. To be done for two more weeks! How many meetings could you have about nothing? They each lasted over an hour each and there were other things Jack could be doing, like thinking about the 'Ianto situation' or writing in his diary, maybe even some actual work.

That evening, when they had finished for the day, Jack walked Ianto back home. He was hoping to spend some time talking and having a serious conversation about their situation. Jack wanted to know what that lat text was suggesting. He was really hoping that maybe Ianto was going to ask if they could get back together but whenever he asked Ianto changed the subject. In the end he was just babbling about trousers and snow. He got some strange looks off people as he appeared to be talking to himself.

As was always the way, Jack received a message from Ianto just after they had parted. But it was not a normal message.

'I got Martina pregnant'

Jack felt awful, he almost started crying, 'how, when' he'd stuttered out a reply. Jack spent minutes that seemed like hours walking round not knowing what to do with himself – waiting for a reply. This couldn't be true, Ianto would never be that stupid would he? Did he do it to spite me? Millions of terrible possibilities and situations ran around his head again and again until Ianto's text came back with 'Not really I just wanted to see your reaction'.

Jack was so angry that Ianto could lie to him about something so huge and think it was funny.

There was a lot of back and forth messages after that about what they both really wanted and were they both happy and what would make them both happy. Quite confusing really. After a while they both just went online and had a proper conversation, well as proper as you can have online.

They both really wanted to. Inside. But Ianto wasn't sure if it was best and Jack didn't want to push him into anything. And that was the way the conversation stayed for a while until 'I know you won't push me into anything – that's why I love you.'

05th February – necessary continuation.

HE LOVES ME!!!!!!

He loves me he loves me he loves me he loves me he loves me he loves me he loves me he loves me!

He said he loves me! I am so happy right now I have been grinning and it doesn't look like I will stop grinning anytime soon. I Love him and he loves me. All we need now is to get back together and everything will be perfect.

A/N - Still more story to come it's not finished yet hehe. Please review because it makes me happy and i write quicker when i'm happy!